This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
You're on your own my little nightmare, you cannot stay here
It's far too bright for you
If they attack you, just lay there
Play dead dear, it's your only hope of pulling through
And seconds, they seem like a lifetime
A dream, recurring, a dream that can't come true
And they'll pin it all on you
After all you've been put through
"Sadie G, she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say
Now, Ms. Susan A, you're losing
Every opportunity to put us all away
You run along, my little nightmare
Your job is done here
You've scared them all to death
If they revive them, just sit there
Just smile dear, make them thankful for every breath
The sentence may seem like a lifetime
A scream, that's curdling the blood they found on you
And your knives and clothing too
Charlie's broken .22
"Sadie G, she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say
Now, Ms. Susan A, you're losing
Every opportunity
Well, they found you and they shipped you up the river
The same way that you've bound and gagged
You've shot and stabbed
You tried to set 'em free, but they've thrown away the keys
"He represented a God to me, that was so beautiful
That I'd do anything for him
I'd do anything for God
Even murder, if I believed it was right, how could it not be right
If it was done with love?
I have no remorse for doing what was right to me, I have no guilt in me"
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
It's far too bright for you
If they attack you, just lay there
Play dead dear, it's your only hope of pulling through
And seconds, they seem like a lifetime
A dream, recurring, a dream that can't come true
And they'll pin it all on you
After all you've been put through
"Sadie G, she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say
Now, Ms. Susan A, you're losing
Every opportunity to put us all away
You run along, my little nightmare
Your job is done here
You've scared them all to death
If they revive them, just sit there
Just smile dear, make them thankful for every breath
The sentence may seem like a lifetime
A scream, that's curdling the blood they found on you
And your knives and clothing too
Charlie's broken .22
"Sadie G, she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say
Now, Ms. Susan A, you're losing
Every opportunity
Well, they found you and they shipped you up the river
The same way that you've bound and gagged
You've shot and stabbed
You tried to set 'em free, but they've thrown away the keys
"He represented a God to me, that was so beautiful
That I'd do anything for him
I'd do anything for God
Even murder, if I believed it was right, how could it not be right
If it was done with love?
I have no remorse for doing what was right to me, I have no guilt in me"
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
Whoa
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