This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Of all of the fears I’ve grown to love
I’m frightened the most of missing you
I punish myself for finding joy
And focus on what I have to lose
It’s hard to believe in what he says
When I have the strength to silence lies
Hearing now I feel secure
I know it’s worthy of the pride I sacrificed
And all of the tears I cried tonight
Show me faith I dream about
As long as you’re here I’m strong
And I’ll believe in every word I heard you say tonight
Finding peace despite tonight
You’re the strength I lack tonight
and steadier than I am
You’re folding your fingers into mine
You tell me that healing comes in time
It won’t be the same again
Do you believe in rebirth and lives becoming new
It’s hard to believe in much now
The weight is crushing me now and cutting off my air
I’m finding hard to stand at all
You’ve gotta relate to this
I want you to tell me yes
Knowing you have my trust
Believing it’s for the best
Feeling this vulnerable
Letting down every wall
Not looking down on me
My walk becomes a crawl
I want the winter to have died and turned to spring
I’d see the cold and frigid glances passing through
We’d watch the grass begin to power through the soil
We’d watch the grass begin to power through the soil
We’d watch the grass begin to power through the soil
We’d watch the scales fall
I know it’s worthy of the pride I sacrificed
And all of the tears I cried tonight
Show me faith I dream about
As long as you’re here I’m strong
And I’ll believe in every word I heard you say tonight
Finding peace despite tonight
You’re strength I lack tonight
and steadier than I am
And I’ll remember every bone I heard that broke tonight
Seeking solace from the light
My eyes have seen too much tonight
My ears have heard their full
Will you remember all the times you said you wade with me
Through the dark till we can see
All the sharks with clarity
You’re steadier than I am
I’m frightened the most of missing you
I punish myself for finding joy
And focus on what I have to lose
It’s hard to believe in what he says
When I have the strength to silence lies
Hearing now I feel secure
I know it’s worthy of the pride I sacrificed
And all of the tears I cried tonight
Show me faith I dream about
As long as you’re here I’m strong
And I’ll believe in every word I heard you say tonight
Finding peace despite tonight
You’re the strength I lack tonight
and steadier than I am
You’re folding your fingers into mine
You tell me that healing comes in time
It won’t be the same again
Do you believe in rebirth and lives becoming new
It’s hard to believe in much now
The weight is crushing me now and cutting off my air
I’m finding hard to stand at all
You’ve gotta relate to this
I want you to tell me yes
Knowing you have my trust
Believing it’s for the best
Feeling this vulnerable
Letting down every wall
Not looking down on me
My walk becomes a crawl
I want the winter to have died and turned to spring
I’d see the cold and frigid glances passing through
We’d watch the grass begin to power through the soil
We’d watch the grass begin to power through the soil
We’d watch the grass begin to power through the soil
We’d watch the scales fall
I know it’s worthy of the pride I sacrificed
And all of the tears I cried tonight
Show me faith I dream about
As long as you’re here I’m strong
And I’ll believe in every word I heard you say tonight
Finding peace despite tonight
You’re strength I lack tonight
and steadier than I am
And I’ll remember every bone I heard that broke tonight
Seeking solace from the light
My eyes have seen too much tonight
My ears have heard their full
Will you remember all the times you said you wade with me
Through the dark till we can see
All the sharks with clarity
You’re steadier than I am
Lyrics submitted by Kyo000
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