"Citadel" as written by and Anna Nalick....
I'm sitting on a citadel
Contemplating life
Making a point to waste my time
I'm walking on clouds of white

What if I fall?
What if I don't?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can't take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?

And I'm breaking on the balcony
Breaking window panes
Killing the pain of broken hearts
I'm walking on clouds
Walking on stars

What if I fall?
What if I don't?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can't take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?

I'm holding on to something
It's keeping me from jumping
I'm so afraid to do it alone
And holding up this fortress
With imaginary forces
Longing for a life down below

What if I fall?
What if I don't?
What if I never make it home?
What if I bleed?
What if I break?
And I find that I can't take
The city below the Citadel
Holding my own hand?


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"Citadel" as written by Anna Nalick

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    General CommentI think she's holding on to her values, or her dreams, or even herself. She's on this platform, above the rest, set apart from them because she refused to conform and be like them. She want's to keep her own identity, but at the same time, she is lonely and just wants to jump off the platform in the sky and conform, just to have a friend. The human nature in her is telling her to jump off and be like the rest in order to survive, but she knows that thats just not who she is and that it would not be true to herself. The song represents a struggle everyone goes through at one time or another.
    coastal_birdon December 30, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI really dont think this is about suicide... Heres the reason... A citadel is by definition: any strongly fortified place; stronghold.

    This means that she is safe right where she is. That if she stays put, she can hold onto this saftey. She is comtemplating because she doesnt know if she should take a risk and change everything or if she should stay where its safe. She both doubts and believes in the decision/herself (What if I fall, What if I dont? etc..) In the end she finds that there is something thats keeping her from changing everything... But the "What if..." will always remain for her...
    Furtado Fan37on December 26, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI was listening to this song a little bit ago and I have a different view on this song... I think its about Stardom. She doesnt know if she can make it or not (What if I fall? What if I dont?). Its the what ifs, we all have them. She doesnt know if she should go out and follow her dreams or if she should just stay put. She sitting on a citadel, meaning that she is on display for everyone to see. The 2nd verse is about her love life and what this new popularity can do to it... WHat do you guys think?
    Furtado Fan37on January 03, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think she's afraid to break away onto her own from someone.
    " What if I fall?
    What if I don't?
    What if I never make it home?
    What if I bleed?
    What if I break? "
    sdp_clcurtison June 19, 2005   Link
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    General Commentwhen i heard this song i thought maybe it was about thinking about whether she should break away from a long-term relationship. but when i read the lyrics, i thought it doesn't necessarily need to refer to a romantic relationship, but one where two people have known each other for a long time and have been through a lot together, growing up and supporting each other. so in that sense the relationship is a sort of 'citadel', protecting her from the harsh real world.
    but then for some reason perhaps the relationship goes sour and she thinks that maybe she needs to leave and live out on her own, but she doesn't know whether she can make it on her own coz the history of their relationship is holding her back.

    that's just my two cents =]
    xiao_wei85on August 04, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song is about suicide.
    rockstargazer9on September 18, 2005   Link
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    General CommentOne more thing I forgot:
    "Home" I think refers to where she belongs, not physicly, but where she belongs in society and maybe she knows sub-consiusly that the citadel is her home, and she's afraid that if she falls she'll never go back. She'll just be like the rest forever.
    coastal_birdon December 30, 2005   Link
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    General Commentyeah, i kinda always thought this song was about the contemplation of suicide...but i wasnt really sure...cuz she says...

    "I'm sitting on a citadel
    contemplating life"

    "What if I fall?
    What if I don't?
    What if I never make it home?
    What if I bleed?
    What if I break,
    and I find that I can't take
    the city below the citadel"

    i don't know. maybe im just taking it too literally. what do you think?
    piecesxofxyouon January 27, 2006   Link
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    General Commentto me this song is saying "im up here so high on this petistal dancing, trying to live my dream, but i dont wanna fall" its like shes so scared that shes gonna fall. like im so scared im gonna fall down. but i have so much to hold on to. sometimes it just seems easyer to let go. its like a test of hers, all of your innerstrengths. its crazy.
    saylinon January 29, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI also think this song is about suicide. My favorite part, "What if I fall? What if I don't?" makes me think this.
    She's thinking, 'what would happen if I were to take my life (to fall, in a sense)? What would happen if I kept on living?'
    "And holding up this fortress With imaginary forces" -- She's trying to find reason to live, continue to live, keep up her citadel. The imaginary forces are the reasons she invents to keep living, but they're only imaginary. She knows they're nothing.
    anopeon March 03, 2006   Link

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