"What I Wouldn't Give" as written by Tiffany Hafermann, Jon Ingoldsby and Holly Brook....
Feeling like I can't forgive
But I want to
It's like I don't know how to live
I'm afraid to
I used to think, take them as they come
Without hesitation, no
Now it's like my head is filled with lies
And persuasions
As the sun begins to fall
I hear her calling out to me
She's saying, hurry it's one more day gone

What I wouldn't give just to forget
So I can remember how to live again
I want to live again

I'm feeling dissonant
And distracted
Toxic chemicals are spilling in my head
And they're bleeding deadly reactions
As the moon begins to rise
It shows me all the colours
That I'm hiding, I'm hiding myself

What I wouldn't give just to forget
What I wouldn't give to get some rest
So I can remember how to live again
I want to live again

Am I desperately losing this fight
When I should really be choosing my flight
Take me, take me, take me now

What I wouldn't give just to forget
What I wouldn't give to get some rest
So I can remember how to live again
I want to live again

What I wouldn't give just to forget
What I wouldn't give to get some rest
What I wouldn't give just to forget
So I can remember how to live


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"What I Wouldn't Give" as written by James P. Pennington James Pennington

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    General Comment"This is a song that was written about 2 years ago in my house in Wisconsin. It was one of the first songs that Jon Ingoldsby and I wrote together, and the only song that my sister Tiffany contributed to on my album. At the time, I was going through a lot. I had just started traveling back and forth between WI and LA, which was hard in itself because I was leaving friends and family for months at a time to pursue my career. But also, I was very naive and was getting sucked up into a lot of bullshit in Los Angeles. For example, I was working with a guy who was like a placeholder for a manager, but he was very mentally abusive and manipulative. I was also living in a house with an alcoholic who would bring home prostitutes and offer me cocaine. I'd go up to the kitchen for breakfast and there would be a leftover line from the night before. I knew I was in a bad situation, but I thought that it was something I'd have to go through in order to get where I wanted to be. The lyric "What I wouldn't give just to forget, so I can remember how to live again" means that part of me really just wanted to forget what I was doing, go home to WI and have fun and live life with the people who loved me. But I knew that would also ruin my career. So, after some time I managed to find a way to also live happily in LA. I didn't think it was possible at first."-holly brook (from hollybrookmusic.com)
    kilalashinodaon August 13, 2006   Link
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    General Commentthis song is pretty self explanatory. but deep.
    It describes the cold hard truth of not being about to let go.
    To be yearning so bad to move forward from a yesterday and not look back.
    Because when we are holding onto the past, we can't see the future, sometimes we can barely even feel today.
    It talks about the helplessness- and the despair of every day we waste stuck in the past.
    i can relate to this song better than alot of songs.
    because i'm dealing with the pain of not being able to let go.
    you have to move forward to feel today.
    calypso29on May 13, 2006   Link
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    General Commentthats like my whole life right there.
    killstaron November 03, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commenteveryone has something they wish they could strip from their past. and forget. Thats why this song is so universal.
    musicmason11on February 16, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentit's troublesome, the burdens of the past.
    killstaron March 01, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti think that this song means that she cant forgive someone so if anyone doesnt agree with me then just tell em!! lol
    luvme520on April 12, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song shows the feelings a emotions one takes on when trying to let go of something whether it be a relationships or work related. It really could be anything... Whatever it may be she cannot let it go its looming in the back of her mind whereever she goes... She cant truely be herself again untill she has cleared her mind of this burden... Thats how i feel

    I know that when my boyfriend broke up with me this song really hit home for me.... Mostly the line "Feeling like i cant forgive, but i want to" Since in a lot of my relationships when im that close to someone i want to forgive and trust their reasoning was right unless of course they cheated or where just liars from the start.

    All in all this song is very powerful and the lyrics really get to me...

    HOLLY BROOK IS AMAZING
    Krys15Danceon April 15, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI get something a little different this song. It defines me in a way. Some days, I feel as if everyone's expecting a little too much from me, and telling me to keep up with life, but all I want to do is stop go back to the days when I could lay down, and actually get some rest. These days, even while I'm completely inert, I have something or other on my mind bothering me. No more fun days, just dull ones without any meaning, with everyone plowing me over in haste to get what they want.
    fromnowheresvilleon June 13, 2007   Link
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    General CommentIt's such a beautiful song.... it's just wanting to let go of someone you loved, so that you can finally move on with your life. Absolutely beautiful
    ClarinetDreameron January 17, 2008   Link
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    My InterpretationThis song makes me think about rape. It talks about the awful, self-hating feelings that often occur after. Just wanting to remember how to live again...
    sjhortonon July 09, 2012   Link

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