The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
I hate myself more than I ever let on
I'm burnt out at twenty two
I lived too fast and I loved too much and I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from
Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself, an unspeakable sin
That I've committed and
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned
If I only had an ax
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world
Maybe I can be a stranger in a strange place
If I start now, maybe I can be saved
If I only had a mask
I'd cover these bleeding eyes
They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn
If I wake up now, I can be pure again
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
I've made mistakes...but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
(Through the tortures of the damned)
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned
I'm burnt out at twenty two
I lived too fast and I loved too much and I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from
Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself, an unspeakable sin
That I've committed and
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned
If I only had an ax
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world
Maybe I can be a stranger in a strange place
If I start now, maybe I can be saved
If I only had a mask
I'd cover these bleeding eyes
They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn
If I wake up now, I can be pure again
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
Look at me now, I'm on the tracks
With my back towards the last train leaving town
I've made mistakes...but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
(Through the tortures of the damned)
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way
There's no explanation for (There's no explanation for)
The things I've failed at before (The things I've failed at before)
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned
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Tortures of the Damned Lyrics as written by Jack A O'shea Anthony S Raneri
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
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You Smile was thinking exactly what i was.
One of the best songs on the new CD.
The other best one is "Blame It On Bad Luck."
omg. i cant believe no ones commented on this song yet! its soooo awesome! i think anthony's singing bout how we all screw up in life all the time but somehow we've made it through and he screwed up really bad and he's trying to find his way back out of it and escape it
to me i think it has to do with alocholism. idk i just see it like this:
"I hate myself more than I ever let on I'm burnt out at 22 I have lived too fast And I loved too much And I'll die too young But I chose this cup that I drank from Knew what I was getting into But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in I'm ashamed of myself And unspeakable sins that I committed and..."
ok he hates himself sooo much and soo many things are happening that he cant control! but doesnt wanna tell anybody. so he turns to liquor b.c hes depressed and feels like liquor is the only thing that will take the pain away.
he also goes on to say:
" It just hurts to be a man "
meaning hes tooo ashamed of himself to much b.c of the drinking. like hes nothing.
"If I wake up now I can be pure again"
meaning when he wakes up from the night before and the aolochol is gone out of his system. so hes pure.
and last:
"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town"
to me hes on the train tracks, drunk and upset. like hes on the tracks and wants out!
idk thats my take on it and you can think differently and ik it was too hard to understand probably but i tried.
He's feeling rather shittyto say the least.like he's screwed up his whole life.He's drinking. He just wants to cut himself off from everyone he knows so he can have a new begining. When he says ,"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town" He's talking about killing himself. Maybe The last train as he doesn't want to fuck things up for anyone else and they'll be less people on it (late night or w/e)?
It's about how he hates everything, and lived his life to fast. He knows it has been his own choise and won't blame anyone else. He know he has made mistakes but he will get trough it and he wants to start a new life, knowing thinking about the things he failed at won't help him.
Look at me now I'm on the tracks With my back towards the last train leaving town
I think this means he wanted to leave, but decides he will stay. The last train leaving town means this was his only change to leave.
hmm, hes fed up with his life and with his alcahol problem, he keeps thinking back and forth about how things are so bad and then how things can posibly be fixed, at the end he kills himself. great song
he turns his back to the train while he's on the tracks and it runs him over...duh!
okay about the line "Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back Towards the last train leaving town (x4)" i think this means look how far i have come with this and that I am ending it now hes turning his back towards something that could be the death of him
overall i think this is a really powerful song that i fell in love with when i saw them play it live....it was amazing you could just feel every word and its meaning shaking your whole body and it was amazing....such a good band
IT JUST HURTS TO BE A MAN.
You've really got to pity the person behind these lyrics at this time, it seems so gut-wrenchingly difficult.
seriously