This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I remember way back when I wanted you to be mine,
and now that I kinda had you I wonder was it all a waste of time?
And did it make sense jumping into something knowing that I'd get hurt.
Well I don't know but my boss thinks not it makes me
less productive at work.
And all my friends told me to look out,
'cause you were treating me like shit.
But I swallowed my pride, and bit my tongue and tried to just deal with it.
And I blame the whatevership's termination on why things are never fine.
I dreaded this moment from the day that we met, we have to say goodbye.
Now all I do is pine and smoke with all my friends.
I regret not moving on even though I told you I did.
Fuck, shit, damn it, how many times do I have to call
you now just because you called me first?
We're nothing together but a bunch of obligations that
just make me feel worse.
So why was I the last to know when you ride some other guy?
And why should I have even cared that night you said you cried?
Well my stomach threw up my daily nutrition and your
anti-morals robbed me blind.
I loved you and you blew it and you broke your own heart.
So eat this last goodbye.
And all that time we wasted on each other did it mean
so little that you could find another
to replace me, whatever I mean,
my heart as well. When can I get over this/stop hating myself?
As the days go by I'll find someone better to keep
me warm in the cold winter weather.
You had to slit my throat, fist the wound, and bleed my carcass dry
So piss off. This is the last goodbye.
and now that I kinda had you I wonder was it all a waste of time?
And did it make sense jumping into something knowing that I'd get hurt.
Well I don't know but my boss thinks not it makes me
less productive at work.
And all my friends told me to look out,
'cause you were treating me like shit.
But I swallowed my pride, and bit my tongue and tried to just deal with it.
And I blame the whatevership's termination on why things are never fine.
I dreaded this moment from the day that we met, we have to say goodbye.
Now all I do is pine and smoke with all my friends.
I regret not moving on even though I told you I did.
Fuck, shit, damn it, how many times do I have to call
you now just because you called me first?
We're nothing together but a bunch of obligations that
just make me feel worse.
So why was I the last to know when you ride some other guy?
And why should I have even cared that night you said you cried?
Well my stomach threw up my daily nutrition and your
anti-morals robbed me blind.
I loved you and you blew it and you broke your own heart.
So eat this last goodbye.
And all that time we wasted on each other did it mean
so little that you could find another
to replace me, whatever I mean,
my heart as well. When can I get over this/stop hating myself?
As the days go by I'll find someone better to keep
me warm in the cold winter weather.
You had to slit my throat, fist the wound, and bleed my carcass dry
So piss off. This is the last goodbye.
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