"X-Static Process" as written by and Stuart Price . Madonna....
I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am

I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call
I'm not myself at all

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am

I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too

I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I don't know how
I'm not myself, myself right now

Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around, I don't know who I am

I always wished that I could find someone as beautiful as you
But in the process I forgot that I was special too
I always wished that I could find someone as talented as you
But in the process I forgot that I was just as good as you


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"X-Static Process" as written by Stuart Price . Madonna

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    General CommentCan't believe no one has commented on this song yet.

    To me this song reflects someone realizing that they have completely changed who they are to fit into what another person (in this case, presumably a lover) wants them to be. When the relationship ends, or when they finally realize what is happening, they are left with no idea who or what they really are inside.

    I think the use of "Jesus Christ" isn't meant in any kind of religious context, I think it's meant to be sarcastic, like "Jesus, look at me, what the fuck is going on"
    mikeygoestohollywoodon March 10, 2010   Link
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    General CommentJesus as the best of the human beings - understanding, beautiful and kind. i always wanted to be like him, but when i fell in love with you i realized that i was as beautiful and good as him, because you made me feel this way. i fear that you might disappear and i wake up at night and i ask Him to look at me, to be with me because something went wrong, because you're gone. And then i realize that it's you breathing softly, and i love you and i won't let you go until sun breaks through the blinds
    knoflikon May 12, 2011   Link
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    Song MeaningWhen Madonna is all alone with her acoustic guitar-in this case-that is when she is at her absolute saddest. My favorite song from American Life, X-Static Process is once again, natch-about her mother's death. Our Lady Cries the Detroit Rock City Blues and she is angry at Jesus because He took away her mother. Madonna is crying and sad-all alone with her guitar and she is beside herself. She can't do anything about it now-she doesn't know what to do with herself. She is Wet. She is Sad. She is Angry. She is Enraged. She is trying to forgive Him but doesn't quite know how. She is at odds with her faith. She comes to terms that her mother is Gone. Yet Madonna Lives to Tell, Promises to Try and Takes a Bow knowing she will not forget her mother. In the end the once and future Wallis Evita Ciccone cries "I always Wish that I Can find someone as beautiful and talented as you but in the Process I Forgot that I was special too and just as good as you!" Madonna cries an MDNA Confeesion Ray of Light Prayer and lives her life with grace. Madonna believes in forgiveness and that's ok! Madonna will be just fine!
    rabbitbunnyon May 01, 2012   Link
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    General CommentGreat song! In my opinion x static process can be interpreted as the emotions that you feel when you are in love of someone that doesn't know anything of your feelings.
    Elisa92Won March 13, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI bought AMERICAN LIFE on my lunch the day it was released. I went back to my desk, put my headphones on and listened to it.

    When X-Static Process finished playing, I was in tears. It hit me that hard about an unrequited love.
    HellBlazerRaiseron August 11, 2013   Link
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    General Commenti couldnt agree more, ur comment describes it all....
    jhidheon December 28, 2010   Link
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    General Commenti couldnt agree more, ur comment describes it all....
    jhidheon December 28, 2010   Link

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