The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
It's almost like you had it planned
Its like you smiled and shook my hand
And said hey
I'm about to screw you
Over big time
What was I supposed to do
I was stuck in between you
And a hard place
We won't talk about the hard place
But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life.
Its how you wanted it to be
Its like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end
And I think that I cried for days
But now it seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was
'Cause I don't blame you anymore
'Cause its too much pain to store
'Cause it left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life
I think I cried for days
But now that seems like light years away
And I'm never going back to who I was
I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life
That life seems like light years away.
Light years away.
That life seems like light years away.
Light years away.
Its like you smiled and shook my hand
And said hey
I'm about to screw you
Over big time
What was I supposed to do
I was stuck in between you
And a hard place
We won't talk about the hard place
But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life.
Its how you wanted it to be
Its like you played a joke on me
And I lost a friend
In the end
And I think that I cried for days
But now it seems light years away
And I'm never going back
To who I was
'Cause I don't blame you anymore
'Cause its too much pain to store
'Cause it left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life
I think I cried for days
But now that seems like light years away
And I'm never going back to who I was
I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life
That life seems like light years away.
Light years away.
That life seems like light years away.
Light years away.
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It’s almost like you had it planned Its like you smiled and shook my hand and said hey I’m about to screw you Over big time
What was I supposed to do I was stuck in between you and a hard place We wont talk about the hard place
[He fucked her over. She had nothing else to do but leave him. She feels as if this was his plan all along.]
But I don’t blame you anymore That’s too much pain to store It left me half dead inside my head And boy looking back I see I’m not the girl I used to be when I lost my mind It saved my life.
[She's not the person that she used to be. Hating and blaming him is more pain than what it's worth. "When I lost my mind" - Meaning when she 'lost her mind' and left him. In the end, it saved her life because she's so much of a better person.]
Its how you wanted it to be Its like you played a joke on me and I lost a friend in the end and I think that I cried for days but now it seems light years away and im never going back to who I was
[He could have prevented it from happening. From hurting her, but he didn't. He lost not only a love, but a great friendship. 'I think I cried for days' - She can't even remember, because she's moved on to a whole nother life and is a different person. Grown up. She can't go back to being young and naive.]
Cause I don’t blame you anymore Cause its too much pain to store Cause it left me half dead Inside my head And boy looking back I see I’m not the girl I used to be when I lost my mind It saved my life
I think I cried for days but now that seems like light years away and I’m never going back to who I was
I don’t blame you anymore that’s too much pain to store It left me half dead inside my head And boy looking back I see I’m not the girl I used to be when I lost my mind It saved my life
That life seems like light years away. Light years away.
That life seems like light years away. Light years away.
Agreed. I like the story of her not going back to this guy who broke her heart.