This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
You're my, my reason to shame
(My reason to shame)
I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
(Discarded worthless throw it away)
Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?
(When I turn and walk away
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling means
Too fucking scared to create
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling and too scared)
One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
(Discarded worthless throw it away)
Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?
When I turn and walk away
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
You're my, my reason to shame
(My reason to shame)
I'm not wishing anymore
I'm not writing songs for you
I sleep better in the dark
I'm not doing this for you
This is because of you I don't believe
Tongue tied an institute of my relief
One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
(Discarded worthless throw it away)
Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?
(When I turn and walk away
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling means
Too fucking scared to create
Abandon, its not worth the effort
When stalling and too scared)
One wish that this is over
You are all I waste today
(Discarded worthless throw it away)
Will it tear you apart?
Will it?
Will it tear you apart?
When I turn and walk away
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)
I'm not holding onto this
I'm not wasting words on you
I sleep alone in spite of it
I'll do anything for you
This is because of you I feel relief
Tongue tied to investigate what I believe
You're my, my reason to blame (my reason to blame)
Lyrics submitted by ChokingDownEmbers
The After Dinner Payback Lyrics as written by Brian Deneeve Benjamin Perri
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The drumming in this song is AMAZING. omg.
really great song .. I can SO relate to ..oO
really great song .. I can SO relate to ..oO
i think its the fact that he hates her but every second he has to think its about her he doesnt want to be with her but something is telling him to be falling in love is easy its getting out thats the hard part and some people never get out loves a cage man
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i hate the internet. at 1:06, is it how its posted on songmeaning:
"abandon, its not worth the effort When Stalling means Too fucking scared to create abandon, its not worth the effort When stalling and too scared"
because i noticed on a different site this is how it was posted:
"Looked back and...not worth the effort Stolen and chewed up, cut, scathed, and relieved Looked back and...not worth the effort You've stolen the true skin"
because i believe it could just as well be the second one. Although i dont have the album so i dunno. maybe the correct lyrics are posted in the booklet or something. But still. amazing amazing song never the less
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