she said to me, over the phone
she wanted to see other people
i thought, "well then, look around, they're everywhere"
said that she was confused...
i thought, "darling, join the club"
24 years old, mid-life crisis
nowadays hits you when you're young
i hung up, she called back, i hung up again
the process had already started
at least it happened quick
i swear, i died inside that night
my friend, he called
i didn't mention a thing
the last thing he said was, "be sound"
sound...
i contemplated an awful thing, i hate to admit
i just thought those would be such appropriate last words
but i'm still here
and small
so small.. how could this struggle seem so big?
so big...
while the palms in the breeze still blow green
and the waves in the sea still absolute blue
but the horror
every single thing i see is a reminder of her
never thought i'd curse the day i met her
and since she's gone and wouldn't hear
who would care? what good would that do?
but i'm still here
so i imagine in a month...or 12
i'l be somewhere having a drink
laughing at a stupid joke
or just another stupid thing
and i can see myself stopping short
drifting out of the present
sucked by the undertow and pulled out deep
and there i am, standing
wet grass and white headstones all in rows
and in the distance there's one, off on its own
so i stop, kneel
my new home...
and i picture a sober awakening, a re-entry into this little bar scene
sip my drink til the ice hits my lip
order another round
and that's it for now
sorry
never been too good at happy endings...



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    pretty self expainitory

    danny_Horneyon April 23, 2004   Link
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    does anyone knows where to find this song? the lyric is absolutely incredible...

    bee10on March 10, 2006   Link
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    "while the palms in the breeze still blow green and the waves in the sea still absolute blue "

    i love that

    bharQon April 24, 2006   Link
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    Where the flip can you find this song?

    Cam-winon May 05, 2006   Link
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    i have the song, e-mail me at s2malik@ryerson.ca if you would like a copy. it is amazing especially since it is so similar to "i'm open" with eddie simply saying the words as opposed to singing them.

    sidrahon May 12, 2006   Link
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    I discoverd this song probably about a year and a half ago. Ever since then it is ALWAYS on my "Top 25 Most Played" Playlist on my iPod.

    What a human being he is. The sound of his voice is what gets me. The heartbreak sounds so fresh in his voice.

    HardToImagineon February 16, 2008   Link
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    It's the hidden track on the Japanese version of Lost Dogs. Not very easy to track down, but worth a search. I used to be a huge Pearl Jam fan, but rarely listen to them anymore. This one, however, amazes me and I listen to it regularly. The spoken word deliverly over the subtle guitar is as beautiful as anything the band ever did.

    thatguymarkon April 07, 2008   Link
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    But the horror, everything i see is a reminder of him... Most depressing song after Mad World.

    Hebzon April 23, 2009   Link
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    I love this song. Before listening to this, I never knew something so narrative can be that much beautiful.

    smilitudeon February 24, 2010   Link

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