This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I've been trying to walk out of my past.
Left behind I'm always the last.
I think it's time to let go of this fear
And try to find a way out of here.
I've got to clear out my head from this mess.
It brings me down and leaves me in stress.
I think that with you I made a mistake.
Now I'm motionless in empty space.
Were you scared to be closer to me?
What did you fear?
I let you near but you brought me down here.
Don't you see how everything's holding me back.
Don't you see now everything's holding me back.
I've been hurt, I've been burnt, you could be helping me out.
Don't you see now you're the one holding me back.
You were the one who gave me reasons to try.
The one who left me with anger inside.
I heard your need for me had been replaced
From someone else when you lied to my face.
Were you scared to be closer to me?
What did you fear?
I let you near but you brought me down here.
Don't you see how everything's holding me back.
Don't you see now everything's holding me back.
I've been hurt, I've been burnt, you could be helping me out.
Don't you see now you're the one holding me back.
I just wish it all away.
You just take a piece of me and keep running further.
Will you ever go away?
You don't really wanna stay even though you come closer to me.
Don't you see how everything's holding me back.
Don't you see now everything's holding me back.
I've been hurt, I've been burnt, you could be helping me out.
Don't you see now you're the one holding me back.
You're the one holding me back, you're the one holding me back
Left behind I'm always the last.
I think it's time to let go of this fear
And try to find a way out of here.
I've got to clear out my head from this mess.
It brings me down and leaves me in stress.
I think that with you I made a mistake.
Now I'm motionless in empty space.
Were you scared to be closer to me?
What did you fear?
I let you near but you brought me down here.
Don't you see how everything's holding me back.
Don't you see now everything's holding me back.
I've been hurt, I've been burnt, you could be helping me out.
Don't you see now you're the one holding me back.
You were the one who gave me reasons to try.
The one who left me with anger inside.
I heard your need for me had been replaced
From someone else when you lied to my face.
Were you scared to be closer to me?
What did you fear?
I let you near but you brought me down here.
Don't you see how everything's holding me back.
Don't you see now everything's holding me back.
I've been hurt, I've been burnt, you could be helping me out.
Don't you see now you're the one holding me back.
I just wish it all away.
You just take a piece of me and keep running further.
Will you ever go away?
You don't really wanna stay even though you come closer to me.
Don't you see how everything's holding me back.
Don't you see now everything's holding me back.
I've been hurt, I've been burnt, you could be helping me out.
Don't you see now you're the one holding me back.
You're the one holding me back, you're the one holding me back
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Why only one comment? This song is amazing. I love it soo much.
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