This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
i wish you could see yourself standing there now. so tall so proud so bold. do you recognize those footprints in the sand? they have always been your own/ its beautiful.
so whats another day to spend away from her and die a little more inside? its just another night to lie awake and wonder... i've written a thousand pages in her name and i just want to know, does she ever regret? does she miss our love? my soul has shattered and fallen to the floor. i still remember your face and how beautiful you were to me. when we were beautiful, together. looking back it was so beautiful. it could have been so beautiful. i remember.
i tried to understand you, but i can't.
so whats another day to spend away from her and die a little more inside? its just another night to lie awake and wonder... i've written a thousand pages in her name and i just want to know, does she ever regret? does she miss our love? my soul has shattered and fallen to the floor. i still remember your face and how beautiful you were to me. when we were beautiful, together. looking back it was so beautiful. it could have been so beautiful. i remember.
i tried to understand you, but i can't.
Lyrics submitted by thedevotedtype
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This song.. Ahh words cannot describe its beauty. I tried adding all these lyrics before, but for some reason they wern't accepted and thedevotedtype managed to get them added...
Anyway theres a spoken word passage from the novel "Time Quake" by Kurt Vonnegut, which I will now post for you lovely beings:
<i>"At ten o'clock the old, long out-of-print science fiction writer announced it was his bedtime. There was one last thing he wanted to say to us, to his family. Like a magician seeking a volunteer from the audience, he asked someone to stand beside him and do what he said. I held up my hand. "Me, please, me," i said.
The crowd fell quiet as i took my place to his right.
"The universe has expanded so enormously," he said, "with the exception of the minor glitch it put us through, that light is no longer fast enough to make any trips worth taking in even the most unreasonable lengths of time. Once the fastest thing possible, they say, light now belongs in the graveyard of history like the Pony Express.
"I now ask this human being brave enough to stand next to me to pick two twinkling points of obsolete light in the sky above us. It doesnt matter what they are, except that they must twinkle. If they dont twinkle they are either planets or satellites. Tonight we are not interested in planets or satellites."
I picked two points of light maybe ten feet apart. One was Polaris. I have no idea what the other one was. For all i knew, it was Puke, Trout's star the size of a BB.
"Do they twinkle?" he said. "Yes they do," i said. "Promise?" he said. "Cross my heart," i said.
"Excellent!" he said. "Now then: Whatever heavenly bodies those two glints represent, it is certain that the Universe has become so rarified that for light to go from one to the other would take thousand or millions of years. But i now ask you to look precisely at one, then precisely at the other."
"OK," i said. "I did it." "It took a second, do you think?" he said. "No more," i said.
"Even if you had taken an hour," he said, "something would have passed between where those two heavenly bodies used to be, at, conservatively speaking, a million times the speed of light."
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"Your awareness," he said. "That is a new quality in the Universe, which exists only because there are human beings. Physicists must from now on, when pondering the secrets of the cosmos, factor in not only energy and matter and time, but something very new and beautiful, which is human awareness."
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All was well with his teeth. This was his finale: "I have thought of a better word than awareness," he said. "Let us call it soul."</i>
The intro is... just... holy... This intro is beautiful- Although that's not a strong enough word.
i tried to understand you, but i can't.
^anyone know where that part comes in at? i can't find it.
kurt vonnegut is my favorite writer this band is incredible
"Frist" word, eh?
I love this song, despite the somewhat cliched lyrics. They're simple, but for some reason, really good.
I just came across this band by accident, and their lyrics are so beautiful. I haven't actually heard any of their music, but the lyrics alone blow me away.
I Would Set Myself On Fire For You is probably one of my favorite Screamo band and this song is just beyond amazing...It is beautiful.
this song blew me away. i just love it, it was the only song that i felt this way about. this band has something most bands cant do to me, its just....touches me? i meen, the melody, everything. really, i wish i could see these guys live
I believe he says "I've written a thousand pages to you" instead of "I've written a thousand pages in her name." Go listen to it.
this is a great song, thank you posting the story part DarkerShadeofWinter, its amazing and i couldn't understand a lot of what they were saying without it because of the instruments