You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
Now you know
Where I've been
As you sleep
Torn I am
Weighted down
Patiently
Worn as hope

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And through it all
Into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
Far below
The creatures scream
Stranglehold
A god machine
Begging to
Tear us out
Born of love

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just the tears inside your head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And through it all
Into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough
You know I'm not dead

We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze
Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway
But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every cog
The fickle fascination of an everlasting god
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
Forever waiting on cruel death
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living for myself
Forever waiting...
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead





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  • +1
    General Comment:C.O.G. stands for children of God. I think this song is about questioning religion. Very heavy. This song is great, but don't you think Corgan's rant when the music stops gets annoying? His voice is very high-pitched.
    TommyCap77on June 16, 2006   Link
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    General Comment:I see it completely differently. You guys don't understand Billy Corgan. Almost every Pumpkins song is somewhat cluttered by depression. I'm not going through it anymore..but i have been heavily depressed before. "I'm just living in my head" is really a feeling that i had. When you're in this depression you're disconnected. and you seem dead to practically everybody. So this seems like him shouting back at everybody..and at the same time shouting about the idiocy of depression. The Everlasting Gaze is an everlasting vision of hopelessness and no destination.
    audiorage092on February 25, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:maybe it like a dedication or a song for his fans.. that him and the band still exist.. (machina era)

    it's like. if you know someone in the past and you remember that someone, they are not considered dead, they live in our heads.

    so like him, if the fans still think about and supports him and the band, they still there playing music.. it's not yet their end..

    they stay in the fans' memories but memories are not forgotten.. memories live inside our head. waiting to be remembered. it may consider everlasting coz it doesn't die, unless dies on a cruel death..
    dede80on August 13, 2008   Link
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    Song Meaning:Omg im reading yout interpretations and i can't help to think that this song is absolutely not about god, his fans, the music industry and sh*t

    Here it goes, my own interpretation, and I believe it to be bether than any of those above:

    The song is about love. As usual. Particularly about the desire to love.

    The thing that is given voice in this song is the desire to open one'self soul to another and give in to another love adventure, yet this feeling is repressed, and it's telling that it'll never die, until cruel death hits it's owner

    now you know where i've been
    as you sleep, torn i am
    wear you down
    patiently
    born of love

    it lurks, patiently, it is born out of love

    forgotten touch
    forbidden thought
    we can never have enough

    this thing tells that it cannot be hold back for long

    forever waiting
    on the ways of your desire
    you always find your way
    and thru it all, into us all you move

    this basic desire to give in to love and open one'self soul to another is inherent to every human bean, and billy, the author of the song, basicaly tells that he tried to deny this feeling, based perhaps on a bad previous experience, but in the end, it will never die

    the everlasting gaze ultimately means being in love, surrendering to love and it's ilusions, and the song tells that we all want that, to be enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway, but he the author is in fact repressing hes feelings



    desauridoon January 08, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:My speculation is that Billy is speaking to God when he says, "You know, I'm not dead". He feels forgotten by God, forsaken by God and this is his (sarcastic) way to remind God that, hey, I'm still alive/help me out here. It makes sense if you think about it. When he says "And through us all, you move" he seems to be speaking about some kind of spiritual entity. Anyhow, let me know what you think.
    DeathRockBoyon June 13, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:i agree DeathRockBoy
    Maggoton June 15, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:I agree.
    coldinhereon July 08, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:Wait, scratch that last msg, actually I've heard a better intepretation online somewhere saying this: it's about those who have turned their back on Corgan letting them know "you know i'm not dead."
    coldinhereon July 12, 2002   Link
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    General Comment:no, i think its a message to God of some kind, especially the lines
    "we all want to hold in the everlasting gaze
    ... the fickle fascination of an everlasting god " - this could be about feeling forsaken by God.
    Sireneon August 05, 2002   Link
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    General Comment:I think it's about god too because it talks about the "fickle fascination of an everlasting god"
    some1_named_no_1on August 22, 2002   Link

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