If I ever should disappear
What would I come to?
What would I come to believe?

If I had seen your father
What would his face do?
What would his face do to me?

Oh, I can't even lift my head
To say a word
To say a word to you
I can't even recognize
What I did wrong
What I did wrong

Oh, I can't even lift my head
To say a word
To say a word


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    General CommentWhat an amazing song. Reminds me of The Upper Peninsula in terms of the music and even, I suppose, the meaning.
    Sufjan has this great knack for using small things, like this person's father's face, to make such a deep impact.
    DeoWulfon August 16, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song is a direct representation of my heart.

    It is on the compilation "To Spirit Back the Mews" available from asthmatickitty.com which is his record label.
    zachharrismenton June 26, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis is my favorite song ever. ever.
    CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TAB THIS SONG. i can find the tabs nowhere nowhere nowhere.
    janniemayon November 04, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe man is magic.

    I always go on streaks with this song, listening to it 20 to 30 times in a row. It is one of the best songs to have in your pocket for a somber mood.

    I take the song at the obvious - he screwed up and he can't even bring himself to talk to the person he screwed up with.


    Except this is a perfect song representation of it.
    Sliver025on December 05, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Comment"If I ever should disappear" instead of "If I should ever disappear".

    But that feels completely irrelevant in the face of the awesomeness of this song.
    airwolf queenon March 08, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentDoes anyone feel like maybe this song grew up to be be "A good Man Is Hard to Find"?
    wanderingmountyon March 11, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI don't know, but it sounds like a revival of the title of "Detroit, Lift Up Your Weary Head! (Restore! Rebuild! Reconsider!)"
    rushtapeon May 17, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commentsounds to me like he's saying "the" Father, not "your" father. which makes this song infinitely more relevant and heart-wrenching to me. ...those are just my views, though.
    annieoveron January 24, 2008   Link
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    General Comment@annieover- you're right... and that makes it all the more powerful...

    He must have really done something wrong to feel like he made God so displeased...
    DeoWulfon April 21, 2009   Link

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