I wish to feel smaller
under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth
every time you speak
I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
While I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep...

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after
isn't enough
and I swear I'm gonna cry
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

And my blood won't stick
To the confines of my veins
And your heart
Is gonna tear mine away

And I wish to feel smaller under your hands,
though you seem satisfied as you slip mine
down your pants
And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
While you lift up my shirt after asking politely

And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to b
'Cos it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy
I want to end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up
But I swear I'm gonna cry
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

And my blood won't stick
To the confines of my veins
And your heart
Is gonna tear mine away

And it's hard to find
What I want
When it's buried beneath the biggest rock
I could pay lots of money
To help lift it with machines
But I'm not sure you'd cooperate
Not sure you'd come clean

And I wish to feel smaller
under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth
every time you speak
And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arrive, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
and I swear I'm going to cry
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough

And my blood won't stick
To the confines of my veins
And your heart
Is gonna tear mine away

Is gonna tear mine away


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  • +3
    General Comment"And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
    Cuz it's her you'll always love and it's her I'll always envy."

    I can relate to this song so much.
    I know exactly how she feels, and this song helps me feel a bit better knowing someone else goes through it too.
    graceyan0on June 16, 2006   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThis is THE prettiest song in the entire world. :]
    WiresAndWaveson June 05, 2006   Link
  • +2
    My InterpretationI have been in this kind of relationship before and this song is absolutely perfect at capturing how I felt.

    The guy is using her and she knows it but she's still with him because she loves him.

    Guys are assholes sometimes.
    VanillaIceon December 03, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General CommentIt's interesting that most Gregory and the Hawk songs are about this unrequited love or a one sided relationship.
    The way she sounds when she sings
    "And your heart
    Is gonna tear mine away."
    In the beginning and kind of sighs after? It's amazing. You can alomst feel the door slamming as he slips out and she's left there.
    lilyloveson May 26, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General Comment"You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans."

    That's my favorite line in the whole song.
    WiresAndWaveson June 05, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General Commentoh my god, this is exactly how i've been feeling all along. i know so many people can relate to these songs but this is a spot on retelling of what i've been going through. basically i've been in love with this guy for two years and he's done everything to convince me otherwise but for some reason i'm always going to feel vulnerable to him. he has a girlfriend and he's told me he loves her, but for some reason we always end up back together on those long, late nights. as horrible as it sounds and i feel, i just can't seem to let go. after all, we were together first. i keep saying i'm okay with what we have, but it gets harder every day knowing that i mean half as much to him as he means to me. i keep wishing he'll choose me over her for more than just sex, but i don't know how long i can keep waiting.
    beautifulxgoodbyeon May 15, 2012   Link
  • 0
    General CommentWhen I first heard the song, it reminded me of that great show, My So-Called Life. It made me, like, think of Angela and Jordan Catalano's like, relationship thing or whatever, you know? ;)

    Anyway, I didn't know exactly what she was singing at one point so if you know what "What I have, this mass of dreams of you won't keep me up" is really supposed to be, let me know and I'll change it. I couldn't make it out.
    catnamedzaneon December 22, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commenther voice is amazing.

    i think its just helpless motions we all run thru at one point in life.
    __like_pixie_duston April 15, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis female has an amazing voice.
    I especially like the emotion she puts at

    "Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry,
    I'm sick of trying to be tough."

    It's obviously talking about an unrequited love where the male in the relationship is only staying with the girl for sex. Poor thing still loves him anyway.
    AshynRayneon April 22, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentbeautiful voice, beautiful song
    the jeans line is my favorite too,
    alex_and_raon June 06, 2006   Link

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