I write clever words on paper,
I sometimes think I don't believe at all.
I've never felt so fake,
so false, I'm such a lie,
I couldn't even look him in the eyes.
He was twenty-five like I was,
but he was deaf and slowly going blind.
He made my faith seem worthless,
the things I hoped were pointless.
And he fought to stay,
but always dreamed that he could leave this place.

The angels wings,
will cover you tonight,
Hallelujah.
Press your head,
against the breast of Christ.
Hallelujah.

It made me feel so empty,
collapsing on some dirty bathroom floor.
And isn't it just like me,
to mourn his passing breath,
when he will never suffer any more?
Beautiful his pictures,
fading black and silver.
And I sing of faith,
but his was true, and fierce and I will miss him.

The angel's wings,
will cover you tonight,
Hallelujah.
Press your head,
against the breast of Christ.
Hallelujah.
(repeat)


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    General CommentI really love this song from their second album, I can't believe no one had added it before me. Whenever I listen to this song I get chills. It's such a deep song, really puts in perspective how we take what life we've got left for granted.

    This is what the CD cover had to say about the song:
    This song is about a dear friend of ours Matt Estrella. Matt suffered from a rare genetic disease called Neufibromatosis 2. Which causes tumors to grow on the myelin sheaths of the outer nervous system.Eventually the nerves will stop functioning. Our friend Matt was deaf when we first met him. He was losing his sight and a lot of feeling in parts of his body. The tumors were large, and very noticeable in some places.He was about the same age as I was, but I was living an amazing life for a 25 year old, while he carried this enormous and hideous burden. It seemed that anytime that I would complain to God about something fair or unfair, somehow I would see or hear from Matt. He was the only person that I had met that had any right to complain to God about what unfair or unjust in his life, but he never did. His faith was beyond measure, and that is why I loved him. Last spring, he died while undergoing an operation of removing one of his many tumors. This is just some stupid song I wrote in a basement. It will never make up for what is missing from the world now Matt Estrella is gone from it...But it is the best I could do. Shalom my friend we will see you again.

    -Reese Roper February4, 2003
    jopaelon December 04, 2004   Link
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    General Commenti am the second person to post on this.... wow. I can't believe either, it is an incredible song. Almost every time I listen to this I cant help but cry. It touched very close to home for me because a very good friend of mine died at a young age, and well I would always complain to God and be angry with God, but whenever I listened to this song i would remember that he is in a better place and i am merely being selfish. It has definitley touched my life. keep it real!
    Gambithon October 05, 2005   Link
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    General CommentThis is the first time I've heard this song... and I cried... am crying. Those lyrics, "I've never felt so fake," is often how I feel when it comes to my relationship with Christ. With all my heart, I believe, I'm surrounded by supportive Christians, but I struggle to maintain one-on-one time with Christ. And though I find myself talking to God as if he were standing right next to me, I feel lacking. I feel fake.
    Snickershellon October 01, 2008   Link

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