"So I Thought" as written by Lacey Nicole Sturm, James Culpepper, Kirkpatrick Seals, Jared Hartmann, Sameer Bhattacharya and William Hoffman....
All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning to us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it

On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies about the times

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it

Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last between
Slowly romance says good night
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it

Hurt the first, the last healing

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between


Lyrics submitted by QBlue_12, edited by magilla1966

"So I Thought" as written by Sameer Bhattacharya Howard Benson

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  • +3
    General CommentIts about waiting for 'the one'.

    "It can't be true 'cause we're too young...I know that's true because so long I was so in love with you": shes saying that she was waiting for him and loving him long before she knew exactly who he was


    "I'm not faithless...Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose": what an amazing line...I know I feel that way a lot...I try so hard to always have faith in God's plan for me...but sometimes its hard to be waiting for it...even though my faith is always there, its hard to not be afraid that things aren't going to happen as soon as I hope...its the doubt that creeps up when you don't want it to


    "And I'm praying that we will see something there in between then and there that exceeds all we can dream": having faith in God puting you and 'the one' in the right place at the right time and having sparks fly between you...praying for the moment that you meet the one you've been waiting for...having it be even better than you could ever have imagined


    "And all these twisted thoughts I see Jesus there in between": having faith in the Lord to create your relationship when the time is right and to forever be a part of it



    I completely love this song and everything it says. It makes me all twitterpatted over the one Im waiting for. Whoever he is.
    sevenisluckyon December 30, 2005   Link
  • +3
    General Commenti don't know about you, but the first time i heard this song i thought it was about an extremely painful teenage relationship ("we're too young") and both kids are just trying to move on and stay friends, but she really wants to talk to him about it... this is just my opinion here, feel free to attack it...
    pennywinkleon April 15, 2006   Link
  • +2
    General Commenti agree with the both of you... you might be asking how can you agree with both when there compeletly different... music is an art and theres many ways to interpret lyrics... and one sentence can mean so much more then just one thing... the first time i heard this since i just got out of a relationchip.. i felt pain... and you know the break up...

    We say to those who are in love
    It can't be true 'cause we're too young
    I know that's true because so long I was
    So in love with you
    So I thought

    i interpret this as i thought i was once in love but i was to young to understand what love is... and it really wasn't... and when your a teenager or w/e when you say that your in love with someone your jsut saying it but when you get in a break up your like woah... i didn't love them... and when you think about it your saying you thought you were in love...

    On my knees
    Dim lighted room

    and this i picture someone praying to god b/c of there pain and just on there knees b/c of the break up and yeah all that graet stuff...

    and i see this as waiting for the one b/c you only hav to go thru one break up to understand that your not ready... or that love really does hurt... and its kinda getting out of a relationship and understanding gods faith and trusting in god and not her feelings...

    but this is just whati get from it... i see it more on the break up but i also see where the one comes in also... and im sure theres more meaning that people havn't posted...
    superhypermaganon February 10, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI am pretty sure it has nothing to do with meeting your "special someone" and everything to do with a tough break up. Anyone thats been through a tough one, would instantly get it. It explains all the feelings you go through. You go from thinking your in love with someone and going to spend your life with them, and then feeling like why were you even with them. Everytime you think about them, its painful, even after time.

    "I'm not faithless
    Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
    Ignorance is bliss cherish it
    Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
    Believe it not''

    This is saying a couple of different things. First after a tough break up you lose hope in relationships. You feel like avoiding them altogether because you don't want to feel that kind of pain again. Not knowing the hurt of love and loss, may be worth not loving at all, and all you see when u see others in love is the good and not the bad, so its misleading to those who have never loved.

    "And fight the tears
    With pretty smiles and lies about the times"

    This is saying when your around other or talking to others, you try to hide your pain by acting like things are so good, and making things sound better than they are with lies.
    blckws6taon January 15, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI agree with many of you... personally I dont believe in God, but this song does have a lot of God related parts in it,,, ex praying, faith, etc... but it can also be taken as just relationship wise... when I first heard this song I cried... it reminded me so much of things that have happened to me

    The everlasting memories,, "fight the tears with pretty smiles and lies about the times" wow I've done that so many times...

    A year goes by
    And I can't talk about it
    The times weren't right
    And I couldn't talk about it
    ....that, wow... I can relate to that so much
    cant_take_thison May 21, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentEverything about this song is amazing. It's sung with such delicacy but at the same time with so much force.

    I recently lost a friend when i told her how much she meant to me and that i still liked her.
    I kept it bottled up inside me so long that in the end she didnt like me the way i liked her. So when i lost her i was distraugt.

    I felt like i had lost everything. I was in love with her but then i realised that there were plenty more fish in the sea
    lcfcsunilon November 15, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis is definitely a breakup song, but there's more to it than that. I agree with what most people have posted, but there are certain lines I interpret differently.

    "All your twisted thoughts free flow
    To everlasting memories
    Show soul
    Kiss the stars with me
    And dread the wait for
    Stupid calls returning to us to life"

    First off, since she says "your" thoughts, I take this to mean her ex-boyfriend's. To me, it sounds like this verse is about the past. The two of them would have conversations in which "twisted thoughts free flow" aka talk about taboo things people don't normally discuss. However, these conversations "show soul" as in showed who they really were without restraint and created memories that she's thinking about in this verse. The last two lines show that they were infatuated with each other and dreaded being interrupted. This entire verse shows the nature of their relationship. It sounds like she was shutting other people out and relying entirely on him, which is why the breakup was so painful.


    "We say to those who are in love
    It can't be true 'cause we're too young
    I know that's true because so long I was
    So in love with you
    So I thought"

    This is pretty straightforward; she was told by her peers and others that she was too young to really be in love, but she didn't believe them. Now that it's over, she isn't sure whether or not it was true love. Her ideas are overly romanticized, and she doesn't understand how they could've broken up if they were ever truly in love. However, judging by the depth of her feelings and pain, she really was in love with him.

    "On my knees
    Dim lighted room
    Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
    I'm not faithless
    Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose"

    This is probably my favorite line. She truly believed she was in love with him and put a lot of faith into their relationship. Since it went under, she's second guessing her faith in other things as well, like God, but she doesn't want to be unsure about that. By saying she's paranoid of "getting lost" I think she means losing a part of herself. I was very much infatuated with my first love as well, and he and I were together for 2 years. In that time, I drifted away from my friends and he was the only person who really knew me by the end of our relationship. Considering how the first verse described their relationship, I think she's experiencing this same thing. She feels alone now that he isn't there and, more than anything, is terrified that she'll never experience that kind of relationship again and that that part of herself will forever cease to exist. The line "that I might lose" means something different. It would make more sense if you could add a word onto the end of this line, what is she afraid of losing? Herself could also be the answer here, but I think the best answer is her faith, hope, or will to live. After such a terrible breakup, she's in danger of falling into a depression she won't escape from. She's trying to prevent that by not losing those 3 listed things. She knows if she loses them, she may never be happy again. This line may even refer to suicide, which goes along with the idea that she doesn't want to lose the will to live. I remember people often saying something like "God promised he would never do anything to us we couldn't handle." I know it's unlikely she's thinking this exactly, but it goes along these lines. Suicide is considered by many denominations to be a sin, since its taking control of your life instead of leaving it in God's hands. By saying "I'm not faithless" could be read as she's so depressed, she almost wants to kill herself but knows that it would be a sin.


    "Ignorance is bliss cherish it
    Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
    Believe it not
    And fight the tears
    With pretty smiles and lies about the times"

    This verse is also pretty easily understood. She's realizing that the way things look on the surface isn't necessarily the way they are. She's putting on a front and pretending that she's happy, as much to fool herself as to fool others.


    "Choris Romance says goodnight
    Close your eyes and I'll close mine
    Remember you, remember me
    Hurt the first, the last between

    And I'm praying that we will see
    Something there in between
    Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
    So we can talk about it"

    These two verses are what she wishes could happen now. The "you" is her ex-boyfriend. She wants the two of them to stop concentrating on how bad everything is and stop and remember how things used to be. She's hoping that by doing so, they'll realize that they want to give it another try. "Then and there" I think means "the beginning and the end" as in of their relationship. She wants them to remember the times they were happiest and remember the dreams they had of being together in the future so that they'll be able to talk to each other again. She wants them to find something worth trying for.
    AyaKianaon March 28, 2009   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI think its about breaking up but still actually being in love.
    I think the relationship is over, but she still has feelings for him and cares.

    "All your twisted thoughts free flow
    To everlasting memories
    Show soul
    Kiss the stars with me
    And dread the wait for
    Stupid calls returning to us to life"
    -This is during the relationship. When your young and you first have that thrilled uncertainty. You think of all these things like, do they really love me, do I really love them and you are always so anxious to talk to them again. Hence the 'dread the wait for, stupid calls returning us to life' the worst part of the calls is waiting, and we are returned to life once the call comes in, were relieved.

    "We say to those who are in love
    It can't be true 'cause we're too young
    I know that's true because so long I was
    So in love with you
    So I thought"
    -And this is where it gets sad. She is still in love with him, she was 'so in love' meaning she thought she couldn't live without him. As adults you know that simply isn't true. Which is why you say your 'too young' to really know what you're thinking. But you know to some degree. She is doubting herself in both the do I/did I love him? when she says 'so I thought'


    "A year goes by
    And I can't talk about it"
    -this is a year after the breakup, and its hard for her to talk or think about it because she is still hurting over him, and still in love.

    "On my knees
    Dim lighted room
    Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
    I'm not faithless
    Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose"
    -She is still hurting and scarred that she let go of her one love, she wants to believe that everything will be ok but its hard, and she is worried.

    "Ignorance is bliss cherish it
    Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
    Believe it not
    And fight the tears
    With pretty smiles and lies about the times"
    -And this is like, if you dont know or never experienced what she is feeling good, and hold on to that ignorance. If you have, never give in to the bad thoughts, and as much as it may hurt 'fight the tears(pain) with pretty smiles and lies about the times(out on a brave face and pretend it alright even if it isn't.)'

    "A year goes by
    And I can't talk about it
    The times weren't right
    And I couldn't talk about it"
    -This part gets me every time I hear it. Especially 'the times weren't right' this is the same as before except now she is admitting that they were too young and things couldn't have worked. they had too much growing up to do, symbolized by 'and i couldn't talk about it'

    "Chorus Romance says goodnight
    Close your eyes and I'll close mine
    Remember you, remember me
    Hurt the first, the last between
    Chorus Romance says goodnight
    Close your eyes and I'll close mine
    Remember you, remember me
    Hurt the first, the last, between"
    -Its typical when you are that age to hear about romances and fairy tales, but there chorus romance says goodnight and they leave each other 'close your eyes and I'll close mine". She just want to remember them when they were good, but also what went wrong so that they don't repeat it.

    "And I'm praying that we will see
    Something there in between
    Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
    So we can talk about it"
    -She is hoping that one day when they are grown up maybe they can both be truly happy, they can both 'talk about it'.

    That's the feeling i get from the song when I listen to it.
    But I think that's what is wonderful about music is your ability to interpret its meaning for yourself.




    LittleMissSamion January 04, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General Comment
    During a live recording on April 15, 2006, lead singer Lacey Mosley said: "I don't know about you guys, but I've made a lot of mistakes in my life. I've hurt a lot of people and I've been hurt by a lot of people. There's a lot of guys out there that really mistreat girls, and a lot of girls out there that really mistreat guys. I've broken promises that I've made to people that I love and to God and everything. I've messed up a lot, and the point is that if you've been messed up and made mistakes doesn't mean that you have to keep screwing up, or that your life is ruined and that you're worthless. It means that you can start over, you just have to make that decision yourself. That's what I think about when I sing this song."



    KikiFeistyon January 12, 2011   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningThe Song is about GOD Not a boy friend. The begining of the song is her walk as a christian who doesn't know god well
    but she thought she did.

    All your twisted thoughts free flow
    To everlasting memories
    Show soul
    Kiss the stars with me
    And dread the wait for
    Stupid calls returning to us to life

    Shes in deep prayer where she can speak to god and be honest with him and dreads getting out of prayer cuz then she has
    to come back to the "life"

    We say to those who are in love
    It can't be true 'cause we're too young
    I know that's true because so long I was
    So in love with you
    So I thought

    When you first come to god and fall in love with him you think you know him but you dont. And she found out out she wasnt
    in love with him as much as she thought she was.

    A year passes by n she still can't talk about god cuz she still doesnt know him or enough about him to talk about him.

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    On my knees
    Dim lighted room
    Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
    I'm not faithless
    Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
    Ignorance is bliss cherish it

    Shes trying to "comsume" her self in prayer to get closer to god

    Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
    Believe it not
    And fight the tears
    With pretty smiles and lies about the times

    She was so determine to hold on to god she limited him, she didnt know him but then she pretended she did.

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    A year goes by
    And I can't talk about it
    The times weren't right
    And I couldn't talk about it

    Then another year passes and she still can't talk about god because she doesn't know him.
    It wasn't time for her to learn yet.

    Choris Romance says goodnight

    Chrois is a Greek word that means with out (you can google it if you dont believe me) And its used in the new testiment
    since it was mostly written in greek. Without Romance she would go to sleep. In the bible the word sleep means to rest or
    to be unaware of god. Since thats what the sing is about she is saying she was spiritually dead cuz she didnt have a
    "romance" with god.

    Close your eyes and I'll close mine
    Remember you, remember me

    When Jesus is put on the cross a man was next to him and he asked jesus "will you remember me?" and jesus said
    "yes i will remember you"

    Hurt the first, the last between

    The first time she found out she didnt understand god she was hurt. If your in church n u dont know god your inbetween him
    n the world but so she says the last inbetween because she didnt want to be blind to who he is.


    And I'm praying that we will see
    Something there in between
    Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
    So we can talk about it

    Shes prayering that the people of God won't be blind like she was and that they will "read between the lines" and find his
    truth. In the book of hebrews theres a verse that says we cannot imagen thing beaautiful things he has for his people.




    Hurt the first, the last healing

    The last healing his when God makes the new earth in heaven.



    And all these twisted thoughts I see
    Jesus there in between
    And all these twisted thoughts I see
    Jesus there in between


    And she sees jesus and god truth in the ugly world.
    Scorpiongaze28on July 29, 2011   Link

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