"First Timer" as written by and Steven P. Smith....
You're a first timer, blaming everybody else
For the hard time you give yourself

In the cold riddle where you find yourself not blocked
By a door you locked

But don't get backed into a corner
Talking to yourself
Come on back to me
My pride tomorrow

You feel hollow
And you know it's because you are
Well at least so far

I think of you with hesitation
I think of you too hard
Come on back to me
But don't make me sorry

You're a first timer, blaming everybody else
For the hard time you give yourself
For the hard time you give yourself


Lyrics submitted by HughLloyd, edited by jbj1138, SixThreeTimes

"First Timer" as written by Steven P. Smith

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  • +5
    General Commenti think these are pretty off for the most part?
    doing it by ear


    i'm a first timer
    wishing i was someone else
    when i see you by yourself
    in a corridor, where you find yourself not locked
    by the doors you locked

    you won't do what the doctor ordered,
    you won't see someone else
    come on back to me, my bright tomorrow

    and you say you feel hollow
    and you know it's cause you are
    well at least so far

    i think of you with hesitiation
    i think of you too hard
    come on back to me,
    but don't make me sorry

    i'm a first timer
    wishing i had been someone else
    seeing you by yourselfx2
    feelgoodrvltnon April 25, 2007   Link
  • +4
    General Commenthe's actually talking to himself in this song. the self that he knows is there and is true, but which is also the same self everyone wants to fix.

    'you wont do what the doctor ordered you wont see someone else' he cant see himself any other way. he cant look at himself and his life without a horrible feeling of unworthiness/emptiness.
    'come on back to me, my bright tomorrow' he wants to be back to a time/place when the future looked less dark
    'in a corridor where you find yourself not blocked by the doors you locked.' (correction there btw) - he cant shut people out of his life as easy as he thinks.
    'wishing i was someone else when i see you by yourself' - an introspective thought or idea of what it would be like to be 'normal' (someone else). this only gets imagined when he sees/realizes/feels how much he has disconnected himself from everyone.
    'you say you feel hollow, and you know its cause you are' - obvious feelings of emptiness. by him saying/thinking them it makes the feelings more true and real.
    'i think of you with hesitation, i think of you too hard' - at first hesitation then over analysis of him fitting in and being happy with people.
    'come on back to me, but dont make me sorry' - he wants the good/positive/happy self back. but only if it doesn't let him down.

    i dont know i could be far off here. but this is me. thats why i feel like i get it.
    mcflyguy42on June 10, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThe images that come to mind when I hear this song, is of a man at a meeting, like an AA meeting or something like, it is his first time, he is nervous and pretty uncomfortable, having to admit he has a problem is really frightening to him. But then he looks around and sees a pretty girl sitting there, alone, as well. And to calm himself down he creates a little fantasy about her. Again, this is just what I see upon listening, but the meaning is probably somewhere along the lines of having admit something and the fear of accepting your own words.
    Revealing_Too_Muchon May 04, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThe REASON the lyrics are "wrong" here is because they're from a live version. NOT the New Moon version, which was released AFTER the live version came about.
    IEATFOODOKAYGUYon May 23, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI would never say anyone was wrong on here. Songs are meant to be interpreted however one feels. However, I would say that this is one of those Elliott Smith songs that is not about drugs.

    A lot of Elliott's songs are about relationships, in most cases the loss of someone, having been dumped, and the pain he feels, his hopelessness, etc. In this case, I think he was the one dumping someone, in essence...for the first time.

    He wishes he was someone else because he feels terrible about what he did and can't stand seeing this person he loves by themselves, without help. This person clearly has some issues, probably similar to his own issues of depression and self-hatred. She won't do what her doctor orders (ie - take medication), she won't move on to another relationship ("see someone else"). He wants to take her back because he loves her, but he hesitates because he knows how bad they are for each other. I think that's it in a nutshell, at least how I see it.
    ColorBar77on December 24, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentPS - this was my interpretation of the album version, not the lyrics posted above. Also, I believe the lyric is "where you find yourself not blocked by the doors you locked"
    ColorBar77on December 24, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentFor me this song is about finding yourself in the same waiting room or at a bus stop, in this case probably a corridor with a beautiful girl who’s there on her own An opportunity which most alpha males would lap up without any hesitation. However the narrator is not one of them. Even though this desired girl’s body language suggests a willingness to be spoken to and a possibility that she might like him back, he knows that his shyness will always prevail and he won’t say or do a damn thing. He has a love/hate relationship with his condition of being overly shy. He hates the fact that it will cause him to let such an opportunity pass him by, So much so that he wishes he’d been ‘someone else’ perhaps even the very type of person he despises, the alpha male. He’s even seeked help by seeing a ’doctor’ but wouldn’t do what he prescribed because, on the other hand, he finds his condition comforting and therefore difficult to let go of. There’s always a payoff. Perhaps if he wasn’t so shy he wouldn’t have the inspiration to write such a beautiful song, Its also what makes him unique from the ‘someone else’ he wishes he could’ve been ……. then again it could be about drugs;)
    b4modelon March 15, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General Commentcorrection on feelgood's and mcflyguy's lyrics..

    "in a corridor, where you find yourself NOW blocked, by the doors you locked" not to be nitpicky but I got a live version and you can clearly hear the "now"
    Dogbyte420on October 09, 2008   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI think that this song is about seeing someone you had a relationship with. Maybe someone who ended the relationship for their own reasons, and left your feelings out. It is about seeing that person all over the place by themselves, available to the whole world accept for you, and yet they are by themselves, they are not receiving attention from anybody else, and it is a torture to you because you know how much you love them, and just how you feel about them. Yet there is nothing you can do but watch them wait or slip away, until somebody comes along and takes them from your life forever.
    jamesthameson December 11, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI guess I feel like he is saying that he wishes he could be someone else so he could go up and start anew with whomever he is writing about (to have a fresh start for say.) I think that the part in which he says you won't do what the doctor ordered,
    you won't see someone else
    come on back to me, my bright tomorrow

    He could be talking about himself not being capable of moving on, or taking medication to repress feelings about somebody he loved and lost. or it could be him trying to convince whoever it is that they still love him and that their reluctance to see other people, or take medication is reason that they still care from him, and are afraid of dulling themselves with drugs, or trying to replace him with someone else. I truly believe the song is about loving someone else so much, and realizing all of the bullshit about healthy relationships, and coping methods that psychologists market for a profit, when in reality love is a very natural thing, bitter and sweet, cruel and kind, but by no means something anyone should ever deny.
    jamesthameson December 11, 2009   Link

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