"Autodidact" as written by Daniel Lanford Briggs, Robert Dustin Waring, Cartland Blake Richardson, Paul Andrew Waggoner and Thomas Giles Rogers Jr.....
(begin) The freethinking brain can finally travel. Take in the radio waves and stew up that imagination... I worry too much... boredom gets to me... pussy... yes they call me this... the masters of the ocean churn down in my mind... calling me only what I feel at times... I just want to be loved and liked by everyone... shining down on my every move... impossible thoughts... stay on this cruise... never go back, relaxation calms these metal nerves... need to just let go and become a giant... forcing the improvement of our musican system... one can't do such, especially with such a lack of confidence... maybe they see it... maybe they frown upon this face... time ... I keep drifting away... I look forward to these days physically, but mentally they can become very tiring... why worry... personal hapiness should be all that matters... (I feel this most of the time) days like today mordecai flies down on this ship and stares me in the eyes (every time, can't change) maybe I should just be this bedroom performer I keep hearing of... no pressure, no boundaries... only personal pleasing... coward... yes I call myself this... control... control me... sit back now... piss it all away.. loser losing lost... (scene)


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"Autodidact" as written by Daniel Lanford Briggs Cartland Blake Richardson

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    General CommentI'm the only one to comment on such a musically genius song? Fine then.

    The meaning of this song was lost among various random thoughts, therefore rendering it impossible to decipher without being able to look through the mind of the author.

    As for the musician's role, the guitar work was simply amazing in this song, especially during the measures where Paul and Dusty harmonized with Blake's weird ass rhythm.

    If I had the ability to play this song on my guitar, I'd have hit a major milestone in my life.
    Moopertyon April 05, 2006   Link
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    General Commenti think this song is about the stress that everyone is putting upon his sholders too write another "Mordecai". So he feels oblagated and frightend that he will not be able too fill his own shoes.
    that is what i think persoanly, amazing song
    tyboisfunon October 28, 2006   Link
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    General CommentThis song is stunning.

    After hearing this song,BTBAM is the best band I've ever heard when it comes to guitar playing
    iamthenightstarson November 29, 2006   Link
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    General CommentEverything I am about to say concerning what i think this song is about is my personal opinion, and i do not deny the fact that i could be absolutly wrong.

    I believe this song is about acceptance in todays world, and how not only is it very hard to find such acceptance, but he indirectly implies that it is not worth the worry. But he ties this thought in with not only being accepted, but also stay true to himself.

    When he says things like, "pussy, yes they call me this", he is refering to the people that think he is strange or not living up to societies expectations lashing out at him for being himself so to speak.

    When he says things like, "Maybe i should just be this bedroom performer", he says maybe i should just give up, and live their lives of pleasure. Aka, i should just take the easy way out.

    I think what tyboisfun is saying concerning the pressures of the music scene might have some weight behind it. This is BTBAMs third album, but second major album, and it is very possible that their label, or whoever produced them tried to force them into sounding more radio friendly, or like tyboisfunsaid, they might have put pressure on them to write a song as "incredible" as mordecai.

    but he keeps going back into the idea that living a life based around sex and the things this singer is known to lash out against (being pleasure for the wrong reasons), would be amuch easier life. If anything it seems like he is being tempted.

    The last lines, though the most EPIC mofocking lines ive ever heard live, are a bit harder to intepret. He calls himself a coward, and then makes implications that he is losing, or getting rid of something he once possesed. When reading it would seem like he is pretty much saying, "fuck it ill take that life of pleasure". The only thing that confuses me is i doubt he would actually go doing this in real life, so it brings up the possiblilty that these lyrics might have been written for a particular circumstance that took place in the past. Maybe he was facing a descion in which things like sex tempted him, and at the end he just gave in to the temptaions and went for it. If this were to be the case the lyrics at the end would serve a much more powerful purpose, and lines like "Piss it all away" would refer to a certain or a couple certains things of regret he feels, and he sarcastically says to himself, "Go ahead buddy, throw everything youve ever believed away".

    So concluding id say this song is about an argument the speaker is having in his head concerning a descion that applies to several things, including societies standards and his acceptance to this society. The beginning of the song is read as more of a general slur of thoughts and personal arguments, but the end seems more personal and deals with intense feelings of regret.




    btw this is the best BTBAM song out there. ive seem them 3 times, and the second time (ozzfest) they played this song last and it was epic as fuck.

    rock on guys.
    xcrazycorexon March 28, 2007   Link
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    General Commentawesome song, btbam's stuff is really different from the stuff thats out there love the fact how this song kind of resembles a movie scene, suspense maybe.
    undErneethon April 16, 2007   Link
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    General Commenti agree with xcrazycorex all the way.
    it is about acceptance, and i think many of the experiences shared come from the performance lifestyle of being in front of crowds of strangers every night and dealing with critics, labels, etc.
    xwigginxon August 15, 2007   Link
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    General Commentthe artist is lying to you to try and make you think he is lost., but he is telling the truth
    abovemeon December 12, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think tyboisfun is right.
    Its just a way to tell people that he can't right another Mordecai.
    Poor Tommy. I'd be pissed off if people gave me shit about not being able to right another song such as Mordecai(That is, if I wrote it.)
    masterexploderboyon January 07, 2008   Link
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    General CommentFirst BTBAM song I ever heard, so it has a special place in my heart.
    I agree with undErneeth though, this is a very suspenseful song.
    N1CK5TERon June 26, 2009   Link
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    General CommentHello. This is mooperty, the person to first comment on this song 4 years ago, I was 15 at the time. Back then I raved about the instrumentation and musical technicality while completely disregarding the meaning of the lyrics. I think I now understand what Tommy and the band are getting at with this song.

    An autodidact is an educated person who is self taught. I'm guessing this is referring to one or more of the band members. As far as I know, none of the band members have had any formal training, but more than likely I'm wrong. Since this album has a recurring theme of personal growth, I'm going to assume the song is about Tommy (possibly speaking for the band, rather than himself like in Backwards Marathon).

    I believe this song to be about the struggles of becoming a recognized/accomplished musician in today's world ("I just want to be loved and liked by everyone") and the pressures put on them by others to go out and do something with their talent, whether it be from friends and family or even from the record company to write new tracks that will sell.

    Its no secret that the band has problems with the music industry and the lifestyle that supposed "rockstars" are expected to lead. ("Forcing improvement of our musical system") He wants to get out and do something different that will get him recognized and make people think rather than fuck, drink, sleep, repeat.

    But therein the contradiction of the band's stance on life and the music industry.

    If you recall from other songs and interviews, Mordecai was a homeless person that they knew who was completely happy and content being homeless. He had no problems with anyone and was a major inspiration for the band and their approach to the music industry's materialistic views.

    "Personal happiness should be all that matters
    (I feel the most of the time)
    Days like today
    Mordecai flies down on this ship
    and stares me in the eyes"

    Mordecai had nothing. Tommy aspires to be so much. Mordecai is Happy. Tommy doesn't seem so here.
    Perhaps the thought of pursuing this musical enlightenment in considered selfish on some level, especially compared to a man who had lost everything but his dog.

    I believe the next few lines to be largely a double entendre.

    Maybe I should just be this bedroom performer
    I keep hearing of
    No pressure, no boundaries
    Only personal pleasing

    I take it primarily as the narrator questioning whether its right to pursue such a dream, maybe just be content with oneself as an accomplished musician, i.e. "personal pleasing", to be a bedroom performer, not getting your name out there, not doing anything different.

    A different way to read this is to assume that perhaps the good ole rockstar lifestyle IS the thing that will bring happiness (the easy way out, they're already signed to a record label). Drugs, sex, and rock'n'roll, no boundaries because you're so far from them. (control, control me, piss it all away)

    Also, throughout the song, Tommy speaks of being relaxed, bored, on a cruise. Perhaps all of this happening at once is a little exhausting, but he can't really stay here forever. All of these different decisions to make and glaring contradictions is a lot to take in, especially at this point of the bands career with new people and an awkward adaption to the changes they're trying to make.

    For the final spoken-word song on this new album, it sure is a powerful one. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around all of it.

    Richaadon July 29, 2010   Link

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