"Disintegration" as written by and James Christopher/burch Adkins....
I've spent my last nights strung up and pulled tight,
Holding out sleeping proud.
An answer comes without a please.
Do what you want.

I wonder why I'm so caught off guard when we kiss.
I'd rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased?
Hanging on a cigarette, you need me, you'll burn me
You'll burn me.

Hushed with a finger,
Don't say you'll never when you might
Oh, just another time
This poison comes instruction free.
Do what you want, But I'm drinking.

I wonder why I'm so caught off guard when we kiss.
I'd rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased?
Hanging on a cigarette, you need me, you'll burn me
You'll burn me.

Right, right better next time
Stay on my side tonight, oh oh oh

I wonder why I'm so caught off guard when we kiss.
I'd rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased?
Hanging on a cigarette, you need me, you'll burn me
You'll burn me.


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"Disintegration" as written by Richard E Burch James Christopher Adkins

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    General Commentseems kinda like a relationship falling apart.."What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased?" i can relate to that entirely right now. ya iunno, hate being the first person to comment
    RuthLesson August 31, 2005   Link
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    General Commentdefintitely pertains to his lack of trust and inability to love her the way he used to. "I wonder why I'm so caught off guard when we kiss.
    I'd rather live my life in regret then do this." He doesn't initiate the kiss, its not within him to do so. He'd rather be living his life without putting up with his own lack of feelings toward her than to be in the lovelost relationship. It's ending, disintegrating, and he knows it. "Do what you want, But I'm drinking." - he wants her to be happy, regardless of the affect on him. He'll drink just to get over it.

    it's a pretty intense song for such a slow & mellow tempo. The drums are frigin awesome and aggressive as hell. I'll definitely buy the album because of this one song, I would buy it anyway, I'm a big fan of theirs to begin with.
    FANEliteon September 10, 2005   Link
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    General CommentLet me first say I think our guy has very deep feelings for this girl, but she doesn’t reciprocate.
    This song also touches on themes of addiction, dependence, regret, hurt and ‘being used’

    The girl is using him: maybe as a rebound after a messy break-up, or just for sex, because she knows she can. “Like a cigarette,” she needs him, but will burn him – burn in this sense implying ‘dump.’

    He can’t resist, he gives in – ‘do what you want’ – partly cause he’s so attracted to her, partly cause he’s dependent (she’s like a drug; he’s ‘drinking’), but also because, on some weird level, he wants to make her feel better.

    But he’s caught off-guard everytime because it’s so intense (from his point of view). He really wants her badly, but for more than just sex. He regrets the flings and always will but keeps doing it; it’s his drug. It’s bad for him (poison) and he knows it; it messes with his feelings and stops him from getting over her.

    Still, he keeps giving in, with the pathetic hope it’ll mean something more next time – ‘right, right, better next time, stay on my side tonight’.

    Anyone know the feeling? When you’re holding out for something you know won’t/can’t happen but you keep holding out, because wallowing in ‘what could be’ makes you feel better and is easier than facing the facts.

    That’s just my reading of it guys, no doubt influenced by personal experiences.

    anyone heard Sic Transit Gloria by Brand New?

    completely different sound but some overlap of meaning.
    emoasdon March 22, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI heard this song at exactly the right time. Ever get that? Something similar had happened to me the evening before I heard this song and it was unbelievable.
    Chwalfaon July 26, 2009   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningWell lets see, hmmm....

    I made an account jus for this song.

    This girl... he loves... (duh.)
    he drinks, he is confused. He thinks "I know she loves me, but why?" he wonders why does she love him? Something bad has happened between them, how could she love him? (Arguments, disagreements, petty things over time? im not sure. )

    He thinks "I know I love you" but "how do i do this?" "how?" I think he is begging for a sign from her. "Please tell me what I should do?"

    lie lie better next time (Why are you moving on with other men, flirting with them if you love me? I think he is disappointed that she is trying to move on, but he knows deep down inside how could i blame her? I think he thinks "I want you to look for love even if its only to fill the void i left in you" He may be holding himself back... but he doesn't want to anymore.)

    I think this song is about a relationship that has been through hell ,and back , yet he loves her, and she loves him. He says do what you want, I will drink. But he does not mean that!! HE DOES NOT MEAN THAT!! How could any man mean do what you want? He clearly loves her, he needs her. She needs him. Maybe she is just reserved and doesn't show it.

    Regret? He doesn't want to live in regret, he is lying. He needs her. (Well would be happier with her... aka needs her.)

    "For now I will drink" for now he will drink, until the time becomes right for 2 people to unite. (Or never unite...)
    but if they did Unite... it would be like they have been together always, even when apart, it does not matter... for love lasts even when the other has passed. (Cliche i know)

    Love. Some people know what it is... some people think they know...

    I am not an English major please excuse the eroors , and I am no philosopher , but please lend me your ear... this song means alot to me. If it is love, you will crawl, walk , run , and fight , you will hold a torch or gun, and when it goes off it will sound off like five thousand sirens zipping through a skyline... you will stand for her or him. Her dad will hate you, his mom will hate your or something like that... no one will want to see you together... yet you two would like nothing more.

    Please get your E.S.P helmet on, use the intuition god gave you (or what have you.) Im not saying be delusional but feel the world around you.

    Fists up for love.
    kareemisegyptianon March 06, 2012   Link
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    General CommentI think this is a new song. I heard it on MySpace and I think it's really good. It's got that classic JEW feel to it. It's pretty heartbreaking and I can see it in a movie or something, definitely.
    letterstonoelleon September 04, 2005   Link
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    General Commentthis song is really amazing.. this poison comes instruction free, do what you want but I'm drinking.. they always have so great metaphers..
    they also used that one before in a song (we need poison sometimes, so take another drink with me). just great!^^
    Malon333on September 10, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti definately like what FANElite said but i always thought it was about one of them falling into alcholoism and it was tearing their relationship apart. "this poison comes instruction free" (which, by the way, is probably the best line they've ever come up with...i love it). "You'll burn me" Maybe hes talking about how it hurts him how shes killing herself with liquor or something like that. maybe vice versa. i dont know.
    jesushasabeard03on September 19, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti definately like what FANElite said but i always thought it was about one of them falling into alcholoism and it was tearing their relationship apart. "this poison comes instruction free" (which, by the way, is probably the best line they've ever come up with...i love it). "You'll burn me" Maybe hes talking about how it hurts him how shes killing herself with liquor or something like that. maybe vice versa. i dont know. or perhaps its about how his friends girlfriend is having affair with him. he really likes her but dosent want to sacrifice the friendship for her. "id rather live life in regret than do this". he really wants her and knows hell regret it if he pushes her away but hed rather have his friend. either theory for me.
    jesushasabeard03on September 19, 2005   Link
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    General Commentcorrection:

    try to lie better next time
    stay on my side tonight...


    its hard to tell, but the official lyrics are those.
    Redlighton October 09, 2005   Link

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