This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Locked inside of this oppressive life
You've surrendered your mind to its conformity
You lost all you once had to its fucking lies
Bringing those you loved down with you
It seemed like an eternity I was lost... lost in your lies
Striving for a breath of change you would never give
Taught to enslave the ones who can't fight your way of life
This was not my choice
Give me a reason to look back on you
And defy my strength
Give me a reason not to smash your face in
You're worthless in my eyes
On my own I don't crave redemption
In your fucking lies
As you inflicted you could not give me solace
You're worthless in my eyes
Sever it all from my thoughts, the bloodshed the torment
Sever the memory
Sever it all from my thoughts, the horror you gave me
Sever the memory
I will not fall victim to you again
Blinded with the fear searching for a new way
To lay the seeds of deceit as you just fucking betray
Your actions soaked in blood
Just like the doctrine that you preach every day
Fuck your indoctrination, it destroyed all my hopes for you as I fell away, away
Mislead and forced to serve for your crooked faith
Bitter from your violent ways
Anger filled my every day
Rejected the notion of a god or a hell
Renounced your religion I'll rely upon my self
Oppression was not the life for me
I could never follow blindly
So what's left for us
Hatred and so much bad blood
Leaving me with one choice
You must be severed
You've surrendered your mind to its conformity
You lost all you once had to its fucking lies
Bringing those you loved down with you
It seemed like an eternity I was lost... lost in your lies
Striving for a breath of change you would never give
Taught to enslave the ones who can't fight your way of life
This was not my choice
Give me a reason to look back on you
And defy my strength
Give me a reason not to smash your face in
You're worthless in my eyes
On my own I don't crave redemption
In your fucking lies
As you inflicted you could not give me solace
You're worthless in my eyes
Sever it all from my thoughts, the bloodshed the torment
Sever the memory
Sever it all from my thoughts, the horror you gave me
Sever the memory
I will not fall victim to you again
Blinded with the fear searching for a new way
To lay the seeds of deceit as you just fucking betray
Your actions soaked in blood
Just like the doctrine that you preach every day
Fuck your indoctrination, it destroyed all my hopes for you as I fell away, away
Mislead and forced to serve for your crooked faith
Bitter from your violent ways
Anger filled my every day
Rejected the notion of a god or a hell
Renounced your religion I'll rely upon my self
Oppression was not the life for me
I could never follow blindly
So what's left for us
Hatred and so much bad blood
Leaving me with one choice
You must be severed
Lyrics submitted by NothingMan
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