This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I wish to feel smaller under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth every time you speak
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep
And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
And I wish to feel smaller under your hands
Though you seem satisfied as you slip mine down your pants
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As you lift up my shirt after asking politely
And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
'Cause it's her you'll always love
And it's her I'll always envy
Wanna end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
And it's hard to find what I want
When it's buried beneath the biggest rock
I could pay lots of money to help lift it with machines
But I'm not sure you'd cooperate, not sure you'd come clean
And I wish to feel smaller under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth every time you speak
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep
And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
Is gonna tear mine away
I wish for the whole truth every time you speak
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep
And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
And I wish to feel smaller under your hands
Though you seem satisfied as you slip mine down your pants
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As you lift up my shirt after asking politely
And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
'Cause it's her you'll always love
And it's her I'll always envy
Wanna end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
And it's hard to find what I want
When it's buried beneath the biggest rock
I could pay lots of money to help lift it with machines
But I'm not sure you'd cooperate, not sure you'd come clean
And I wish to feel smaller under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth every time you speak
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep
And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
Is gonna tear mine away
Lyrics submitted by catnamedzane, edited by Stockholm
A Wish Lyrics as written by Meredith Marie Godreau
Lyrics © Songtrust Ave, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
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