"In Anticipation Of Your Suicide" as written by and Adam Samuel Goldman....
Your heart is always almost beating
along with windy frozen tunes.

But you say you've laughed enough,
your closet's stuffed with last year's blues.
But you know by summertime your suicide's just last year's news.

What will we find inside of your room?
Notes in the margins,
records always spinning.
Clues you know you want all to know
your little soul grew old too soon
and surprises lost their thrill.
Vodka, pills and the marquee moon.


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    General CommentI couldn't understand the last two lines.
    Sorryyyy, if someone can get them I would be glad to fix it.
    At any rate, the first time I heard this song was in Neu Wave Hookers, a porn by VCA. I work at a porn store and I try to check out all the more interesting looking ones, and Neu Wave Hookers is definitely not your average porn. "In Anticipation Of Your Suicide" comes in during the first sex scene.
    Getting on to the meaning - it's obviously about suicide. I don't think the person has actually killed themselves yet, but Adam can see it's coming. Anticipating someone's suicide seems cruel, but the lyrics make it sound as if he was just finished living ("but you say you've laughed enough"). Trying to go on further is the real cruelty.
    The almost upbeat sound emphasizes the fact that it's not a tragedy, it was what he wanted and it's done, so get over it ("but you know by summertime your suicide's just last year's news"). He doesn't want people to feel sorry for him, and he wants everyone to know that he was just finished ("clues you know you want all to know your little soul grew old too soon and surprises lost their thrill").
    That's my take on it.
    cutewhensedatedon June 20, 2006   Link
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    General CommentStill no other comments.
    That's sad, this is an amazing song.
    cutewhensedatedon September 21, 2006   Link
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    General Commenti know. it is amazing. did you really hear in it in a porno?
    charcoalsketchon February 06, 2007   Link
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    General Comment*hear it in
    charcoalsketchon February 06, 2007   Link
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    General Commenti messaged them on their myspace and asked what the last line is.
    it's: "vodka and pills and the 'marquee moon'"
    charcoalsketchon February 10, 2007   Link
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    General CommentLol. Yeah, Adam messaged me on AIM and told me the last line awhile back. I had forgotten my password though. Now that I'm back (yay) I don't know how to fix the damn lyrics! \
    And yeah, it was a porn lol.
    imdb.com/title/tt0823722/…
    cutewhensedatedon May 21, 2007   Link
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    General CommentAnd my interpretation was way off.
    cutewhensedatedon May 21, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI heard this song in the movie named "All the boys love Mandy Lane", and it is really a great song!
    wagneron September 28, 2008   Link
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    General CommentI just heard this song for the first time last week in the movie "All the boys love Mandy Lane". It is one of those songs that I knew right away that I really liked. I had to stop the movie, which was at the very beginning, just to find out the name and who sang it. I felt that meaning of the song was more about someone committing suicide and thinking that their actions would be much more impactful that what they really are. Leaving behind signs and clues that what they were dealing with in their lives was major and life changing while in actuality it was just overblown and shallow. Great song.
    mikedps3on April 22, 2012   Link

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