This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
So now you're suffering the fallacy of what you said
When you uncover the depression from where you've tread
Breathe over the glass you wrote on
Swallow all that you waste your throat on
You wear the mark and wave the banner they made with sin
Revealing every single lie that you've been breeding within
Wash over the skin you've broken
Think over the tone you spoke in
So lost in your affliction / addiction
The solemn comfort of your grave
If you close your eyes the light can't take it away
Not I - I won't conform to what I see in you
Not I - I won't surrender what I am
Not I - And even if it was a part of me
Not I - I'll never be that way again
The blind will follow on the path that you created in vain
No guiding light, but just the shadow of the dead will remain
Dig open the pain you're hiding
Give your hand to the faith you're fighting
The void you suffer is a curse forever bleeding inside
Now you embrace the fatal sickness you should despise
Remember the day you lost that
Where is the shame that will bring your soul back
So lost in your affliction / addiction
The solemn comfort of your grave
If you close your eyes the light can't take it away
Not I - I won't conform to what I see in you
Not I - I won't surrender what I am
Not I - And even if it was a part of me
Not I - I'll never be that way again
Reach back behind your pride
And pull the thorn from the burning pain in your side
Sing me a new song
A broken song of redemption and regret
Sing me a new song
And beg for all the mercy you can get
Not I - I won't conform to what I see in you
Not I - I won't surrender what I am
Not I - And even if it was a part of me
Not I - I'll never be that way again
When you uncover the depression from where you've tread
Breathe over the glass you wrote on
Swallow all that you waste your throat on
You wear the mark and wave the banner they made with sin
Revealing every single lie that you've been breeding within
Wash over the skin you've broken
Think over the tone you spoke in
So lost in your affliction / addiction
The solemn comfort of your grave
If you close your eyes the light can't take it away
Not I - I won't conform to what I see in you
Not I - I won't surrender what I am
Not I - And even if it was a part of me
Not I - I'll never be that way again
The blind will follow on the path that you created in vain
No guiding light, but just the shadow of the dead will remain
Dig open the pain you're hiding
Give your hand to the faith you're fighting
The void you suffer is a curse forever bleeding inside
Now you embrace the fatal sickness you should despise
Remember the day you lost that
Where is the shame that will bring your soul back
So lost in your affliction / addiction
The solemn comfort of your grave
If you close your eyes the light can't take it away
Not I - I won't conform to what I see in you
Not I - I won't surrender what I am
Not I - And even if it was a part of me
Not I - I'll never be that way again
Reach back behind your pride
And pull the thorn from the burning pain in your side
Sing me a new song
A broken song of redemption and regret
Sing me a new song
And beg for all the mercy you can get
Not I - I won't conform to what I see in you
Not I - I won't surrender what I am
Not I - And even if it was a part of me
Not I - I'll never be that way again
Lyrics submitted by WakeToLife
Not I Lyrics as written by S. Gallop D. Manning
Lyrics © Capitol CMG Publishing, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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And yes, I'm 15, so people out there who think that young naiive teenagers cannot think so deeply, think again :)
Yeeeeaa maaaan :3, I know what you mean. What you said, makes perfect sense. it's pretty much the new meaning to the song, but otherwise, what's your take on the first verse? <br /> <br /> Pretty much, my thoughts on this song is my interpretation of it:<br /> <br /> "So now you’re suffering the fallacy of what you said"<br /> <br /> Personally, I think it's the outcome of the situation first, so the first line, "so now you're suffering the fallacy of what you said" it's as if it's judgment day with god and the back slidder, kinda get what i mean? <br /> <br /> "When you uncover the depression from where you’ve tread<br /> Breathe over the glass you wrote on<br /> Swallow all that you waste your throat on"<br /> <br /> Keeping the idea that it's the outcome of the situation first (judgment day), that line makes me think of a talk with god, god's telling him, when you find out what you did, (The next line i'm a litte hazy, so bare with me) look deeply into what you said, and did. Glass, it gives out a reflection, like a character sketch in elementary school, or a brain storm in high school, you draw the character, and you give superficial, and internal characteristics of the person, or subject. Same thing with this, look into the glass, see your reflection, look at how you changed, as darkcelldx said, sin is easy to dwell in; it has enough power to manipulate yourself. And so, "swallow all that you waste your throat on" pretty much to me means, eat your own words and actions.<br /> <br /> "You wear the mark and wave the banner they made with sin<br /> Revealing every single lie that you’ve been breeding within"<br /> <br /> To me, that means, you worked together with sin, and your proud of it; everyone can see your with sin. Sin then reveals everything you've done. Every wrong, every disappointment, everything.<br /> <br /> "Wash over the skin you’ve broken<br /> Think over the tone you spoke in"<br /> <br /> STILL Keeping in mind, judgment day, the first line first: "Wash over the skin you've broken". Backsliders, once christians, but then turned to sin. "Wash over the skin", wash your skin of sin, come back to me, cleanse you physical self. "Think over the tone you spoke in" meaning look at what you said, as a sinner. Think about it, and hear the tone you said it in... yyeeeaa.. that's kinda self explanitory... but that one line, kinda gives us the message of the last part of the this verse, to ponder, and act. <br /> <br /> iunno, it's just my idea of the song. you guys contribute, what do you think this whole song means? :D i'm gonna go sleep... ... but eat first :) god bless :D <br /> <br /> I absolutely LOVE demon hunter's harmonization :D just had to say that :)