This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
eternitity is pressed against my eyelids
by brittle fists that i cannot avoid
and though each fingers grip has been relentless
the moments they just keep on slipping by
and i am now aware that i haven't always had been at this moment
sat me there sitting by the fire and blue waiting for you
and though ive been expected
i've never quite accepted that the fire had suddenly gone out
the hands will fall away, the pain appeal
the trees will say its okay
cause i'm scared that theres no answer
cause i'm scared theres no dreamers
in this life of mine there is only time
the illusion of which is gone
all my words are spread across the canvas
no one's seemed to see the things i say
and those these eyes were once those of an artist failure has relieved me of a face
and i am now aware that i am only the brushstrokes on the headstone of a man that never lived
and this oh this, is this, a life that i have failed and i hoped to be forgiven
the fire had suddenly gone out
the hands will fall away, the pain appeal
the trees will say its okay
cause i'm scared that theres no answer
cause i'm scared theres no dreamers
in this life of mine there is only time
the illusion of which is gone
so what is left
waiting to be a man
i hanged myself to the guilt to the end
with your eyes open you stand standing still
we got a lot to say, got a lot to do
boys are in the street
they just want to do what they want
we dont care how
by brittle fists that i cannot avoid
and though each fingers grip has been relentless
the moments they just keep on slipping by
and i am now aware that i haven't always had been at this moment
sat me there sitting by the fire and blue waiting for you
and though ive been expected
i've never quite accepted that the fire had suddenly gone out
the hands will fall away, the pain appeal
the trees will say its okay
cause i'm scared that theres no answer
cause i'm scared theres no dreamers
in this life of mine there is only time
the illusion of which is gone
all my words are spread across the canvas
no one's seemed to see the things i say
and those these eyes were once those of an artist failure has relieved me of a face
and i am now aware that i am only the brushstrokes on the headstone of a man that never lived
and this oh this, is this, a life that i have failed and i hoped to be forgiven
the fire had suddenly gone out
the hands will fall away, the pain appeal
the trees will say its okay
cause i'm scared that theres no answer
cause i'm scared theres no dreamers
in this life of mine there is only time
the illusion of which is gone
so what is left
waiting to be a man
i hanged myself to the guilt to the end
with your eyes open you stand standing still
we got a lot to say, got a lot to do
boys are in the street
they just want to do what they want
we dont care how
Lyrics submitted by Rain_O_Pain
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It might be "sadly sway" instead of "stay this way", but I think i'm right. Its very hard to tell the way he sings it, but I hear an "is" as in "this" right before the stay or sway, not the "ly" that would be there with "sadly." I wish I could verify this with legitimate lyrics from the actual band though......