This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
When does this start when does this end someone is there whose never a friend how do you do how do I do how should I ask where are my shoes what is this coat what is this face I just need change to get out of this place why all this pacing why all the drugging gimme that change before I start mugging - It started when liquor became the star character just breaking a leg needless to say taking advantage of blind elders isn't very saint spitting out the beer then to growing my hair then to finding Acapulco gold then came hallucinations anger just sinking my fist into her face - A simmering pot of glue I am waiting to sniff its just enough chemicals to put a small hole into the ozone layer introduced to some powder dumping into my system - working at bookstores with never showering yellow pit stains dance music war stories on tape - Enter here follow signs to down hill take caution leave behind all your sexual powers apocalypse night has no mercy all the buds are bastards when they choose to overlook and eliminate your fantasy tonight - Needless to say taking advantage of blind elders isn't very saint the snow is coming the flakes are all a flurry some touched my skin they melt away but I have a purpose I never sway walking for hours don't feel the cold I cant see the sun there's just the road the trees the piles of leaves like vomit on the ground - I arrive and inhale I inhale and exhale and I know in my heart the devil doesn't lie I am a fucking machine I am a fucking machine inhale and exhale and inhale and exhale
I am a fucking machine.
I am a fucking machine.
Lyrics submitted by matt0009
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