"Apollo I: The Writing Writer" as written by and Claudio/todd Sanchez....
In these words that crash my ears
I now stomach this in fear
With a turn I gather name is the bastards son
Who by fire I would come
Through this wire I might cut
Atop this tower of loss and lies

And I will gravitate towards you
I will in the now hate you
Woah oh oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh oh

I'll make you wish you hadn't burned a time before
I'll live through this in a manner cursed at my own accord
Woah oh oh oh

If my shame spills a word across this floor
Woah oh oh oh
And tonight, goodnight, I'm Burning Star IV
Only I don't even think of you
No I don't want to think of you anymore
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye

In my presence you might wake
Through this fiction I must fake
Your death to grace the face of my character
With these lessons he might learn
All the worlds from here must burn
For his god to imagine the end we ask

Woah oh oh oh
If my shame spills a word across this floor
And tonight, goodnight, I'm Burning Star IV
And I don't even think of you
No I don't want to think of you anymore
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye

I'll make you wish you hadn't burned a time before
I'll live through this in a manner cursed at my own accord
Woah oh oh oh

I don't want to go
So see'mon bitch why aren't you laughing now
You left me here to fend on my own
So cry on bitch why aren't you laughing now

Woah oh oh oh
If my shame spills a word across this floor
Woah oh oh oh
And tonight, goodnight, I'm Burning Star IV
And I don't even think of you
No I don't want to think of you anymore
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye

Woah oh oh oh, Woah oh oh oh
Woah oh oh oh, Woah oh oh oh
And I don't even think of you
No girl I don't want to think of you anymore
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye
Goodnight, tonight, goodbye


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"Apollo I: The Writing Writer" as written by Joshua Eppard Claudio Sanchez

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    General Commentguys...guys...guys...the meaning of the album is

    Keeping the Blade
    Claudio Sanchez: “It’s a collection of intros from both previous records, but put together which can only mean the end.”
    Like all the other albums, Good Apollo begins with an instrumental to represent a passage of time. As Claudio S. explains, it’s a compilation of instrumentals from the previous records to symbolize the story coming to a close.
    Always & Never
    Claudio Sanchez: “The Writer starts to lose his mind over the devastation of this love he’s been separated from. In the second verse the Writer talks about her, and the influence on what is to come in the story.”
    This is the intro into the scene in the graphic novel where Writer is lying on his bed thinking about his now estranged ex-girlfriend, the blond haired blue eyed Erica Court. He is in a deep despair, which is obvious from the look of his room which is messy, bleak, disorganized, and sparsely decorated. He is lying on his bed, staring at a broken picture frame containing a portrait of her, imagining what he would have said to Erica, and what he would like to hear from her, if they had another moment together. In his grief, he is slowly but surely isolating himself and beginning to lose his mind.
    Welcome Home
    Claudio Sanchez: “The Writer has a vision. He sees himself in this disfigured form, and a woman bound next to a grave. And the woman says ‘don’t kill me, I love you.’ and he says, ‘What do you care? You left me this way the only way my pain will end is in your suffering. Now get in the ground’ And that’s the scene in the video.”
    Much like this short explanation from Claudio S., Writer simply sees himself dragging a young blonde woman (who looks remarkably like Erica) to a hole in the ground. She’s bound at the wrists and as he’s forcing her into the hole, she’s pleading with him for her life, telling him not to do this to her because she loves him. He, the figure Writer sees himself as, is wearing a black cloak that covers most of his face, looking similar to a reaper. Writer’s deep sadness about the end of his relationship with Erica is beginning to transform from loss to anger.
    Ten Speed (of God’s Blood & Burial)
    Claudio Sanchez: “Ten Speed is the Writer’s subconscious, like the son of Sam dog. The is a dialogue, Ten Speed telling the Writer he knows of a way to get out of his rut: All he needs to do is stop doing the story.”
    Writer is shaken by his violent visions, and is becoming slightly paranoid of himself. Despite his hate for Erica, he still loves her and wishes her no harm. Ten Speed, a delusion of Writer’s that takes the form of a demon bicycle, appears to him, telling him how to alleviate his own suffering. Writer is frightened and at first tells Ten Speed to leave him alone. However, Ten Speed persists and they continue a conversation about why Writer is suffering and what must be done to stop it. Their conversation is about the Character, Claudio, and his world. In that world is Ambellina, in whom Writer has invested all of his love for Erica, keeping him attached to his failed relationship. Ten Speed tells Writer to kill her off and Writer says no because he loves her. When Ten Speed persists, Writer asks “how does that work? You’re a bicycle,” (this is the dialogue in the background of the song). Writer is still conflicted and confused as to what his story really has to do with his love life, and the agony that is consuming his life.
    Crossing The Frame
    Claudio Sanchez: “In Second Stage, the Writer wrote a love interest for the Character (Claudio). Her name is Newo. ‘Crossing The Frame’ is the parallels between Newo and Erica Court, the Writer’s love interest.”
    This song isn’t necessarily illustrated in the graphic novel, as the album and the comic aren’t completely linear. However, Writer begins to parallel the two women in his head. Because Newo represents The Character’s (Claudio Kilgannon’s) past, Writer begins to resent both Erica and Newo, as does Claudio K. In the graphic novel, Writer and Claudio simultaneously picture a house with a light on in the upstairs window, presumably spying on their past loves, Erica and Newo, lamenting their lost relationships and convincing themselves there is no turning back.
    Apollo I: The Writing Writer
    Claudio Sanchez: “This is where we meet the Writer and learn his motive. As the Writer of this story, can he really be looked upon as a godlike figure to these characters?”
    Although Writer has been ever-present in the graphic novel thus far, except for a few frames, his motive is not truly clear. He is coming to terms with his delusional agenda and begins to realize the true control he has had over his story the entire time. Until now, he thought of it independently from his life and control; he simply fostered it. Now, though, he realizes that if he created Ambellina to begin with, he’s realizing he can take her away for his own good. During this time, he justifies his actions to his conscience by dwelling on mental images of Erica cheating on him with a man who flew in by plane, though these may very well be delusions as well. The dialogue in the background of this song is Jesse, or Inferno, telling his IRO-Bot children that he loves them and is sorry he hasn’t been much of a father, and that he already knows of his fate. While this is unclear so far in the album and the graphic novel, Apollo II will return to this point later on.
    Once Upon Your Dead Body
    Claudio Sanchez: “Its Ten Speed trying to get the Writer to kill off Claudio. And the Writer sees it as Ten Speed trying to talk him into killing off his love interest. And the Writer saying he’s no murderer.”
    (I think Claudio said kill off Ambellina not Claudio, AP might have got it wrong.)
    It’s probably accurate that AP mixed up Claudio and Ambellina’s names. That means Ten Speed is continuing his campaign to convince Writer to kill Ambellina to stop his own torture, since she is the anchor to his painful lost relationship with Erica. Still, Writer resists, so Ten Speed continues. This time, Writer begins to accept the idea.
    Wake Up
    Claudio Sanchez: “It’s a love song. You get a history of the Writer, that he’d have done anything for this person who went on to do this horrible thing to him.”
    Fitting with the sporadic, dysfunctional organization of the album, even during his torment and plotting, Writer reflects on the love he had for Erica and all of the things he would’ve done for her. He dwells on the past, thinking of Erica fondly, despite his belief of her infidelity (it is unclear in the graphic novel whether or not Erica truly cheated on him). Writer has somewhat of a split personality now, half that feels guilt, loss and love, and half that feels anger, betrayal and revenge.
    The Suffering
    Claudio Sanchez: “It’s an extension of ‘Wake Up’. It’s a Queen-esque song, more like a play. Its the climax of the Writer losing it.”
    As Claudio S. explains, this is a climax for Writer’s instability. He dwells on his past with Erica so frequently, with such intensity, that it is all he can think about. At this point in the album and the graphic novel, he has already resolved to enter the story, do what needs to be done, and move on. Still, though, he thinks about his proposal (or desire to propose) to Erica. It is consuming his entire life.
    The Lying Lies & Dirty Secrets of Miss Erica Court
    Claudio Sanchez: “The Writer starts to realize that there’s something else behind what Ten Speed is telling him: That no one will be following you when you end the story; everyone is going to die.”
    Although Ten Speed has only been seen/heard as saying to Writer is in regards to Ambellina, Writer has come to this conclusion on his own. The “unwritten end” refers to the fact that Writer must end the story, because it won’t happen on its own. He realizes that since the entire thing has been a reflection of his internal conflict, he must resolve it by bringing it to an end. “Believer, believe it or not, you know just when it ends and how it goes” is presumably Ten Speed telling Writer that it’s his destiny, if you will, to tie up all of the loose ends. By doing so, he will end everything, including all of the other characters’ existences.
    Mother May I
    Claudio Sanchez: “Now, the Writer is realizing that he is the father of this story, and these are his children. The Character is losing it, and these papers are lined up in front of him, and these papers in blood is ‘God only knows’ and that’s the answer to his questions.”
    This explanation ends a lot of debate about Writer’s role. As Claudio S. explains, the Character (Claudio Kilgannon) is torn by grief, hesitation, and confusion concerning his destiny. He’s tortured by visions of the Lost Souls of the Keywork being used in their afterlife for Ryan’s devious ambition to fuel the Keywork. As Claudio is thrust into new situations, he doubts his ability to handle them. Chase, the Vishual, can hear what Writer thinks and says, and tries to reassure Claudio, but he is unchanged. As Claudio S. says, he spreads out papers in front of him that spell out “God only knows,” which is significant because Writer has newly realized himself as the God of their universe. Claudio’s fate is in God, or Writer’s hands, not his own. At this point, these two parallel characters begin to collide. Though cryptic, the lyrics in this song explain the evolution of these two men’s destinies.
    The Willing Well I: Fuel for the Feeding End
    Claudio Sanchez: “The Willing Well is where the two worlds collide. It goes back and forth between the characters in the graphic novel.”
    Just as the summary says, both Writer and Character (Claudio Kilgannon) are feeling the same uncertainty about their destinies. Writer, uncertain because he’s on his way to destroy the world he has unknowingly created to parallel his own life, begins to influence Claudio, who is simultaneously on his way to becoming the Keywork’s messiah and is still having trouble gripping the meaning of that. Though by different approaches, it becomes clear that they have the same goal: bring about the end of the Keywork. While Writer feels compelled by grief, Claudio feels compelled by fate. It becomes obvious that Claudio is a tool Writer is using as a means of destroying the story world. Because they are parallels of each other, they are experiencing the same emotions, including those for Ambellina.
    The Willing Well II: From Fear Through The Eyes of Madness
    Claudio Sanchez: “This is more from the Writer’s perspective: He’s become isolated from the world, and he finds a way out, which is to destroy the story.”
    As both worlds are bleeding into each other, the album takes a turn to show the perspective from both sides. The events take place in a certain sequence, but the listener/reader is also thrown back and forth between plot and disillusion to heighten the sense of disorientation that Writer feels. The Willing Well songs are all involved in the section of the graphic novel where Writer is on his way into the story, and Claudio is on his way to House Atlantic to fight with Ryan for the first time since “A Favor House Atlantic”. Writer and Character are both preparing for an upheaval; a final battle, or so they feel.
    The Willing Well III: Apollo II: The Telling Truth
    Claudio Sanchez: “This is the full on end, where the Character is coming to the Writer, and the Writer is saying to him ‘You are the one, I am your God’ and, ‘in my presence/you will make sure the fiction meets its fate…all the worlds from here must burn.”
    In the graphic novel, during this song, several events occur. Claudio, Jesse, Ambellina and their gang land on House Atlantic after getting through a lapse in the shields, according to Ryan’s plan. Jesse is immediately engaged in a fight with Mayo Detinwolf, as he had predicted, as Claudio and Ambellina run off to enter combat. Simultaneously, Writer is taken to a guillotine with angel wings and as the blade drops, he realizes he does not die. Instead, for the first time, he is certain about what he has to do. He enters the story through the Willing Well, which is what appears to be a full-length mirror that exists in both worlds. He enters the story by walking into a room in House Atlantic where Claudio and Ambellina are standing, having just killed an Onstantine Priest. Writer attacks Ambellina and Claudio evoke his Crowing abilities to fight Writer. His attempts are in vain, and Writer has his way. After realizing his powers are useless, Claudio is forced to listen to Writer’s commands.
    The Willing Well IV: The Final Cut
    Claudio Sanchez: “The Writer gets brought to this guillotine with wings, and at the guillotine is his love, Erica Court. And the blade comes down on the character, but he doesn’t die- he realizes what he has to do.”
    (Note: the events in the Final Cut happen just before the events in the telling truth in the graphic novel.)
    As the note explains, these events took place just before, and during Apollo II in the graphic novel. As for its place on the album, it is a different set of emotions that Writer experiences that don’t fit into the previous song; it is a closure to his open ended grief. Finally a type of revenge. It should be noted that Claudio S. has said the child’s voice in both songs Always and Never, and the Final Cut, are of no real significance.
    willing91on June 01, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General Commentso yeah these lyrics sound like theyre right to me

    i cant really deduce what they mean yet eventhough it sounds as though its written from the writers point of view so maybe it can shed some light on the whole "whos the writer and why is he so important?" mystery.
    mercy_meon September 09, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Comment*real lyrics*

    In these words that crash my ears
    I'll now stomach this in fear
    With the turn, that guy, that name is the Vasterats son
    Who, by fire I would come
    Through this wire on my coat
    Tuck this tower of loss and lies
    I brought the tape towards you
    I'm willing to now hit you

    whoa whoa

    I'll make you wish
    You hadn't burned our time before
    I'll live through this
    In a manner cursed in my own accord

    a whoa a whoa
    If my shame spills our worth across this floor
    a whoa a whoa
    Tonight, good night I'm burning star IV
    Only I don't even think of you
    No I don't wanna think of you anymore
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye

    In my presence you might wake
    Through this fiction I must fake
    Your death to grace the face of my character
    With these lessons he might learn
    All the worlds from here must burn
    For his God to imagine the agony witnessed

    a whoa a whoa
    If my shame spills our worth across this floor
    a whoa a whoa
    Tonight, good night I'm burning star IV
    Only I don't even think of you
    No I don't wanna think of you anymore
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye


    [Talking]


    I'll make you wish
    You hadn't burned our time before
    I'll live through this
    In a manner cursed in my own accord
    (I don't wanna go)
    So come on bitch why aren't you laughing now?
    (You left me here to cry on my own)
    So cry on bitch why aren't you laughing now?

    a whoa a whoa
    If my shame spills our worth across this floor
    a whoa a whoa
    Tonight, good night I'm burning star IV

    Only I don't even think of you
    No, I don't wanna think of you anymore
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye.

    Only I don't even think of you
    No girl I don't want to think of you anymore
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye.
    strange_brewon September 09, 2005   Link
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    General Comment*real lyrics*

    In these words that crash my ears
    I'll now stomach this in fear
    With the turn, that guy, that name is the Vasterats son
    Who, by fire I would come
    Through this wire on my coat
    Tuck this tower of loss and lies
    I brought the tape towards you
    I'm willing to now hit you

    whoa whoa

    I'll make you wish
    You hadn't burned our time before
    I'll live through this
    In a manner cursed in my own accord

    a whoa a whoa
    If my shame spills our worth across this floor
    a whoa a whoa
    Tonight, good night I'm burning star IV
    Only I don't even think of you
    No I don't wanna think of you anymore
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye

    In my presence you might wake
    Through this fiction I must fake
    Your death to grace the face of my character
    With these lessons he might learn
    All the worlds from here must burn
    For his God to imagine the agony witnessed

    a whoa a whoa
    If my shame spills our worth across this floor
    a whoa a whoa
    Tonight, good night I'm burning star IV
    Only I don't even think of you
    No I don't wanna think of you anymore
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye
    Goodnight, tonight goodbye


    [Talking]


    I'll make you wish
    You hadn't burned our time before
    I'll live through this
    In a manner cursed in my own accord
    (I don't wanna go)
    So come on bitch why aren't you laughing now?
    (You left me here to cry on my own)
    So cry on bitch why aren't you laughing now?

    a whoa a whoa
    If my shame spills our worth across this floor
    a whoa a whoa
    Tonight, good night I'm burning star IV

    Only I don't even think of you
    No, I don't wanna think of you anymore
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye.

    Only I don't even think of you
    No girl I don't want to think of you anymore
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye
    Goodnight, Tonight, Goodbye.
    strange_brewon September 09, 2005   Link
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    General Commentthese might still need work but i think are closer still -

    in these words that crash my ears
    i'll now stomach this in fear
    with the turn i gather names the faster
    its sun who by fire i would come
    through this wire i might could
    tuck this tower of loss and lies

    i gravitate towards you
    i will in the now hate you
    woah... woah...

    i'll make you wish you hadn't burned our time before
    i'll live through this in a manner acursed of my own accord

    woah...
    if my shame spills i'll wear the cross, be strown
    tonight goodnite im burning star IV
    only i dont even think of you
    no i dont wanna think of you anymore
    goodnight tonight goodbye
    goodnight tonight goodbye

    in my presence you might wake
    through this fiction i must fake
    your death to grace the face of my character
    with these lessons he might learn
    all the worlds from him must burn
    for his god demands in the end a witness

    woah...
    if my shame spills i'll wear the cross, be strown
    tonight goodnite im burning star IV
    only i dont even think of you
    no i dont wanna think of you anymore
    goodnight tonight goodbye
    goodnight tonight goodbye

    i'll make you wish you hadn't burned our time before
    i'll live through this in a manner acursed of my own accord

    i dont wanna go
    so come on bitch why arent you laughing now
    you left me here to fend on my own
    so cry on bitch why arent you laughing now

    woah...
    if my shame spills i'll wear the cross, be strown
    tonight goodnite im burning star IV
    only i dont even think of you
    no i dont wanna think of you anymore
    goodnight tonight goodbye
    goodnight tonight goodbye
    zion September 09, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think zi is the closest, but I like strange brews layout better. only correction I'd make is

    I gravitate towards you
    I am willing to now hate you
    woah... woah...

    I think this is willhelm ryan destroying star iv, and the prise along with it. He's trying to hange the prophecy of god, and wants to be completely in control.
    wetzillaon September 10, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti agree, if you've seen the animated shorts it kind of hints at that
    strange_brewon September 12, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commentwhere can i find the animated shorts?
    ferkyeahon September 15, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commentgo to mtv.com and look for them in there you can't use firefox for some reason to watch them though
    strange_brewon September 15, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commentmercy me, you're not good at deciphering lyrics.
    hellarack99on September 18, 2005   Link

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