LEIGH: I was so uncertain of myself. Trying to find out who were amongst a multitude of who will I be. The years they, they have faded. The years have faded by so fast and look how much I've grown. I'm not the same. We wrap ourselves in covers, the illusions of what we strive to be but deep down inside there is something growing passed the trends. Death led me to a quiet place. I stared up at the ceiling, realizing the intensity of who I was and who I could be. The heaviness of the tears enveloped me. The lonely place I've been disappeared. (we held on and cried). We laughed a lot. Told secrets, dyed our hair. ur voices rose, and our feet danced. We were of academia Monday through Friday and punk rock on the weekends. I am me, beautiful me. I can still see their faces. Feel the sweat. Sing the song. All day long. Hold onto your dreams. I held a broom in my hand, I swept the afterthoughts of the day. I earned my education. I thank you for it. You will live in my heart.

TOM: Look at where I am now. Look at where you are now. Could you tell me this is for the best. It's obvious. It's funny how when we say forever we really only mean until things change. I lost the fight to put the clues together, some things lose their shine alone with age. We climb over and over again and we fall over and over again. Could it be something that I said, that I did? You tried a million times but you can't break me. You'll never break me now. You won't stand on your own two feet again without me. You said there'd be days like this and days like this will pass. It seemed like a lifetime then, those years went by so fast. I'll try to remember you, you came and went so fast.


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    great song, anyone caught between the freedom found in punk/hardcore, and the rigidness of higher education can relate.

    But the heart of the song is how when you are young you think certain things will always be important to you and certain people will always be there for you. However as things change you find out they won't be

    1218eighty-twoon January 10, 2006   Link

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