"Jillian" as written by Martinus J. E. Martijn Spierenburg, Sharon J. Den Adel and Robert Westerholt....
I've been dreaming for so long,
to find a meaning to understand.
The secret of life,
why am I here to try again?

Will I always, will you always
see the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
by breaking these chains?

I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul.
I'd turn it back, it's my fault.
Your destiny is forlorn,
have to live till it's undone.
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul.
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way.

I've been living for so long,
many seasons have passed me by.
I've seen kingdoms trough ages
rise and fall, I've seen it all.

I've seen the horror, I've seen the wonders
happening just in front of my eyes.
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?

I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul.
I'd turn it back, it's my fault.
Your destiny is forlorn,
have to live till it's undone.
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul.
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way.

Jillian our dream ended long ago.
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear.
We won't be together
for ever and ever, no more tears.
I'll always be here until the end.
Jillian, no more tears
Jillian, no more tears

I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul.
I'd turn it back, it's my fault.
Your destiny is forlorn,
have to live till it's undone.
I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul.
I'd turn it back and then at last I'll be on my way.


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"Jillian (I'd Give My Heart)" as written by Robert Westerholt Martinus J. E. Martijn Spierenburg

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  • +8
    General CommentAs several people have said, this song is based on the Deverry Series by Katherine Kerr and I know this is true because Sharen Den Adel said so when Within Temptation performed live at Astoria in 2007 and I was about 5 feet away from the stage at the time.

    The song is written from the point of view of an old man called Nevyn (Translates a "No One") who in his youth was engaged to the most beautiful girl in Deverry, called Brangwen. Unfortunetly, due to various things going wrong, Brangwen ends up dead and Nevyn blames himself.

    Nevyn swares an oath that he won't rest until he has repaid his debts to Brangwen, so the Lords of Wyrds grant him an unusualy long life so he can do this. Eventualy Brangwen in reborn as are various others who were involved in the tragedy, but it takes several life-times to get things remotley sorted and by this time Nevyn is an old man and Brangwen has been reincarnated as a young woman called Jill (Gylian) which is why the song sounds so regretful.

    ...I'm not sure how the story ends because I've only got to book 3 (The Bristling Wood: Dawnspell) but it's all very confusing and the story will flit from a past life-time to the present life-time and people who were involved in the past (Like when Brangwen was reborn as Lyssa and she has a son. Her son goes off to study the Dweomer - or sorcery - with Nevyn) will show up in the present life-time and help out in various ways.

    Any questions?

    Obsidian Winter
    ObsidianWinteron August 16, 2009   Link
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    General Commenti kno.. within temptation is one of the best goth bands out there.. compared to all the crap that's out now!!! and i hate how no one really knos about them, i'm from america and im the only one who i kno that knows about them... i love this band and this is an awesome songs.. (all there songs are awesome)
    Dark_Secret_Love666on April 10, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General Commentyeah i found it , i was right this song is about the book zilverdolk (silverdagger) van Katharine Kerr.

    and someone above here was pretty close bacause he said it was about reincarnation. the book is about a guy who is turned immortal as a punishment until he made his wrong doings right again, so he is forced to live for ages. He lives fot centuries and he sees reincarnations (a magic abbility of his) of people he knew. jillian (or as it is written in the book: Gylian) is a girl he loved. and he meets her in several incarnations over like a thousand years.

    so i was right , this song is about a book and as i already suspected the I person is immortal
    In the miston January 23, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentPeople, this song used to be called Orff (NOT ORPH) because the chorus is based on part of Carl Orff's O Fortuna from his Carmina Burana. You may have heard O Fortuna before in commercials, but unless you listen to classical music, you won't know exactly what I'm talking about. Listen to it:

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    LaFleuron August 07, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commentmy god, why there's that much comments for WT songs!? geez, dudes, u don't know what do you loose..
    pan_ziebys(:on January 19, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI got introduced to WT by a friend. We are pretty much the only ones who know about it here in NZ. I read they are from Holland.. so I asked the German exchange students about them.. and they said WT arent that popular! That suprises me.. because I think they are quite good to be honest.
    griggonatoron May 09, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI got it from my friend who lives over in Ireland... she said she doesn't know how nobody over in the USA doesn't know who they are. They fuckin kick ass *nods* I'm sure I'm the only person here in ND who knows who they are ^_^;;
    Mizerableon June 27, 2005   Link
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    General Commentthis song used to be called orph i had a live demo if it somewhere but i lost it, it had different words in most parts of the song, i wonder why they changed the title to jillian
    gothicrockeron July 18, 2005   Link
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    General CommentWell they seem to have picked up in popularity now, well certainly in the UK they are getting a bit more coverage.

    I think the spelling for this song was 'Orff' before, dunno what that means. Maybe just a random word while they came up with the proper title.
    Lailseaxon December 20, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti have introduced WT to alot of my pplz... and they seem to like them ... and they h8 gothic bands ....
    ????_chrison December 23, 2005   Link

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