I'm lost, I'm afraid
A frayed rope tying down a leaky boat
To the roof of a car on the road in the dark
And it's snowing
If I'm more, then it means less
Last call for happiness
I'm your dress near the back of your knees
And your slip is showing
I'm a float in a summer parade
Up the street in the town that you were born in
With a girl at the top wearing tulle
And a Miss Somewhere sash
Waving like the queen

Beauty's just another word
I'm never certain how to spell
Go tell the nurse to turn the TV back on
And throw away my misery
It never meant that much to me
It never sent a Get Well card

I broke like a bad joke
Somebody's uncle told
At a wedding reception in 1972
Where a little boy under a table with cake in his hair
Stared at the grown-up feet as they danced and swayed
And his father laughed and talked on the long ride home
And his mother laughed and talked on the long ride home
And he thought about how everyone dies someday
And when tomorrow gets here where will yesterday be
And fell asleep in his brand-new winter coat

Buy me a shiny new machine
That runs on lies and gasoline
And all those batteries we stole from smoke-alarms
And disassembles my despair
It never took me anywhere
It never once bought me a drink


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    General Commentsometimes people's comments on songs from "Reconstruction Site" show that they haven't listened to the entire cd... because, even though the songs can stand alone, they're extraordinary together.

    considering that the cd is eventually building up to the death of someone. someone who knows they're going to die, soon enough.
    (of course we all know we're going to die, but it's been made very real to this person)
    the cd takes you through the journey of the feelings that one might feel if placed in the situation. it's all, like all weakerthans songs, very personal.
    remembering and wishing and regretting and hoping and knowing you have to get on with it and be happy in the time you have left.
    and it's also about the feelings anyone close to this person is feeling, watching their friend change only to die.

    death is one of the most harrowing things to think about - but if anything has the power to change people, death does.
    the significance it plays in Transcendentalism and Romanticism and human life is so dear to me.
    Consider poems such as "Ulysses" and "In Memoriam" by Alfred Lord Tennyson and "And Thou art Dead, as Young and Fair" by Lord Byron.
    AND! Reconstruction Site by the Weakerthans.

    Death is something that ties all humans together - no matter what they believe, how they've lived/are living, what they aspire to be, what they hate or what they love. We all have death.
    We will all one day die, we will all one day be returned to the earth in order to sustain it in the same way that it kept us alive.
    And we'll all be afraid of death sometimes. and we'll all be sad because of death sometimes. and we'll all feel unmistakably alive because of death sometimes.

    this song (this album) expresses that in such a beautiful and precious, thought-provoking, life-changing way.
    loveinvincibleon December 12, 2006   Link
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    General CommentWhat can I say, profundity, childhood, hope, and brilliant imagery. I especially love the line "Buy me a shiny new machine that runs on lies and gasoline and all those batteries we stole from smoke alarms." There's something brilliant in that line that speaks to the essence of whatever faith is.
    syurixon April 22, 2004   Link
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    General Commentthis is just a guess

    yeah i think it has to do with how important life is yet, when yoiu're a chile you never have to worry about things like that...beauty...death...

    when this "child" starts thinking about beauty, maybe the thing that distracts him or her is the nurse turning back on the tv, just like a kid should get distracted, it also says the tv throws away his misery, so that he doesn't need to think about it.

    Same when the kid starts thinking about death, he wants that new machine that "dissassembles my despair"

    not sure if that's right, that was my first crack at this song.
    thegiantmommaon October 14, 2004   Link
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    General Commentit's a kind of oddly hopeful song.
    he wants to be happy, and feels ready to be happy...
    catherinekson October 23, 2004   Link
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    General CommentI remember stealing batterys from smoke alarms:)
    eyesuckinkon January 27, 2005   Link
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    General Commentnostalgic moments strung together... family, community, rites of passage...
    how we look back through our child-eyes, and see how wonderful, and wrong it canall be
    neuralstaticon April 03, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI love that he's realizing how little good being miserable does you. It's a lesson that's taken me 22 years to learn.
    catherinekson May 11, 2005   Link
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    General Commenti think the shiny new machine is a guitar connected to a pedal, as guitar pedals use those batteries you steal from smoke alarms, and i can imagine him looking at his feet, looking for words. lies and gasoline may reference touring. otherwise it's a story.
    rjennaron July 22, 2005   Link
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    General CommentThis is my theme song! Ok maybe not, but it'd definately be on my soundtrack if there was one about me:-) Right now, I'm living a pretty wierd life, all kinds of things happening, and meanwhile I'm reconstructing it. It's hard to explain, I've seen some pretty fucked up thuings in my 15 years of life, and I need a shiny new machine, or in my words, something to take me to another realm, someplace where I can forget about everything. So far, it seems that this girl I know can manage to do that;-) so I think I might work on that, and this song will guide me.
    victoryguy11on July 25, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI agree that this is about nostalgia and coming to terms with mortality. I also think that it has a hopeful ring to it, like this person has been rinsed clean by this realization of death. He's throwing away his misery and dispair, realizing that it never contributed to his life so he lets it go. I love the memories of family gathers and thoughts. "When tomorrow gets here, where will yesterday be?" and "Beauty is just another word that I'm never certain how to spell" are some of my favorite lyrics. I love the Weakerthans! I can imagine falling asleep in my brand new winter coat so well...
    feaadon January 22, 2008   Link

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