"Ever" as written by and Emilie Autumn....
I've been racing for you honey
But you take your love
From under my feet
The very moment I arrive
I hold the invitation in my hand
You smile and I don't understand
When you tell me the writing ain't yours
You were the one thing I could count on
Even if your apathy was what I expected
Oh darling I waited and waited to feel your footsteps
And to hear your breath
But maybe I just wanted someone to wait for

You were ever in my mind
You were behind my soul each time
I held it to the flame
You were ever in my precious thoughts
I'd leave a room of angels
Just to be alone
If only to say your name
I never told you I needed you darling
Like a rose needs the rain
How could you possibly know how much
So I reach for your love
Like the moon and the stars
Ever in my sight
Ever out of touch

There's a spotlight of a holy kind
Think it comes from somewhere
Up in the sky or from some far off lovely place
But this light never ever ever shone on me
At least as far as I could see
So I sat in the dark and I watched you
Now I just cry to myself
When there's no one around
And I teach myself to walk backwards
Out of any given situation
Yes I can be graceful and try
Not to step on my train and
You don't have to say goodbye
But I'll be right here if you want to


Now I could paint your portrait
If I never saw you again
When I am old someone may ask me
If I ever loved
And I will speak but they won't recognize
My words, they'll say I'm telling lies
And maybe I am
Maybe I am
All I know is


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"Ever" as written by Emilie Autumn

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  • +2
    Song ComparisonThe tune is completely ripped off Fiona Apple's 'Love Ridden'.
    Before you diss me as a hater, actually listen to the two songs!!!
    FYsion November 17, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is so beautiful. When I hear it I picture sort of a peasant girl who had always been admiring a prince, and one day someone decided to play a nasty trick on her and invite her to the ball. Then she arrives and confesses her love to the prince, but he doesn't return it.

    This song reminds me of the autumn, for some reason. So tragic.

    But yes, I completely agree with Bugoff. This is one of the best songs from Enchant, and maybe of all of her work.
    Poisoned desireson January 13, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think that it's about a girl who fell in love with a guy who didn't loved her back and was even cruel sometimes. She was obsessed and kept loving him forever, but maybe she didn't really love him, she loved being in love and used him to feel in love, so she kind of needed him... but that's just my opinion...
    Sykchanon October 17, 2008   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningI fully agree with ladylunacy about this song. It hits so close to home for me it's hard to listen to but I love it so much.

    To me this song is about a woman who loved a man and he made her believe that he loved her just as much as she loved him, later she finds out all his feelings for her were false. But even though she was so hurt by this she will still always love him no matter what. "So I reach for your love like the moon and the stars. Ever in my sight, ever out of touch" She is there watching him be happy with another woman but yet she still finds her heart aching for him.
    God, this song is more like my situation than I realized...
    RachelRicocheton March 22, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General CommentAll of EA's older work seems to be completely overlooked. This is one of the best songs from Enchant.
    bugoffon January 07, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI love this song, the very first time I heard it, I cried. It is the most meaningful song to me, of Emilie's.
    I think it's about falling for someone truly amazing, and not fully realizing it, or not getting the chance to understand how much it really affected that person's life until something happens and the subject of the song is gone and there is no way the narrator can say to that person how they feel, and have always felt.
    Something like this happened to me once.
    Valentine01on August 12, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI also think it is beautiful:D
    Especially the sentence: "I never told you I needed you darling, like a rose needs the rain"
    borderline.ladyon February 14, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis song makes me cry ;__;
    Ophelia306on February 18, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentIts like she loved something and just held it inside and just dreamed about it. I've done that.
    B100dredsummeron March 10, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI'm in the situation it seems the song is about...
    Girl falls in love with amazing guy. He shows nothing but confidence in her and is always there for her; he is everything she could want. However, she finds that he doesn't love her the same way she loves him, leaving her to find someone like him (I hold the invitation in my hand; You smile and I don't understand when you tell me the writing ain't yours). However, she's never going to stop loving him, as the chorus suggests. The holy light could be the blessing of love (they say in the musical Les Miserables "To love another is to see the face of God") and it seems like she's watching everyone around her fall in love and pair up, though she's left sitting in the dark watching the man get his share of the light. Now she's a bit jaded and teaches herself to "walk backwards out of any given situation". She's not expecting him to love her in a romantic way anymore, though she would gladly accept if he wanted to give her a chance in a relationship or even to offer some closure to what she thought was requited love.
    I completely agree; Emilie's older work is overlooked despite the pure emotion and beauty of it.
    ladylunacyon October 01, 2008   Link

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