up, along the rocks
it's good, it's not so hard now.
up, I bite my tongue
who cares?
this chance to drop off
all that you left
you left for someone
all of this hurt that's wilted off
oh this relief, it's the oddest thing
oh my God, oh my God, oh my God.
Chen, he'll never come
that's fine, I lost my thought
Wei, Huai could talk me down
still, still this chance to drop off


Lyrics submitted by surname collet, edited by kenoux

Apistat Commander song meanings
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  • +4
    General Commenti got high at this job where i moped flores and i was listening to this song while filing the mop bucket and it made me cry and it felt great
    kickme8xon February 04, 2007   Link
  • +4
    General Commentoh, and don't listen to xiu xiu too much, it gets way depressing. start listening to fun shit and have sex with all the girls you can -- especially if they are dating other dudes., that's how i got over it. i'm pathetic.
    mattius6on July 10, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThis song is about suicide. The song focuses on a person standing at the edge of a cliff, and ready to jump. He realizes that all of the hard stuff is now finally behind him, and he can just take a step and he will be free. He bites his tongue, as he is still uncertain of what to do, and states that he thinks that nobody cares.

    "all of this hurt that's wilted off"
    Simply, he doesn't hurt anymore.

    The person is somewhat suprised at all of the relief that this position provides him, as he is finally entirely in control, and this relief scares him. Subconsciously, he wants someone to talk him down, but he realizes that that's not going to happen, and that he is alone. I imagine that Huai is a reference to a former lover.
    Drealothon October 19, 2004   Link
  • +2
    General Commentlove this song. i'm a very hesitant dude to get in a relationship. fell for a girl and after a while she told me she was also dating another guy and i couldn't deal with that. listened to a promise non stop and slept in grave yards and brought her flowers everyday for a week, then she moved to kansas. this song sums that up for me.
    mattius6on July 10, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General Commentyour apistat is the part of your body which tells your brain your full so your stomach doesn't explode,
    i think he's signaling he's had enough
    Joeyfuckingtoddon March 30, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Commentthis is my favorite too.

    though i really do think it is one of the most depressing songs i've listened to.

    his emotion is just sometimes overwhelming.
    oldsadsongson December 01, 2004   Link
  • +1
    General CommentWell, Wei Hui Feng is a pretty famous actress. Maybe it's" Wei Hui could talk me down..." ?
    warmroadon May 30, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentWei Hwu is someone who played on Walnut House on this album.
    Grey_Ghoston July 13, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI love all the things Xiu Xiu will do/say that other people wouldn't think of doing/saying.
    Who would've thought that the words "oh my god" in a song would be so catchy?
    Fucking awesome.
    ComparedPallidon April 28, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General Comment^ worst post I have ever s--OH WAIT THIS ISN'T 4CHAN
    Nightmare Foxon October 29, 2006   Link

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