This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Last night we went to bed not talkin'
'Cause we'd already said too much
I faced the wall you faced the window
Bound and determined not to touch
We've been married seven years now
Some days it feels like twenty-one
I'm still mad at you this mornin'
Coffee's ready if you want some
I've been up since five thinkin' 'bout me and you
And I gotta tell ya the conclusion I've come to
I'll never leave I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up
We'll get around to that
I think I'm right I think you're wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just wanna be mad for a while
For now you might as well forget it
Don't run your fingers through my hair
Yeah that's right I'm bein' stubborn
No I don't wanna go back upstairs
I'm gonna leave for work without a goodbye kiss
But as I'm drivin' off just remember this
I'll never leave I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up
We'll get around to that
I think I'm right I think you're wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just wanna be mad for a while
I'll never leave I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up
We'll get around to that
I think I'm right I think you're wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just wanna be mad for a while
'Cause we'd already said too much
I faced the wall you faced the window
Bound and determined not to touch
We've been married seven years now
Some days it feels like twenty-one
I'm still mad at you this mornin'
Coffee's ready if you want some
I've been up since five thinkin' 'bout me and you
And I gotta tell ya the conclusion I've come to
I'll never leave I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up
We'll get around to that
I think I'm right I think you're wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just wanna be mad for a while
For now you might as well forget it
Don't run your fingers through my hair
Yeah that's right I'm bein' stubborn
No I don't wanna go back upstairs
I'm gonna leave for work without a goodbye kiss
But as I'm drivin' off just remember this
I'll never leave I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up
We'll get around to that
I think I'm right I think you're wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just wanna be mad for a while
I'll never leave I'll never stray
My love for you will never change
But I ain't ready to make up
We'll get around to that
I think I'm right I think you're wrong
I'll probably give in before long
Please don't make me smile
I just wanna be mad for a while
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