This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Quote from "The Prisoner" spoken by female character in beginning of song "We have a saying here, a still tounge makes a happy life"]
We all sound the same
And I found with every word I spoke
It got harder not to choke
When it came undone
I found that everything I built
Meant nothing
If I lacked the string to open my eyes
(or if i lacked the strength to open my mind?)
[if it was nothing can the signal find me]
all I've known
and all i've been
and i breathe
what they [?]
though i struggle to open a new door
and i don't know what i'll think
when i'll find the other side
And i struggle to utter a new word
I don't know what scares me more
Is it the thought of changing
And I don't know what scares me more
Is it the thought of losing
And I don't know waht scares me more
is it the thought of moving
And i dont know what scares me more
is it the thought that, i, might, get [?]
[I can't decipher the rest of it, and some of what i have is wrong...a lot of it probably, i really wanted the lyrics to this song, so i attempted to do it myself, but if anyone wants to fix it for me, go for it.]
We all sound the same
And I found with every word I spoke
It got harder not to choke
When it came undone
I found that everything I built
Meant nothing
If I lacked the string to open my eyes
(or if i lacked the strength to open my mind?)
[if it was nothing can the signal find me]
all I've known
and all i've been
and i breathe
what they [?]
though i struggle to open a new door
and i don't know what i'll think
when i'll find the other side
And i struggle to utter a new word
I don't know what scares me more
Is it the thought of changing
And I don't know what scares me more
Is it the thought of losing
And I don't know waht scares me more
is it the thought of moving
And i dont know what scares me more
is it the thought that, i, might, get [?]
[I can't decipher the rest of it, and some of what i have is wrong...a lot of it probably, i really wanted the lyrics to this song, so i attempted to do it myself, but if anyone wants to fix it for me, go for it.]
Lyrics submitted by E Benson
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i think its "if i lacked the strength to open my EYES" but i could be wrong, im just guessing as you did. you got farther than i have... ivee been looking for these lyrics for 3 years? something like that. good luck to you
We all sounded the same And with every word I spoke It got harder not to choke And when it came undone I found that everything I'd built meant nothing If I lacked the strength to open my mind Cause it was never these things that defined me
All I'd known, all I'd seen, what I believed wasn't mine So I struggle to open a new door And I don't know what I'll see or what I'll find on the other side And I struggle to utter a new word And I don't know what I'll see or what I'll find when I do
I don't know what scares me more Is it the thought of changing? ..Is it the thought of losing? ..Is it the thought of moving? ..Or is it the thought that I might stand still While the world is moving?
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This whole song is great. Szorko's lyrics seem pretty accurate, but the line 'I don't know what scares me more' is repeated in between 'is it the thought of losing', and 'is it the thought of moving'. Just wanted to say that, in case anyone didn't pick up on that.
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too bad i cant find them on vinyle