"Table for One" as written by and Phair....
I'm walking down in the basement
I'm leaning on the washing machine
I'm reaching back through a hole in the wall's insulation
I'm pulling out a bottle of vodka
Replacing that with a pint of Jim Bean
I'm lying down on the floor until I feel better

It's morning and I pour myself coffee
I drink it til the kitchen stops shaking
I'm backing out of the driveway
And into creation

And the loving spirit that follows me
Watching helplessly, will always forgive me

Oh, I want to die alone
With my sympathy beside me
I want to bring down all those demons who drank with me
Feasting bleed through me
On my desperation

I hide all the bottles in places
They find and confront me with pain in their eyes
And I promise that I'll make some changes

But reaching back it occurs to me
There will always be some kind of crisis for me

Oh, I want to die alone
With my sympathy beside me
I want to bring back all those moments they stole from me
In my reverie
Darkening days end

Oh, I want to die alone
With my memories inside me
I want to live that life
When I could say people had faith in me
I still see that guy in my memory

Oh, I want to die alone
With my sympathy beside me
I want to bring down all those people who drank with me
Watching happily
My humiliation


Lyrics submitted by sav127, edited by brynhild275, Quesito

"Table for One" as written by Brian Vander Ark Julianna Hatfield

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  • +3
    My OpinionI cannot fault anyone who has posted comments on this song referring to alcoholism. It is however obvious from those comments that nobody has lived it. Nobody who has not lived it can hope to understand it. Nobody can "help" us but ourselves and even fewer of us still, can.
    RonLeeon March 27, 2012   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis is a very beautiful, sad song. Probably the most introspective that I've heard from her.

    I think it's obvious what she's talking about- she's trying to sober up and is looking back with disdain at the people who were there with her but didn't do anything to help.
    BarryKardonon April 04, 2006   Link
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    General Commenti agree that she's trying to sober up, but i don't think she's actually angry with those who didn't try to help. when she sings, "I hide all the bottles in places/ They find and confront me with pain in their eyes," i feel like she has people who are trying to help, but she doesn't want or cannot accept the help. when she sings, "And the loving spirit that follows me/ Watching helplessly, will always forgive me," i feel somewhat like she's upset with her friends/family for enabling by forgiving, but i also think that she's partially taking advantage of the forgiveness.
    she says that she'll try to change, but she knows (and so do they) that it's an empty promise. alcoholism is quite difficult to break, and no one is ever truly free from any addiction. also true with most addictions is the correlation that can be drawn between the addiction and some form of low self-esteem. when she's wanting to die alone, she's beating herself up for pushing people out of her life, knowing that she can't be in a healthy relationship with a person while she's still committed to the addiction.
    brown_polyesteron December 18, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentobviously a song about being an alcoholic and depressed... a very strange song to hear from Liz.
    SMUSER17185761on June 20, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti absolutely love this song. it is so sad and speaks to me. liz phair needs to put out another cd
    ubervamp5on September 22, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commenthas Liz ever talked openly about being an alcoholic? the music is so beautiful and the lyrics heartbreaking.
    bobo5467on August 28, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentMistake above, should be:

    Feasting *gleefully*
    On my desperation

    Not "feasting bleed through me" (which doesn't really make any sense at all, grammatically or logically)
    brynhild275on July 11, 2013   Link
  • -1
    General CommentPeople - get out of the line of thinking that assumes everything an artist writes is autobiographical. The speaker of this song is clearly not Phair herself. For evidence, see the line,

    I want to live that life
    When I could say people had faith in me
    I still see that guy in my memory

    Clearly, the lyrics are self-referntial. The speaker is a character Phair has created. And I think it's purposefully non-specific. But that doesn't make it *about* her.
    pt218on July 10, 2013   Link

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