Still awake on a winter's day
Skies are gray and it's cold
Smoke signals from my last cigarette
Lets me know that it's finally getting old
Everybody hates me for the night before
The man you saw wasn't me
And now there's blood upon the bathroom floor
I've got a disease.

Wait a while all i need is a friend
Come on stay a while won't you please understand

I'm fucked up with nothing ahead but the end
I know that I'll never get sober
And I'm fed up with this miserable life after death
I know that I've taken my last breath

Memories of how it used to be
Painted thick on my walls
Cold illusions pumping through my veins
Felt them there but I didn't hear them call
Washed away all my darkest fears
Shoved them down to my soul
I keep them aged like a vintage wine
I'm sure they'll come out when they're ready to go.

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    General CommentSomebody who fucked up there life because of alcohol
    less_than_jasonon April 30, 2004   Link
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    General CommentThe only part of this song that doesn't fit to me, is "I'm fed up with this miserable life after death"
    I took it to mean I don't like what's coming in the afterlife, but I'm not sure how this fits into the song. It would make sense if he dreaded it, because he seems to have done some sort of crime while drunk. Why is he "fed up". though?
    theflingeron March 28, 2005   Link
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    General CommentHe feels as though he's already dead. Right now he's still alive, but very much he is dead (or perhaps who he once was is not dead, and he's someone else). Dead on the inside. And he's fed up with being alive but not feeling alive. That's my take.
    Jimmifrisbeeon April 17, 2005   Link
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    General CommentLife after death could be dealing with life without alcohol. However he mentions that he'll never get sober, so perhaps he's simply referring to a hangover. Each night he drinks he "dies" and then comes back to miserable life.
    Taltoson July 08, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti think the life after death think is basically saying that cuz he's drunk all the time, the person he was without alcohol has died, and now he's just leading the life of an alcoholic, hence life after death
    JayC1on July 12, 2005   Link
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    Song MeaningDo you want the real meaning of this song, because you all are on the right track and so close but completely missing something very important. All of you refer to him or Chuck, the writer singer of the Caddies, as the character in this tale of lyrics, right? Not the case people, HE, as you refer to in the song, is Robbie Roy Robbison from Santa Ynez CA, the Caddies home town. The lyrics are the tale of Robbies failure to recognize love and meaning in himself and the flagrant withdraw of honesty to all of those who loved him the most and to give meaning to the filth he showed us as a warranted response. He was a coward and The Caddies could not believe they lost someone they always could understand. This they hurt and told in lyric because all else failed.
    tcashewon January 03, 2010   Link
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    Song MeaningThis song is about someone with alcoholism and end-stage liver disease. In the first verse, the speaker is chain-smoking cigarettes because he's just vomited blood in the bathroom. The speaker notes how everyone in his life hates him because of his behavior when he's drunk. As an aside, bleeding in the gastrointestinal tract is a common symptom of end-stage liver disease because of blood thinning cause by cirrhosis.

    The bridge is self-explanatory. The speaker wants someone to stay with him long enough to see the person behind the disease and wants someone to understand his dependency on alcohol.

    The chorus is also very straightforward. The speaker knows he lacks the strength to get sober even now that his alcoholism is life-threatening. He's fed up with being drunk all the time, but feels powerless to stop it.

    The second and final verse is a bit more abstract. I believe that the 'memories of how it used to be' refer to when the speaker used to party and enjoy drinking with company, and they have manifested in tar-stained walls from everyone smoking inside his house. The 'cold illusions' in the speaker's veins probably reference the chills that an alcoholic will get from withdrawel. They are 'illusions' because they only exist in his mind and he feels them but doesn't want to drink again to make them stop. When the speaker says he 'washed away his darkest fears' he is quite obviously talking about how he drank alcohol to numb himself of fear and emotion, but he knows they will come back in the moments before his death.
    bittidon February 12, 2012   Link

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