This song was originally written by a guy called Peter Gutteridge. He was one of the founders of the "Dunedin Sound" a musical scene in the south of New Zealand in the early 80s. From there it was covered by "The Clean" one of the early bands of that scene (he had originally been a member of in it's early days, writing a couple of their best early songs). The Dunedin sound, and the Clean became popular on american college radio in the mid to late 80s. I guess Yo La Tengo heard that version.
Great version of a great song,
(I've been changin' but you'll never see me)
I've been changin' but you'll never see me
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
'Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
'Cause I'll be busy watching things going my way
Never looking back on this anymore
'Cause what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
I've been changin' but you'll never see me
Now I'm blaming you for (everything)
(I'm so far away)
Hey, hey, watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey, hey, I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey, hey, watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you
(I'm so far away)
I've been changin' but you'll never see me
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
'Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
'Cause I'll be busy watching things going my way
Never looking back on this anymore
'Cause what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
I've been changin' but you'll never see me
Now I'm blaming you for (everything)
(I'm so far away)
Hey, hey, watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey, hey, I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey, hey, watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you
(I'm so far away)
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this song reminds me of this strange relationship i'm in. we're not together romantically, but i've pretty much invested everything in this guy. we live on the same campus, and are together 24/7. he knows about my adoration for him, and uses it to his advantage. i've wasted five years of my life, hoping that any attention he gives me shows that he might care for me deep down, but it's become painfully obvious how manipulative he can be. i heard this song on the radio the night we spoke last, right after a big fight. i know i'm going to be alright, because i truly feel "so far away" from all the bullshit he put me through. and you're damn right i'm going to blame him, cause as we all know, it so much easier than blaming ourselves.