I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time
Seijaku no kyouki ni katame wo
Tsubusaseta mama

You've gone away
From the stage leaving no words
There's just fake tears left
Isuwari no shinju de kazatta
Bara no hanataba wo sagasu

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love
Gnkaku no ai ni kawareta
Aatsuri ningyo

Get me on my feet
Get me back to myself
Pretend you love me
Yubisaki made shinku ni somatta
Ore wo mitsumete

Moe taekirenai kodoku no serenade
Kyozou no umi ni nagashite
Yume kara sameta chimamire no tenshi wo
Mune ni daitemo
I can not stop

Silent jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Kanashimi ni midarete
Modorenai ai wo kazaru
Kurikaesu kodoku no naka ni

Tell me true doko ni yukeba
Kurushimi wo aiseru
I still want you love ai wo tomete
Kurui saku kioku wo keshite

I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away
By the tide of time, even you
But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories

You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
Tachisaru mae ni koroshite
Kyouki no ai ni dakareta hitomi wa
Nani mo mienai
Ima mo I miss you
Can't live without you

Silent jealousy
Yume ni ochite
Dakishimeru kioku wo
Stay in yesterday
Toki wo tomete
Kurikaesu kodoku wo keshite
Take me back to the memory, to the dream
Silent jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Kanashimi ni midarete
Kill me love



[TRANSLATION]

I'm looking for you
Trying to reach your roses
Carried away by the time

Playing with the silent madness

You've gone away from the stage
Leaving no words
There's just fake tears left

Looking for that bouquet of roses
That are admired through false pearls

I'm blind insane
In the red of silence
Now I've lost your love

Look at me
I'm stained to my fingertips in deep red
I can't stand this song of silence
Flowing into the sea of phantom images
Even if I hold my heart
The blood stained angel that has arisen
I can not stop

Silent jealousy
Don't you leave me alone
Falling into sadness
Adored by love
That I can't return to
Into this repetitive solitude
Tell me true, where ever I go
I must learn to love this pain
I still want your love
Stop your love
Silence the memories
Where the madness grows

I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel the breath of your grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
When consciousness returned
Everything had been washed away by the tide of time, even you
But the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
Stop my tears
Stop my loving
Kill my memories

You dyed my heart in blood
No way to kill my sadness
Kill me before you leave
I can't see anything
With the vision set on maddened love
Even now, I miss you
I can't live without you

Silent jealousy
Fall into a dream
Keep holding on to the memory
To the dream
Silent jealousy, don't you leave me alone
Fading into sadness
Kill me love


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    Why has no one else commented on this beautifully pained piece yet? "Silent Jealousy" is an exquisite segue from "Piano String en Es Der" (Eng. title) that opens the "Jealousy" album. The piano is absolutely breathtaking and so well married with those twin guitars in the solo... I must maintain that Yoshiki is perhaps the most brilliant of all the modern-day music composers, and "Silent Jealousy" is a prime example of his intolerable genius trapped and contained within a single song.

    Nepentheson February 28, 2006   Link
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    this is the best song of X-japan

    Valmightyon August 17, 2006   Link
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    This song is like one of the greatest ones out there, i can feel the emotion from this song, i saw it on a custom vid with final fantasy vii: advent children. U gotta see it, it makes u want to check out the movie itself, anyways, this song has pure talent written all over it.

    urbestlatinloveron March 28, 2007   Link
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    Good rythm, nice vocals, kick ass drums, awesome guitar. What more can I say? XD Oh, and the "I just wanted to stay with you I just wanted to feel your breath of grace I didn't know what to do I couldn't say anything When consciousness returned Everything had been washed away By the tide of time, even you But the scars of memory never fade away I can't stop loving you Stop my tears Stop my loving Kill my memories"- piece, did Yoshiki say that? Or was it Toshi? That voice is so sexy XD

    Juriion August 25, 2007   Link
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    yes the piano and duo guitar is awesome, even my piano teacher can't play that lol

    @jurii: the one who read the poems was always yoshiki

    Valmightyon October 01, 2007   Link
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    One of X Japan best songs!!! Too bad they never played it on Dahlia Tour :(

    Kurenai Tenshion February 18, 2008   Link
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    This is one of my all time fave songs of x japan, crucify my love, tears and rusty nail being my others favourites :)

    Stop my tears Stop my loving Kill my memories

    These 3 lines are my favourite lyrics ever as they perfectly describe how I'm feeling and how I have been feeling all through this year.

    But yes this is one of the beautifullest song's I have ever heard <3

    LRainbowon September 25, 2009   Link

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