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For the first time in my life
I let myself be held
Like a big old baby
I surrender
To your charity

I lay back in the tall grass
And let the ants cover me
I let the jets fly
I'm wishing for their destruction
Born to black in a perfect blue sky

For the first time in my life
I am moving away, moving away, moving away
From within the reach of me
And all the wild being held
Like a big old baby


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    General CommentI'm pretty sure it's "Not wishing for their destruction." He's fine letting the jets be.
    woimlglon March 24, 2011   Link
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    General CommentHere's the music writer Mark Richardson:

    "You think that to be a man means to keep this tough exterior apparent at all times. And to allow yourself to be held just like a 'big old baby' is to let go of that completely. That's complete vulnerability, 'surrendering to your charity,' as Callahan says in the next line, but it's less about being physically vulnerable (though there is that too) than emotionally vulnerable. You have to believe that someone could care about you even if you regress to an infantile state."
    sxeanon December 08, 2012   Link
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    General Commentbeautiful imagery. beautiful message.
    catoon November 03, 2009   Link
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    Song MeaningI think this song is essentially about a vindication, or re-birth of some sorts. He describes allowing himself to be "held" and "surrendering" which describes his new philosophy on life, to let things happen, rather than trying to force them in his favor. The jets he wishes for their destruction, might be a symbolic way of letting them destroy the old him, or to simply allow what may come to come (even if that's destruction, death, or a new and positive world.) In the end, I think it's about allowing the world's, and peoples, energy to effect him for once.
    thelistener21on March 01, 2011   Link
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    General CommentI'm wishing for their destruction
    orange and black in a perfect blue sky
    brickleron September 28, 2011   Link

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