I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Chemicals keep me under control
Sleeping at the wheel
I can't feel my face
Maybe it's better this way
My stomach's twisted, all tied up in knots
And I'm feeling like I don't want this
Killing time as the clock goes
Tick tock, tick tock
They'll never keep you away from me
I know where you'll be tomorrow
What difference does it make to you?
I don't care ain't got the time
Winning the race for another line
It's written in my mind
Just to get it all away from me
Away from me
'Cause I think I'm falling
'Cause I think I'm falling
Falling out of touch with life
And I'm thinking it's all just a big mistake
I think I'm falling
Falling, out of touch with life
So what have I been telling myself?
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating me away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague, so wrong
So what have I been telling myself?
So I've been chosen
To be the victim of
Your misery
That's right I'm frozen
Chemicals keep me under control
So cold from all the ice and amphetamines
That I just might make you think
That Jesus was your middle name
As though it seems to be an act of God
But for now go ahead and believe what
You want to believe
'Cause I think I'm falling
'Cause I think I'm falling
Falling out of touch with life
And I'm thinking it's all just a big mistake
I think I'm falling
Falling out of touch with life
So what have I been telling myself
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating me away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So wrong
So what have I been telling myself?
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Myself
You know what kills me?
Chemicals keep me under control
Why is everybody hooked on
When you feel so desperate you got your grip on me
I take away all the trust and all the sympathy
Why is everybody hooked on everybody else
I'll guess I'll never understand it
Come and fill your head with lies
No I can't explain
Why everyone seems so vague
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating me away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Deep Inside it's eating me away
Feelings are so vague
Feelings are so vague
Sleeping at the wheel
I can't feel my face
Maybe it's better this way
My stomach's twisted, all tied up in knots
And I'm feeling like I don't want this
Killing time as the clock goes
Tick tock, tick tock
They'll never keep you away from me
I know where you'll be tomorrow
What difference does it make to you?
I don't care ain't got the time
Winning the race for another line
It's written in my mind
Just to get it all away from me
Away from me
'Cause I think I'm falling
'Cause I think I'm falling
Falling out of touch with life
And I'm thinking it's all just a big mistake
I think I'm falling
Falling, out of touch with life
So what have I been telling myself?
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating me away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague, so wrong
So what have I been telling myself?
So I've been chosen
To be the victim of
Your misery
That's right I'm frozen
Chemicals keep me under control
So cold from all the ice and amphetamines
That I just might make you think
That Jesus was your middle name
As though it seems to be an act of God
But for now go ahead and believe what
You want to believe
'Cause I think I'm falling
'Cause I think I'm falling
Falling out of touch with life
And I'm thinking it's all just a big mistake
I think I'm falling
Falling out of touch with life
So what have I been telling myself
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating me away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So wrong
So what have I been telling myself?
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Myself
You know what kills me?
Chemicals keep me under control
Why is everybody hooked on
When you feel so desperate you got your grip on me
I take away all the trust and all the sympathy
Why is everybody hooked on everybody else
I'll guess I'll never understand it
Come and fill your head with lies
No I can't explain
Why everyone seems so vague
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating me away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Must be the rage deep down inside of me
Eating away
Eating me away
Feelings are so vague
So what have I been telling myself?
Deep Inside it's eating me away
Feelings are so vague
Feelings are so vague
Lyrics submitted by Hraesvelg
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