Paranoia is the insect
Working its way
Through my subconscious thoughts
It's the larve
Of my self doubt
Gestating in my heart
As I spiral down

And everything I touch is breaking
And it falls to earth in splinters
And I shiver
As every splinter finds its way
Underneath my skin
And after 22 years I can still make my skin crawl
Every shortcoming's a pitfall
On my way
To making amends
Within myself to be
To be what I became

Sometimes it feels like the whole wide world Has made itself
My enemy
But I will stand upon my own two feet And raise
Raise my head up

I lick my wounds
Trying to cleanse the infection
Rabid and diseased
Reality fades away
When I pushed myself
Too far
A dream of emotional perfection
Has left a wounded heart
Trying to perceive
The gifts inherent inside me
It's like squeezing the trigger
It's like opening first
On everyone who's let me down
On every beautiful lie that is
That is only fiction

Sometimes it feels like the whole wide world Has made itself
My enemy
But I will stand upon my own two feet And raise
Raise my head up

For the first time
I'm losing control
And I like it
Freedom feels like the noose is gone
For the first time
I'm losing control
And I like it
Freedom feels like the noose is gone


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    Yet another awesome song by Atreyu.

    bleedingmascaraon November 25, 2004   Link
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    one of the best songs on the cd....atreyus music is extrorinary or however its spelle dhaha

    Ultra_Lordon November 30, 2004   Link
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    Atreyu is life.

    loveisillnesson March 15, 2005   Link
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    this song kicks @§§ soo much, to me it is about a man who had to forgive himself for ... himself because of life.. and how he is letting go of life and the freedom is like the world being lifted from his shoulders, im weird though hee hee

    Larutan-Midianon April 01, 2005   Link
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    i think its about a guy where everything he does goes wrong in every aspect, but thats not going to stop him or bring him down cuz he knows there will be a time where he is happy, where the "noose" of bad luck will be gone

    There_is_no_fayton July 17, 2005   Link
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    This song is about Paranoia, and when he says "freedom feels like the noose is gone", he is refering to paranoia as the noose.

    HardcoreIsLifeon February 20, 2006   Link
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    It's like a struggle people go thorugh in order to live life, it either treats you well or badly, it seems the character inthe song has had a bad life and seems to be the cause of his own pain... but the pain is paranoia 'Sometimes it feels like the whole wide world has made itself my enemy' the world isn't literally his enemy, but what has become of him has led him to believe this.

    EmoScreamoKidon August 22, 2006   Link
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    wow how can anyone understand what this guy says

    notoriousnoobon September 26, 2006   Link
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    I think this song is about a man trying so hard to make things how he wants but only finding failure in his attempts. It seems like everything he tries to do only makes things worse. He finds that when he just lets everything go how it will go, he is free from the struggle of perfecting something that will never be perfect.

    Soundsoldieron April 05, 2007   Link
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    It's about struggling with paranoia, feeling like you're the cause of all your own problems, and wanting to be rid of it all through the use of violence.

    kickass song at that

    blazedinacoffinon July 26, 2007   Link

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