"Flawed Design" as written by and Kevin Paul/dryfhout Kadish....
When I was a young boy I was honest and I had more self-
Control if I was tempted I would run
Then when I got older I began to lie to get exactly
What I wanted when I wanted it
And I wanted it

Now I'm having trouble differentiating between what I
Want and what I need to make me happy,
So instead of thinking, I just act before I have a chance to
Contemplate the consequence of action

And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head

Cause I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to all the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this all a part of my
Flawed design

And ever since I figured out that I could control other people
I've had trouble sleeping with both eyes closed
And if I ask permission, if I make sure it's okay,
I promise I won't slip up this time, you can trust me

But never take advice from someone who just admitted to being devious, who just confessed to treason
And I would ask you never a question that I cannot ask myself
For it might dirty up your conscience

Cause I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to all the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this all a part of my

How can you say those things? Why can't you just believe?
How can you say those things and keep a straight face?
How can you say those things? Why can't we just believe?
How can you say those things and keep a straight face?

And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head

Cause I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to all the time
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this all a part of my

Cause I lie
And if I could control it
Maybe I could leave it all behind
Yeah, I lie
And I don't even know it
Maybe this is all a part of my
Flawed design


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"Flawed Design" as written by Christopher John Moerman Chris Moerman

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  • +2
    My InterpretationMany of you make very good interpretations, but here's another one:
    Sociopath.

    It's often thought a sociopath is not aware of their disorder or how their actions hurt others, but this is not exactly true.
    To me, the song sounds like a sociopath realizing/explaining how their life has gone so far.
    "Flawed design" and the "chemicals" would thus point to the theory that there is something fundamentally wrong with people like that, that can not be changed.

    Even though the character briefly acknowledges that there are negative consequences for his actions, he once again returns to "I lie..Not because I want to, but I seem to need to".
    He does not feel guilty, because whenever he is faced with his problem, he WILL shut down.
    Note that he is using definite words (I am, I will, it is) when talking about his condition.

    "Trouble sleeping with both eyes closed", to me, is not a sign of remorse either.
    Once a sociopath gets active ("I realized I could control other people", he will crave more and more control over his surroundings.
    He keeps "one eye open", making sure he has control over everything his victim does.

    The "how can you say those things" part is obviously someone else talking.
    Perhaps it's us, the "unflawed", having learned of his true nature, shocked at how he is able to do it.
    At the same time he is having a hard time keeping a straight face. He can't help but enjoy it.
    He even shows us how easily he traps us:
    "And if I ask permission, if I make sure it's ok, I promise I won't slip up this time, you can trust me."
    So we trust him. He promised. But then he says:
    "But never take advice from someone who just admitted to being devious and just confessed to treason."
    in other words: "see what I did there? it's that easy."
    in the last part of the verse he reminds us that we are not so unlike him.
    Everybody lies, so how can we expect more of him?
    Also he reminds us that if we judge him for being a user, then we have to judge ourselves for being so gullible.

    it's probably obvious that I'm a person who has been targeted by such a "devious" person.
    It's amazing what these people are capable of. While knowing exactly what they are doing.
    trageekon September 14, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is about someone that got everything he wanted: things like money, prestige, popularity, etc.. And by going after these things he went against this morals and beliefs, shuting out his conscience. Now, he got everything he wanted.. but hes still not happy and he realizes that he wanted all the wrong things... But he pretends that everything is ok blaming it on "his flawed design" aka the imperfections of humanity. So he lies to himself because the truth, it hurts..
    Acid_Dreameron April 30, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI completely agree with hogkill2

    Something tells me that the writer or someone he knows is/was suffering from a mental "disorder".

    Reason 1: The line "The chemicals are restless in my head"
    Reason 2: This song describes me so well that it's scares me. Yes I have a "disorder"

    If I had to take a stab at which disorder I'd go for ADHD or something related to it. But if I was to pinpoint it I'd pick Inattentive ADHD, which is what I was diagnosed with. Basically you can't focus and concentrate like regular ADHD, but you're not hyper. And guess what one of the side affects of my meds (that are supposed to help) is? Guess the right one and I'll give u a cookie
    Nijelloon November 07, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI agree with hogkill2. To reiterate: I think this song is about someone who manipulates everybody around him to get exactly what he wants. He ignores morality and doesn't care about the repricussions. In short, he's a compulsive liar.
    yousaidloveon March 22, 2007   Link
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    General Commentgotta disagree with you yousaidlove.

    The thing to me that makes it interesting is that the person DOES care and feels guilty about it.

    "And ever since I figured out that I could control other people
    I’ve had trouble sleeping with both
    Eyes closed"

    Not sure if I'm missing some meaning here, but I take it as you try to sleep but you just can't cuz ur thinking of wut u did. You may have a straight face during the lie, but not after.
    Also, whenever you get into trouble and u go to bed, ur not really sleeping but if sumone comes in to check on u, u might have one eye slightly open to see wut's goin on.
    I dunt think it's really about watching ur bak tho since u "control" those people.

    "‘Cause I lie
    And if I could control it
    Maybe I could leave it all behind (leave it all behind)"

    Doesn't want to lie, lies because the person feels like they have to, not want to. And the singer's saying that if he can stop this lying then he can turn his life around. He can leave this life that he created.

    Read over hogkill2's post again and look for the stuff about hating urself for doin it and trying (or at least saying to urself) to turn it around
    Nijelloon April 17, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentOh, crikey. This song speaks to me on a whole bunch of levels but the place I want to talk about is the sense that the author recognizes that he started one (more innocent?) place, went somewhere else (the self-agrandizing-manipulative one?) and now can see where he was in a kind of self deprecating, truthful way. Doesn't want to be in that 'tween' space, but boy does it call you. It's a way of being, a way that is alluring, attractive and so self-fulfilling. BUT, it uses people and feel bad about that part. I don't know how to rein it in .... and I wish I didn't like it ... and it will probably happen again and again (that old addiction!).

    "‘Cause I lie
    Not because I want to
    But I seem to need to all the time (need to all the time)"

    NEED being the key word. "I know it's not good for me, but I NEED it". If that doesn't describe addiction to a way of behaving, then I don't know what does.

    Sure, it could be mental illness (aka ADHD, Personality Disorders, etc.), but it could also doesn't have to be so clinical. It could also be behavioural patterns and the author is aware of it. How about I have a family history of lying, supposedly to protect everyone else but there's also a self serving quality to it? I know I shouldn't do it; I don't like the result; but damn! Short term gain sure feels better than that long term gain! (I don't believe this, but I can understand the allure, esp. when you have parents/familial relationships that teach you that you're own pleasure means more than it's impact. That ubiquitous, "Go for it. You deserve it!" that is applied in way too many undeserving circumstances .....

    To me the key in this song is that the author knows the cad that he is; he knows he doesn't want to be and perhaps is striving for better; but there is little probability - perhaps even possibility - that he will live up to the man that he feels he should and wants to be right now ... so he's trying to do the most decent thing he can do right now and tell you, that he lie's.

    Here's to hoping for a better tomorrow those around him who have been perhaps duped by the trappings of fame, kindness and the possibility of happiness. Maybe the author hopes they will both achieve happiness and avoid disaster.

    Sure hope so!
    Titianon April 19, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentyea, I gotta take back the ADHD thing. At that time I was recently diagnosed, and so when I finally took a careful look at the lyrics I jumped to conclusions and was like "that's why I'm like this!"

    However, I do think that it influenced pretty heavily the way I turned out. If my ADHD was to magically disapear, I would still be like this. You can fix the leaky pipe in ur flooded basement, but that doesn't mean all the water damage magically disapears.

    Now that I got that out of the way...

    "‘Cause I lie
    Not because I want to
    But I seem to need to all the time (need to all the time)"

    It's a habit, it's even kinda like an addiction. But the thing is he SEEMS TO NEED to lie all the time. When you get addicted to drugs, u enjoy the drug, or at least at first.

    "Then when I got older I began to lie to get exactly what I wanted when I wanted it
    And I wanted it
    Now I’m having trouble differentiating between what I want and what I need to make me
    Happy
    So instead of thinking I just act before I have a chance to contemplate the consequence of
    Action"

    Nowhere does the singer mention anything about enjoying the lie. It is the goal of the lie, not the lie itself. (Unless the goal is to lie) Again, a habit yes, but not an addiction. The objective of the lie IS the addiction or to protect it. I'm still trying to figure out how you got that the person is necessarily self-aggrandizing/arrogant. Need some clarification.

    "How about I have a family history of lying, supposedly to protect everyone else but there's also a self serving quality to it? I know I shouldn't do it; I don't like the result; but damn! Short term gain sure feels better than that long term gain! (I don't believe this, but I can understand the allure, esp. when you have parents/familial relationships that teach you that you're own pleasure means more than it's impact. That ubiquitous, "Go for it. You deserve it!" that is applied in way too many undeserving circumstances ....."

    1. A little confused with ur example here. Family history of lying? So ur whole family lies or u have a history of lying to ur family? So the reason for the lies from whoever is to protect everyone else? From what? Ur bein way too vague here.
    2. You know you shouldn't and it is self-serving, but the result of the lie, assuming it suceeds, is or is a part of the short-term goal.
    3. Ok... seriously, parents and family encouraging u to lie for ur own ends? Who do you think takes the brunt of the lies and deceptions?

    "To me the key in this song is that the author knows the cad that he is; he knows he doesn't want to be and perhaps is striving for better; but there is little probability - perhaps even possibility - that he will live up to the man that he feels he should and wants to be right now ... so he's trying to do the most decent thing he can do right now and tell you, that he lie's."

    Wow ur a pessimist. I actually take this the other way. It could be a warning, but the fact that the band has had some sucess would lead me to believe that whoever wrote it has had at least some success in dealing with the lies. Cuz in the end you really can't get far if ur gonna lie constanly to get instant gratification.

    "Here's to hoping for a better tomorrow those around him who have been perhaps duped by the trappings of fame, kindness and the possibility of happiness. Maybe the author hopes they will both achieve happiness and avoid disaster."

    I'm confused again...

    "Hoping for a better tommorow FOR those around him who have been perhaps duped by the trappings..." Is that what ur saying? If so...
    1. The song is about the singer, not the people around him. Other people suffer, but it is his struggle.
    2. Duped by fame. It doesn't matter if ur famous or not.
    3. Duped by kindness and possibility of happiness. What? Do you mean that they were duped by the front of kindness that he put up and the hope that this time he'll really actually turn it around? That's like the only way I can make some sense outta it.
    4. It is HIM that he hopes will achieve happiness from doing what he needs instead of just wants. If he doesn't stop then his life will remain a disaster.
    Nijelloon May 04, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI totally agree with most of your comments. This song IS about a personal struggle, yet I think that we all undergo a similar experience. Furthermore I feel that this song is not so much about psychological issues as spiritual ones.
    The title "Flawed DESIGN" suggests that the author is acknowledging the presence of a designer, hence a God.
    Although an omniscient presence is affirmed, the song seems to attack the traditional mentality of a loving/caring Creator. Rather I think the author is trying to decide if God is a force we can trust, or whether He is the source of our imperfection.
    When it is said "I and I will turn off
    And I will shut down
    Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground" it is implied that the author's body and spirit are moral, and they will stay in the ground, rather then rise to immortality as the Christian faith suggests.

    Similarly, when it is said: "chemicals are restless in my head", I think that the author is using scientific knowledge to form a protest against the creator. Biological psychology theorizes that everything about our moods, our actions and our personality can be confined to chemical reactions which take place in the brain and throughout the body. Keeping this in mind, it is logical to conclude that the author is blaming The Creator for his flaws (ex. of lying), because they are confound to what is chemically going on in his head, and thus perfection is out of his control.
    However when we get to the part of the song when the author says “But never take advice from someone who just admitted to being devious and just confessed to
    Treason” he is asserting a repentance for his folly, but doesn't believe that he can be forgiven because his sins are treasonous against God, and thus he shouldn't be trusted because he will just mess up again.
    In the end it is implied that God is not the loving Saviour that many believe him to be, but rather the source of our “Flawed Design”.

    *Side note, This song may be a response to Robert Frost's poem “Design”.
    bever_meon August 06, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentPEOPLE this girl i went to scouts with is the singers sister and i had the pleasure of meeting with him, he is quite sane and is funny as well. This song is exactly how hogkill2 described it. He was a pathological liar and got everything he wanted but still didn't feel right.
    Aly_13on November 30, 2007   Link
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    General CommentNijello i disagree with u on the "And ever since I figured out that I could control other people
    I’ve had trouble sleeping with both
    Eyes closed" point. when u dont sleep with both eyes closed is when u live a life of danger. when u expect someone to cum after you at anytime. I think he has manipulated so many persons he thinks someone will came get him.
    kevibombon December 05, 2007   Link

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