"Tortures Of The Damned" as written by Anthony S Raneri, Jack A O'shea, John Holohan and Nick Ghanbarian....
I hate myself more than I ever let on
I'm burnt out at twenty two
I lived too fast and I loved too much and I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from

Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself, an unspeakable sin
That I've committed and

I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand

It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned

If I only had an ax
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world
Maybe I can be a stranger in a strange place
If I start now, maybe I can be saved

If I only had a mask
I'd cover these bleeding eyes
They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn
If I wake up now, I can be pure again

I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand

It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned

Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town

Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town

I've made mistakes...but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand

It just hurts to be a man
(Through the tortures of the damned)

I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand

It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned

I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand

It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned


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"Tortures of the Damned" as written by Jack A O'shea Anthony S Raneri

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    General Comment"look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back toward the last train leaving town"- he realizes that he has to stay and can't run away from his problems, he could move to anywhere in the world but he would always have the guilt of the things that he has done (or hasn't done) in his past.
    "They're bloodshot now but they'll be black by dawn if I wake up i can be pure again"-he was drunk all night and he will be hungover in the morning and if only he could wake up and realize that he is not alone and people care about him then he could start over and be the man that he used to be.
    YouSmileInYourSleepon March 09, 2009   Link
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    General Commentomg. i cant believe no ones commented on this song yet! its soooo awesome! i think anthony's singing bout how we all screw up in life all the time but somehow we've made it through and he screwed up really bad and he's trying to find his way back out of it and escape it
    sk8r_chik27on August 27, 2005   Link
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    General CommentOne of the best songs on the new CD.


    The other best one is "Blame It On Bad Luck."
    taylor42on August 28, 2005   Link
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    General Commentto me i think it has to do with alocholism. idk i just see it like this:

    "I hate myself more than I ever let on
    I'm burnt out at 22
    I have lived too fast
    And I loved too much
    And I'll die too young
    But I chose this cup that I drank from
    Knew what I was getting into
    But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
    I'm ashamed of myself
    And unspeakable sins that I committed and..."

    ok he hates himself sooo much and soo many things are happening that he cant control! but doesnt wanna tell anybody. so he turns to liquor b.c hes depressed and feels like liquor is the only thing that will take the pain away.

    he also goes on to say:

    " It just hurts to be a man "

    meaning hes tooo ashamed of himself to much b.c of the drinking. like hes nothing.

    "If I wake up now I can be pure again"

    meaning when he wakes up from the night before and the aolochol is gone out of his system. so hes pure.

    and last:

    "Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
    Towards the last train leaving town"

    to me hes on the train tracks, drunk and upset. like hes on the tracks and wants out!

    idk thats my take on it and you can think differently and ik it was too hard to understand probably but i tried.
    dying2Bperfecton September 03, 2005   Link
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    General CommentHe's feeling rather shittyto say the least.like he's screwed up his whole life.He's drinking. He just wants to cut himself off from everyone he knows so he can have a new begining.
    When he says ,"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
    Towards the last train leaving town" He's talking about killing himself. Maybe The last train as he doesn't want to fuck things up for anyone else and they'll be less people on it (late night or w/e)?
    insomnatic_meaton January 02, 2006   Link
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    General CommentIt's about how he hates everything, and lived his life to fast. He knows it has been his own choise and won't blame anyone else. He know he has made mistakes but he will get trough it and he wants to start a new life, knowing thinking about the things he failed at won't help him.

    Look at me now I'm on the tracks
    With my back towards the last train leaving town

    I think this means he wanted to leave, but decides he will stay. The last train leaving town means this was his only change to leave.
    LifeFadingAwayon January 03, 2006   Link
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    General Commenthmm, hes fed up with his life and with his alcahol problem, he keeps thinking back and forth about how things are so bad and then how things can posibly be fixed, at the end he kills himself. great song
    neglectedangelon January 11, 2006   Link
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    General Commenthe turns his back to the train while he's on the tracks and it runs him over...duh!
    Atemporalon January 11, 2006   Link
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    General Commentokay about the line
    "Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
    Towards the last train leaving town (x4)"
    i think this means look how far i have come with this and that I am ending it now hes turning his back towards something that could be the death of him

    overall i think this is a really powerful song that i fell in love with when i saw them play it live....it was amazing you could just feel every word and its meaning shaking your whole body and it was amazing....such a good band
    Bayside103on April 12, 2006   Link
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    General CommentIT JUST HURTS TO BE A MAN.

    You've really got to pity the person behind these lyrics at this time, it seems so gut-wrenchingly difficult.
    our.lady.of.sorrowson October 09, 2006   Link

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