And I, I wanted to tear down the curtains
To let, let in some natural light
I wake up and open one eye
And wait for the window to crack at me, alone

And I, I wanted to curl up beside you
And die, at least for an hour or more
Depending on how you react
Depending on how you respond to me
I'll stick around

We're kidding ourselves kidding ourselves
So what do you want from me
'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab I'm alright 'cause I can leave home
We're kidding ourselves kidding ourselves
So what are you waiting for
'Cause even with a fast car and a cellphone I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone

So tonight, let's be as bold as we want to
And drink, drink 'til we fall down the steps
Remember how that made us laugh
Remember how all that we did was laugh, and cry

Well, we're kidding ourselves kidding ourselves
So what do you want from me
'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab I'm alright 'cause I can leave home
We're kidding ourselves kidding ourselves
So what are you waiting for
'Cause even on a boat a train or a jet plane I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone
And I'm lucky to find cardboard in an alleyway that I can call home

So tonight, let's be as bold as we want to run, four eyes ohhh
We're kidding ourselves kidding ourselves
So what do you want from me
'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab I'm alright 'cause I can leave home
We're kidding ourselves kidding ourselves
So what are you waiting for
'Cause even on a boat a train or a jet plane I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone
I'm lucky to find cardboard in an alleyway that I can call home
So don't take your eyes off me, don't look away
I won't be alone
At home



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    General Commentno one commented yet? I heard this song on the radio, and totally fell in love. soo good.
    divalauron August 21, 2006   Link
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    General Commentim not quite sue what this song means.
    its really cute though = )
    hopelessloveon September 01, 2006   Link
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    General Comment"So tonight, let's be as bold as we want to
    And drink, drink 'til we fall down the steps
    Remember how that made us laugh
    Remember how all that we did was laugh, and cry "

    haha i've actually had all of that happen to me and my friends. =P
    hopelessloveon September 01, 2006   Link
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    General CommentHaving listened to this song probably about 500 times in the last 24 hours, I'm here to talk about it.

    The overall mood of this song is the singer in crisis about a relationship, that may or may not have just gone through a recent break up. As you can see, he repeats past tense words as well as present tense, making my point more true.

    The first stanza: He talks about how he wanted to show all the flaws in the relationship, only he didn't(for some unknown reason). This could have been that he was in fear that it would ruin the relationship failing, or a number of other ones.

    The second stanza: He talks more about what he wanted to do in the relationship. He wanted to curl up beside them, and die, to see how they react. If they reacted in horror, like he knew they would, he would stay with them. This stanza is mainly highlighting some what of a day dream he had, where he and his girl would be happy at last.

    The Chorus: He talks about how their kidding themselves. This is refering to how the issue that they're having and won't lead to any permanent damage in the relationship. He believes that over time, it will fix, and they'll be happy. He's just waiting patiently as the other person figures out they're doing. This also states how he would never leave the person, because he would never want to be alone.

    Fourth stanza: In this section he speaks of how they will be acting that night. Lets go back to the old times, remember why we're together, and be happy again.

    Chorus again: The same as the first time, only an added line. He's "lucky to find cardboard in an alley way" that he can call home. This is saying that he's not very lucky with finiding a person to live with and love. This implies that he is indeed desperate, and suggests that this song might be a desperate cry of hope, which will in the end fail.

    The chorus repeats, and it's over. This ends with him requesting that the girl keeps her eyes on him, so that some day they will be back together again. Even though he can, he would never leave the girl, and he wishes with all of his heart that she will stay with him and pay attention, so they will work it out.

    I hope I hit the nail on the head, it'd be good. Thanks for reading! =)
    Cooldude3334on September 10, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI think of this song a little differently than the last post, It reminds me more of someone whose infatuated with someone else but neither of them think they should be together, hence the kidding ourselves.
    Except when they are together they are the only two people in the world, and nothing else matters, that's why he doesnt want to leave her, because when he's with her she's home to him.
    nutcoconuton October 23, 2006   Link
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    General Commenti think it's different...i guess everyone has their own interpretations...thats what i love about music haha. buut this is how i see it...

    I think the guy knows the relationship isn't working but he's so afraid of being alone that he doesn't want to end it. I think he kind of wants her to break it off with him just so that he won't have to maybe. "We're kidding ourselves. So what are you waiting for? 'Cause even with a fast car and a cellphone I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone" I think the relationship has too many extremes. It goes from amazing to horrible. All they did was laugh and cry. Depending on how she reacts when he lays beside her he'll hang around for a while...he says as long as theres a payphone and a taxi cab im alright cuz i can leave home. So when it gets really bad he can just leave...but at the same time, he doesn';t want to because hes scared of being alone.

    you knowwat...i cant explain things haha...but it makes sense in my head.
    so_chillon December 02, 2006   Link
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    General Commenti agree with everyone above.

    but this song really hits home for me for some reason.

    i personally think the singer is talking about showing someone that they are both feeling the same way about eachother. the 2 have probubly stopped hanging around with eachother like they used to, after finding out that they are starting to fall in love. and now, the singer relizes that their kidding themselves thinking that they can only be friends or even be even less then friends because the feelings between them are strong.
    and then, when he refers to being lucky to find cardboard in an alleyway that I can call home, its because he dosent feel like he has anywhere he belongs ever since they stopped being who they actually were.

    and then he says tht he wont be alone at home, meaning tht the only place he is truely home is with her, and tht she cant turn her back on him, because they are truely in love. and they have to stop kidding themselves

    i hope tht does the song justice.
    ashiion January 03, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI completely and totally agree with ashii.

    This song strikes me as two friends who feel more than just friendship, but are scared to go there. Maybe they're scared of what will happen but honestly they love eachother and there's no more point in hiding it.
    "Let's be as bold as we want to"
    hoping_alwayson January 04, 2007   Link
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    General CommentPS - I thought I should also mention that these lyrics were written out incorrectly. They're mostly right, but this is what was in the CD case.


    And I, I wanted to tear down the curtains
    To let, let in some natural light
    I wake up and open one eye
    And wait for the window to crack at me
    Alone

    And I, I wanted to curl up beside you
    And die
    At least for an hour or more
    Depending on how you react
    Depending on how you respond to me
    I'll stick around

    We're killing ourselves,
    Killing ourselves
    So what do you want from me
    'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab
    I'm alright
    'Cause I can leave home
    We're kidding ourselves
    Kidding ourselves
    So what are you waiting for
    'Cause even with a fast car and a cellphone,
    I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone

    So tonight, let's be as bold as we want to
    And drink
    Drink 'till we fall down the steps
    Remember how that made us laugh
    Remember how all that we did was laugh
    And then cry

    Well, we're killing ourselves
    Killing ourselves
    So what do you want from me
    'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxicab I'm alright,
    'Cause I can leave home
    We're kidding ourselves
    Kidding ourselves
    So what are you waiting for
    'Cause even on a boat a train or a jet plane,
    I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone
    And I'm lucky to find cardboard in an alleyway
    That I can call home

    So tonight
    Let's be as bold as we want to

    We're killing ourselves,
    Killing ourselves
    So what do you want from me
    'Cause as long as there's a payphone and a taxi cab I'm alright,
    'Cause I can leave home
    We're kidding ourselves
    Kidding ourselves
    So what are you waiting for
    'Cause even on a boat a train or a jet plane,
    I won't leave 'cause I'd be alone
    I'm lucky to find cardboard in an alleyway that I can call home
    So don't take your eyes off me,
    Don't look away. You wont be alone.
    hoping_alwayson January 04, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI feel as though the narrator of this story has very low self-esteem and confidence in himself.

    verse by verse:

    Stanza 1:
    The narrator has met a really amazing person, but feels unworthy of their love. He wonders when they will realize this and leave him to wake up alone in the morning.

    stanza 2:
    He wants to try and be with this person, he wants to be loved, but fears his attempt to get close to them will be turned down and he'll ultimately be alone.

    chorus:
    The narrator is asking the other person in the relationship why they are sticking around when they can have so much more. The narrator wonders if he is kidding himself by thinking this person truly wants him.

    The narrator says he can call it quits any time, but since this person is sticking around, he's not going to go anywhere in fear of being alone again. He feels running away from what could have been is a stupid choice, so he's leaving it up to the other person to end the relationship.

    stanza 3
    He wants this person to think about all the good things they see in him. He is trying to convince the other person to stay by leaving out all the bad qualities about him and only letter them in on the good things so they don't leave for something better.

    "I'm lucky to find cardboard in an alleyway that I can call home" - That line is the narrators way of saying that he has a hard time finding anyone out there who is even remotely interested in him, he's lucky to find anything. He wonders why a guy so unlucky in love has found such an amazing person that truly likes him.

    "Don't take your eyes off of my, don't look away, I won't be alone" - He hopes that despite the flaws the narrator has, they will stick around because he really likes that they can look past the flaws he has. He really appreciates this persons company and love, because he's never felt anything quite like it before. Genuine feelings of love towards him.

    I think SO many people can relate to this because I'm sure a lot of you have been in a relationship where you just felt completely unworthy of the other persons love. They were just too good to be true and could find someone that could love them a bit more than you.
    ISLEOFYEWon March 04, 2007   Link

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