So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I'm not feeling so bold
Can't you see I don't want to grow old
And my photograph's an epitaph of parody
I don't want to be me
I'm not feeling so sure
It would help if you offered a cure
If I wait, it's too late for the remedy
I don't want to be me
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
I'm not feeling so well
Maybe we could just sit for a spell
And make amends, it depends on my injury
I don't want to be me
I don't want to be me
I don't want to be me
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to just run
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
Can't you see I don't want to grow old
And my photograph's an epitaph of parody
I don't want to be me
I'm not feeling so sure
It would help if you offered a cure
If I wait, it's too late for the remedy
I don't want to be me
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
I'm not feeling so well
Maybe we could just sit for a spell
And make amends, it depends on my injury
I don't want to be me
I don't want to be me
I don't want to be me
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to just run
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
Lyrics submitted by .one.last.try.
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