"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" as written by and Matthew Arnold Thiessen....
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics

'Cause I don't want you to know where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it.
See that line, well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there, well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'Cause who I've been only ever made me.

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.


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"Who I Am Hates Who Iæve Been" as written by Matthew Arnold Thiessen

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  • +1
    General Commentamazing lyrics.
    walls so thickon October 02, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General Commenteven though I obviously know what the title of the song is, I keep hearing "who I am MAKES who I've been"....

    meaning:
    regret
    second chances
    redemption
    guilt
    growing up and reflecting on the growing process.

    i don't really see the addicition interpretation, but if you do, that's cool

    I LOVE the video for this song.
    napasahon December 19, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe most ridiculous thing in my life right now: I'm agnostic, and I can't put down this cd. Thats how good relient k is in a music sense.
    bendingsilverspoonson January 08, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentGotta love it.
    Kaylaaaaon November 01, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti could never figure out what that first line was....!

    anyone know what a peruvial sunrise is...? :-/
    miss la de daon November 12, 2004   Link
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    General CommentIt's actually proverbial - OR so their CD slip says, but i doubt these lyrics are wrong since they are straight from the cd lol

    Proverbial - Of the nature of a proverb.

    pro-verb (prvûrb)
    n.

    A word or construction that takes the place of a verb or verb phrase, such as do in the sentence She likes ice cream and I do, too.

    A short pithy saying in frequent and widespread use that expresses a basic truth or practical precept.

    a trite maxim; a similitude; a parable. The Hebrew word thus rendered (mashal)
    has a wide signification. It comes from a root meaning "to be like," "parable."
    Rendered "proverb" in Isa. 14:4; Hab. 2:6; "dark saying" in Ps. 49:4, Num. 12:8.
    Ahab's defiant words in answer to the insolent demands of Benhadad, "Let not him
    that girdeth on his harness boast himself as he that putteth it off," is a well
    known instance of a proverbial saying (1 Kings 20:11).

    this is taken from Dictionary.com.. I am still confused
    Wheresyourhopeon November 14, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis is...uh...Let It All Out

    ...I think...unless my Winamp is acting up
    Lunchbox3002on November 26, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General Commentlove this song<3
    distancex3on December 19, 2004   Link
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    General CommentI would like to say thanks to Matt for writing this song about MY life in the past year.. lol.. Only Kidding, but this song like really is my past year. Cause I really do hate who I've been. I can relate to both a friendship and my relationship with Christ.

    Proverb - A forceful and brief statement that expresses a basic truth. .. The sun always rises- that is a basic truth.

    The second verse really gets me. I think its about someone who really doesn't have anyone to turn to, and even if they did they don't feel comfortable talking about it. So they hold it in, they get paranoid and jumpy. And all the pressure is building , even though they are getting away with everything. To them it feels like things are about to come crashing down. The next part, I feel is where they incorporate Christ into the song. "Reverberating footsteps synching up to the beating of my heart." Like Christ was already in his heart he had just screwed up and Christ was pounding hard in his mind trying to tell him to come back. "And I was positive that unless I got myself together
    I would watch me fall apart" Need I say more?
    He says he couldn't let that happen again because he is humiliated about what he has done before and that he has has to pick up the pieces of his broken life all by himself.

    The Chorus needs no explanation. It is very flat out. It's a confession to someone that he has messed up and he's sorry it took so long for him to see it and change.

    Stay True, "Weyne"
    2Tired2TryAgainon December 27, 2004   Link
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    General CommentI love this song too
    snesskon January 02, 2005   Link

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