This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Yo,
If I could start from scratch, I�d change most of it,
If u gave me your trust, I wouldn't of broken it,
I shoulda helped you out, back in 97�,
Shit I wouldn�t of let u go I woulda made your life heaven
I woulda hushed my mouth, gave my shit up,
I woulda minded my own business, n not let things get fucked,
Up, I woulda gone to church, maybe become a saint,
Erased this so-called picture we paint,
I woulda bin a soldier, no matter what shit
I woulda bin perfect, the man u want-ed
I never woulda slacked, now this is a fact
I never woulda rhymed, ova this track
If u didn�t want it, I never woulda rapped,
But this is my life n we can�t change that
I woulda bin there, I never woulda tried
I would never want to live, I never woulda lied
I woulda changed it all back, to the past you see,
I never woulda let you put your fingers on me
I woulda let you be, keep my hands off the gun,
I never woulda changed, never try for number 1
I would never of intervened, just you n your son,
N now I�m revelating, putting it all into a song
I would never of invited you to any show I did,
I wouldn�t of wanted you to show, even though you did
I would never shed a tear for a girl I can�t stand,
I never woulda back-talked, never raised a hand
I would never want you to think, that this shit was planned,
I woulda let you go, but I didn�t think you�d understand
That we could never be together, I could never be your man,
But if I could turn back time I wouldn�t put you through this again
I never woulda thought, that we could be buddies,
I never woulda asked for any pennies of your money
But its just the way you were, you were so cunning,
That�s why I couldn�t be your man, n you couldn�t be my honey
Now I gotta start from scratch, change my whole past,
I�d change it all, make sure I never asked,
You out on a date cuz if I knew it would never last
I woulda forgotten all about you n erased you from the cast
I don�t make shit up, I speak truth if I�m rapping
But if I could go back in time, �us� never woulda happened
(Chorus) x2
baby im sorry
it all ended in a hurry
I didn't wanna cause no worries
but now i gotta leave..
(Konman)
Yo yo ayo
I�m fed up wid bein rejected
Detected, by your radar
You heard me and you ejected the tape
No theres no escape
I can�t believe there�s no-one here to see my true self, all they remember of me is rape
I try, I fail, I sigh I lie in my bedroom waitin for another world, I sleep, I die
In a dream waitin for you to come and sweep me away
It�ll never come, its like I�m dreamin on hennesay.
I�m waitin for the girl that likes me for who I am
And looks past the shit in my life full barrier like a dam
This ain�t no piss take
Words be spillin like a lake
And I wouldn�t give to shits if u diss this like I�m a fake
I�m waitin for my eyes to awake, cuz I�ve just excepted this reality
And there is a reason why a lot of people are still mad at me
From year 5, year, 6 it ended at year 7
My trouble years, this is true like the destruction of 9/11
I went down the wrong path girl but I promise
If u take me in now, I wont make a mistake
Or be a misogynist.
If I could start from scratch, I�d change most of it,
If u gave me your trust, I wouldn't of broken it,
I shoulda helped you out, back in 97�,
Shit I wouldn�t of let u go I woulda made your life heaven
I woulda hushed my mouth, gave my shit up,
I woulda minded my own business, n not let things get fucked,
Up, I woulda gone to church, maybe become a saint,
Erased this so-called picture we paint,
I woulda bin a soldier, no matter what shit
I woulda bin perfect, the man u want-ed
I never woulda slacked, now this is a fact
I never woulda rhymed, ova this track
If u didn�t want it, I never woulda rapped,
But this is my life n we can�t change that
I woulda bin there, I never woulda tried
I would never want to live, I never woulda lied
I woulda changed it all back, to the past you see,
I never woulda let you put your fingers on me
I woulda let you be, keep my hands off the gun,
I never woulda changed, never try for number 1
I would never of intervened, just you n your son,
N now I�m revelating, putting it all into a song
I would never of invited you to any show I did,
I wouldn�t of wanted you to show, even though you did
I would never shed a tear for a girl I can�t stand,
I never woulda back-talked, never raised a hand
I would never want you to think, that this shit was planned,
I woulda let you go, but I didn�t think you�d understand
That we could never be together, I could never be your man,
But if I could turn back time I wouldn�t put you through this again
I never woulda thought, that we could be buddies,
I never woulda asked for any pennies of your money
But its just the way you were, you were so cunning,
That�s why I couldn�t be your man, n you couldn�t be my honey
Now I gotta start from scratch, change my whole past,
I�d change it all, make sure I never asked,
You out on a date cuz if I knew it would never last
I woulda forgotten all about you n erased you from the cast
I don�t make shit up, I speak truth if I�m rapping
But if I could go back in time, �us� never woulda happened
(Chorus) x2
baby im sorry
it all ended in a hurry
I didn't wanna cause no worries
but now i gotta leave..
(Konman)
Yo yo ayo
I�m fed up wid bein rejected
Detected, by your radar
You heard me and you ejected the tape
No theres no escape
I can�t believe there�s no-one here to see my true self, all they remember of me is rape
I try, I fail, I sigh I lie in my bedroom waitin for another world, I sleep, I die
In a dream waitin for you to come and sweep me away
It�ll never come, its like I�m dreamin on hennesay.
I�m waitin for the girl that likes me for who I am
And looks past the shit in my life full barrier like a dam
This ain�t no piss take
Words be spillin like a lake
And I wouldn�t give to shits if u diss this like I�m a fake
I�m waitin for my eyes to awake, cuz I�ve just excepted this reality
And there is a reason why a lot of people are still mad at me
From year 5, year, 6 it ended at year 7
My trouble years, this is true like the destruction of 9/11
I went down the wrong path girl but I promise
If u take me in now, I wont make a mistake
Or be a misogynist.
Lyrics submitted by ButNeverOutgunned
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Where can I listen to this song?? I can't find it on youtube and it sounds like it would be soo sick