This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Woke up with beauty in my bed
And isn't it sad
How we don't know it's beauty until it's dead
And it's beauty that I knew so well
But she wasn't doin too well
Well
I just wanna go someplace
Where noone knows my name
And I don't have to explain
No I don't have to retain that I
Lie to myself or protect myself
For the benefit of myself
I want power in my words
I want passion in my eyes
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I guess that I didn't know it all along
And I guess that I never guessed
That I'd ever guess wrong
Guess wrong
And I set myself up everytime you leave
Everytime you leave
To destroy the things I've got
For the things I need
Each conversation separate from themselves
Separates good from bad
And they never want what you got
Until it's up for grabs
And then they want what you have
They want what you have
Well I just wanna go someplace
Where noone knows my face
And I don't have to explain
And no, I don't have to retain
That I lie to myself
That I protect myself
For the benefit of myself
I want power in my words
I want passion in my eyes
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I guess that I didn't know it all along
And I'll never guess that
I'd ever go ahead and guess wrong
Guess wrong
And I set myself up everytime you leave
Every time you leave
To deny the things I love
For the things I need
For the things I need
I want to break through
To break through
Oh I want one thing
I wanted
To come through
Oh to come true
I want passion in my eyes
I want power in my words
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I never thought
That I'd wake up
And be starving for you
No I never thought
That I'd wake up and I'd be hungry
I'm hungry for you
To break through to break through
I want one thing I wanted to come through
Ah, to come true
I want power in my words
I want passion in my eyes
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I guess that I didn't know it all along
And I'll never guess that
I'd ever go ahead and guess wrong
Oh I want to break through
To break through
I want one thing I've dreamed for
to come true
To come through
Oh I set myself up
Every time you leave
To destroy the things I've got
For the things I need
To destroy the things I love
For the things I've seen
And isn't it sad
How we don't know it's beauty until it's dead
And it's beauty that I knew so well
But she wasn't doin too well
Well
I just wanna go someplace
Where noone knows my name
And I don't have to explain
No I don't have to retain that I
Lie to myself or protect myself
For the benefit of myself
I want power in my words
I want passion in my eyes
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I guess that I didn't know it all along
And I guess that I never guessed
That I'd ever guess wrong
Guess wrong
And I set myself up everytime you leave
Everytime you leave
To destroy the things I've got
For the things I need
Each conversation separate from themselves
Separates good from bad
And they never want what you got
Until it's up for grabs
And then they want what you have
They want what you have
Well I just wanna go someplace
Where noone knows my face
And I don't have to explain
And no, I don't have to retain
That I lie to myself
That I protect myself
For the benefit of myself
I want power in my words
I want passion in my eyes
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I guess that I didn't know it all along
And I'll never guess that
I'd ever go ahead and guess wrong
Guess wrong
And I set myself up everytime you leave
Every time you leave
To deny the things I love
For the things I need
For the things I need
I want to break through
To break through
Oh I want one thing
I wanted
To come through
Oh to come true
I want passion in my eyes
I want power in my words
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I never thought
That I'd wake up
And be starving for you
No I never thought
That I'd wake up and I'd be hungry
I'm hungry for you
To break through to break through
I want one thing I wanted to come through
Ah, to come true
I want power in my words
I want passion in my eyes
And when I wake up
I want life to be a surprise
And I guess that I didn't know it all along
And I'll never guess that
I'd ever go ahead and guess wrong
Oh I want to break through
To break through
I want one thing I've dreamed for
to come true
To come through
Oh I set myself up
Every time you leave
To destroy the things I've got
For the things I need
To destroy the things I love
For the things I've seen
Lyrics submitted by geekusa
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