Faking My Own Suicide

Matthew Thiessen and the Earthquakes

So, I've made up my mind/
I will pretend to leave this world behind/
And in the end, you'll know I've lied/
To get your attention/
I'm faking my own suicided/

I'm faking my own suicide/
Because I know you love me/
You just haven't realized/

I'm faking my own suicide/
They'll hold a double funeral/
Because apart of you will die/
Along with me/
It's kind of sweet/

I wish you thought that I was dead/
So rather than me you'd be depressed instead/
And before arriving at my grave/
You'd come to the conclusion/
You'd loved me all your days/
But it's too late/
Too late for you to say/

Because I'm faking my own suicide/
Because I know you love me/
You just haven't realized/

Oh, I'm faking my own suicide/
They'll hold a double funeral/
Because apart of you will die/
Along with me/

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep/
Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep/
You say aloud that you would have been my wife/
Write about that time is when I come back to life/
And let you know/
I'd let you know all along I was.../
All along I was faking my own suicide/
Because I know you love me/
You just haven't realized/

I was faking my own suicide/
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide/
Opened so wide/
Because you know/

Because you know you will never leave my side/
Untill the day that I die for the first time/
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh/
And we will cry/
So overjoyed at the love that's so alive/
Our love is so alive/


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    first off, don't get on her case because she called him Matty. I'm pretty sure he calls himself that... anyways..

    The song is basically about a guy who fakes his own suicide to get the girl he like's attention/affection. After the girl realizes he's dead, she decides she loves him. That's when the guy comes back to life. It's pretty simple. There are like 1471781 interviews with him out there that explain what it means.

    downcasteyeson April 11, 2007   Link

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