I want to always be on film,
to be caught in the cut coffee sober
Ding-di-di-ding-di-di-ding-ding-boom-boom-boulder

Unscratched lenses
of a brand new prescription
Drawing days from a stacked deck of cards
and doing, doing, doing

I should cut down my caloric intake
I should go to sleep hungry
and wake up with my guts knotted up
and ears open like a burnt down hut

I want my mouth to always taste the blade
but I want, but I want, but (ooooooh)
I want to kiss like taffy
Hump gentle on a bed of nails and
Feel salt to widen eyes like a cut-up clam's tongue does
I wanna dump early on and be empty the rest
I want a patch of blue sky to follow me

Unfold an oragami death mask
and cut my DNA with rubber traits
Pull apart the double helix like a wishbone
Always be working on a suicide note

I don't want to (oo-ee-oo)
when I feel like I could have gone longer
(repeat x3)

I don't want to (oo-ee-oo)
when I feel like I could have gone...

Productive, fully-charged, cocked and pointed
Keep a tape recorder on my bedside table
Sweats, only the pants that fit the best, no belts, no cuffs
Walked toned yet loose keep peeled eyes glued to a ten
Watch a fly hit a pane of glass till it gets real bony
His stomach swells up and he dies

I don't want to (oo-ee-oo)
when I feel like I could have gone longer
(repeat x3)

I don't want to (oo-ee-oo)
when I feel like I could have gone...


Lyrics submitted by onechad, edited by Phonophobe

Rubber Traits song meanings
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  • +2
    General Comment"I want my mouth to always taste a blade"
    Rubber Traits - Why?

    "MOM,I’ve kept a razor under my tongue since I was a small toddler with a tight belt I haven’t been able to kiss a woman with an open mouth, my friend Cause I’m afraid that I’d split her lip,Is that sick?"
    Jimmy Breeze Side A - cLOUDDEAD

    any connection?
    themagicnazaon January 06, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Commenta person is stuck in an emotional rut and finds himself incapable of getting out of it. so after some time of depression the person gets up and starts shaping his life, keeping himself occupied all the time, paying attention to details, telling him over and over again that he's doing fine, even getting better.

    then the fly hits the pane of glass and dies, causing the person to get back to his depression. this whole process is being repeated every day and every night the person relives the depression over and over again. he's crying that he doesn't want to feel it anymore, he is doing all he can to make it stop, but nothing helps. he's still stuck with his depression and all the while he's showing everybody a smiling face.
    proximaon September 11, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI partly agree with proxima, song definitely seems to be about depression. But I feel that it's more about it whittling away at the things you wish to do/accomplish. He lists the many many things he wants to do, be productive. He's trying so damn hard. But even when he has everythign all prepped and ready to go, the depression prevents him from goind any further. "I don't want to, when I feel like I could have gone longer" I think that right there totally sums it up for me. He wants to do more be more, but the depression sets in and F*%*s it all up.

    Anyways, that's what this song means to me, and I feel right along with it.
    squareloveron December 19, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think this song is about a person wavering between living and comitting suicide. In the verses he is listing all this stuff he wants to do and that he wants to happen to him but then in the middle of the verse it changes to something more negative that makes him feel like killing himself again.
    The chorus "I dont want to when I feel like I could have gone longer" means, in this interperatation, that he no longer wants to kill himself once he feels like he could continue living longer.
    There are also little hints that he is prepared to kill himself at ant time. "I want to always taste a blade", "Keep a tape recorder on my bedside table", "Drawing dates from a stacked deck of cards and doom-doom-doom".
    I think the Rubber Traits part could be like Treefinger said, a fake personality in that either he is suicidal for attention or that he pretends to be fine though he is suicidal. I'm not sure which one makes more sense.
    ComicalBirdon January 06, 2009   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI have always taken this song to refer to anorexia or bulimia, and I'm surprised no one else has. WHY? tends to produce very edgy, cleverly-written pieces. Pardon the length.

    "I should cut down my caloric intake
    I should go to sleep hungry
    and wake up with my guts knotted up"
    This is the way the condition starts to manifest; they start by cutting back, not eating too late in the evening; typical things some people might do while they're trying to lose weight, that are steadily taken to extremes.


    "I want my mouth to always taste the blade"
    This is a tricky metaphor, but it's likely about the coppery taste that comes when you taste blood. Could be referring to bleeding of the gums, a common issue with bulimics due to brushing too hard to conceal their bad breath (after vomiting). This may ALSO be interpreted as bleeding gums due to a vitamin deficiency, which is often an issue with anorexics.


    "Hump gentle on a bed of nails"
    I'd assume this has to do with being skinny, though, I could be wrong.


    "Feel salt to widen eyes like a cut-up clam's tongue does"
    Lack of moisture can make your eyes sting, which is an issue with anorexia.


    "I wanna dump early on and be empty the rest"
    This can refer to emptying your stomach/bowels, by use of either induced vomiting or laxatives. Bulimia, obviously.


    "Unfold an oragami death mask
    and cut my DNA with rubber traits
    Pull apart the double helix like a wishbone
    Always be working on a suicide note"
    This is a bit hard to pin down exactly; it COULD refer to the crippling depression and desire to be someone else that comes hand in hand with eating disorders, but, honestly, it has many other potential interpretations.


    "I don't want to--
    when I feel like I could have gone longer"
    Perhaps the most DISTINCT anorexic line: They don't want to eat, because they are -sure- (in their own minds) they can survive a little longer without food.


    "Sweats, only the pants that fit the best, no belts, no cuffs"
    Mid to late-stage anorexics usually wear baggy clothing.


    "Watch a fly hit a pane of glass till it gets real bony
    And his stomach swells up and he dies"
    I believe this is talking about he himself dying, not an ACTUAL fly. A fly is something disgusting and insignificant to most people; it's fighting against a pane of glass, idiotically, as the fly cannot win. (Poor interpreting, I admit.) But, certainly, the stomach swelling up and dying is referring to death by starvation.
    Fionnon April 17, 2009   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationFor me (and I have to begin in this way because I believe in the multiple interpretations of lyrics or any art work for that matter), I find that Rubber Traits does speak to ideas of not necessarily suicide, but almost a shutting down of spirit. The old saying "I am rubber and you are glue" comes to mind and wanting to merge your DNA with "Rubber Traits" to me means that there is a want to be able to bounce back from emotional destruction. To me, a lot of the lyrics comment on this idea of being able to continue on in life when it really hands you the worst. We constantly tell ourselves the things that we "should" do, but who is really prescribing that we should cut down on calories and starve ourselves? We can sometimes blame mainstream media that tells us to look and act a certain way, or to feel badly about ourselves for being different. I find this song to be a plea to be able to withstand the emotional battle of feeling inadequate and wanting to become immune to the hardships of daily life.
    singelon March 16, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI can't figure out what this song is about, but I love the way the 7/8 timing of the chorus makes the lines run into each other, giving the feeling of uncontrollable intrusive thoughts
    Phonophobeon February 06, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General Commenti feel like this song is less about suicide and more about NOT committing suicide. yoni has chosen to revolt against the absurd, rather than let it take him under.
    thendofthetouron June 02, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General CommentIt sounds more like he's saying "I want to always taste the blade"-- but maybe that's just me


    anyways, song: gorgeous.
    precipitateon January 10, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentIt is "blade." Watch the video - the song takes on a whole new meaning, and it's pretty damn cool, too.
    shexcanxreadon January 10, 2006   Link

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