I've boarded up the windows to keep the morning from intrusion
I've left it on the doorknob, could you please just not disturb
On days like this we find it so hard to push ourselves up and out of bed
When nothing falls in favor of
I have so many things I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to communicate
I can't take this body shaking
Dress and we'll begin
Nights can be so violent when beds become vacant
So now I've blown it once again,
this would have been the last offense and
You should have been here months ago with open arms and honest face
Addres full doubt you've ever felt frustration well I'm choking on it now
And it's the hardest thing for me to shake
Is it because of this vacancy that you swear never to believe?
Honestly honest me, with a look that's so deceiving
I'll bite, chew, swallow, and digest the hands that feed me
With a bayonet for a tongue,
Swallow words inadvertently,
And to the organ flame I'll maintain a close adjacency
I have so many themes; I would love to explain to you
Farewell to all the days you were, within my reach,
and as of right now everything is making perfect sense.


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    General Commenti can't believe that no one has commented on this song.
    i am not sure about the meaning but it really is an incredible song.
    SilentScreamon May 19, 2004   Link
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    General CommentTo me this song appears to be about a guy who has fucked up a relationship with a chicky and now he's regretting it and is depressed as a result of this. I love every bit of this song, the lyrics are amazing, and its just a beautiful song. Definitley one of FATA's best songs
    deftones_flawon October 02, 2004   Link
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    General CommentWhat i get from this song is that it's about someone who was somewhat involved with someone, but there so used up from other relationships that there messing up what could be the greatest thing if they just gave it a chance. But there so hurt from everything else that there throwing it all away.

    "You should have been here months ago with open arms and a honest face"
    autumns_goneon October 10, 2004   Link
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    General CommentThey had a relationship that was somewhat good. But their relationship was interrupted by various things. And now he still loves her, but knows it couldnt work. He feels that he wil be alone forever, and that he needs to be. And it makes sense to him that they weren't meant to be even though he loved her...
    LoveCanDieon November 22, 2004   Link
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    General CommentI think the song title says it all.
    a7x_hxc_03on December 16, 2004   Link
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    General CommentThis song is my favorite song ever. It reminds me of life in general. Growing up and realizing whats become of people and things close to you. and you just want to be alone.
    kick_meon February 22, 2005   Link
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    General CommentMy Absolute favortie FATA song! Means so much to me because I think it's about exactly what "autumns gone" said... and in my life I'm going though the exact same thing.
    Beautiful song like most of FATA's.
    TorpidCrucifixon March 03, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti think you guys are all wrong in my opinion.
    i think its the stages of a relationship.
    "I've boarded up the windows to keep the morning from intrusion
    I've left it on the doorknob, could you please just not disturb
    On days like this we find it so hard to push ourselves up and out of bed
    When nothing falls in favor of"
    he was some emo kid in the beginning.

    "I have so many things I would like to explain to you
    But I don't know just how to communicate
    I can't take this body shaking"
    he finally found someone and its so hard for him to talk to her.


    and ya, you get the idea...

    and in the end they break up and shes having trouble moving on but he knows its for the best.
    SOADfataATREYUon August 04, 2005   Link
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    General CommentThis song touches my fucking heart. I'm surprised no one's commented it. To me, being full of bad decisions and mistakes, it's about leaving someone and realizing that you just walked out on something you'd rather you hadn't. "Nights can be so violent when beds become vacant. So now I've blown it once again.." and "And it's the hardest thing for me to shake."

    I don't know, maybe it's because I just walked out on the best relationship of my life, and that's all I can see in any song about regret. You say a bunch of mean shit, and you act like an asshole, just to come to realize that you never should have walked out the damn door.

    ...I'm an idiot, though, so don't listen to me.

    totaldissolutionon February 02, 2007   Link
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    General Commentso is it just me or is the begining of the song sorta sex related?
    i just cant see to fix it into the rest of the song to make sense..
    idk..jus maybe..
    juliehatesmondayson April 12, 2007   Link

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